Male

23

About me:
My entire life i have always heard people discribe themselfes based on terms created by others. however i have never heard one that seemed to make me think: "hey thats me exactly" so for the pupose of trying to discribe myslef im going to create a compound phrase of my own. I think that for this purpose a term in the arena of poly-morphous kosmo-drought will do. Poly-Morphous Kosmo-drought- One who seeks spirtual,emotional, physical and social enlightenment, thru the constant search and partisipation in all they can find of the human experience. One of many facets who absorbs all that they see and allows it to be a part of what they are to become. A person who is in constant development, a journey of endless reinventment. This person is good at everything they try but never excells at anything due in part to a lack of focus in any one area. Said person is rarely satisfied and is always searching for the next thing that may free him of the greatest passion and deepest flaw. one who has no place or click that he can call home.One who on the surface fits with anyone and noone. He of many faces, many lifes, many passions,and many crimes. This person can chose no place or path because it never feels just right. The masks this one wears are varied in scope and experience. Each situation he owns makes this monster grow. Both a genius and a idiot in the same breath. This one is lost but always found for they find home in any moment. With people of any type or mind set. A cameleon who changes to suite his company at will, one who wonders if there is a true self buried inside and if it was revealed would it be shunned. Good and Evil with a balance of stable and purposeful insanity. For those he knows and loves he gives the best parts that he can. Trying to supress the rest, but it is always there. A killer of men and a lover of mankind this person seeks to bring peace and happiness to those good people he finds the whole time knowing he will never be able to count anyone his kind. He seeks the beauty of the world in all its vastness, a tour which he wishes to see thru its entirity. The self destructive force of his wandering he can see clearly but feels its neccesity, After all destruction is creation. In all he views and does he makes none his own, music is all burrowed and enjoyed at random then set aside for something new. This person seems to be missing something others have, for he loves everything that life brings forward the good and the beautiful as well as the evil and ugly. He feels like he has purpose and wants to leave the world a better place but he knows that he is lost in a world that has no place for him. But even still he is happy and everywhere he looks there beauty all the unique people he meets cause him grow and learn. He holds his friendships dear but the struggle to protect them for his horrible secret is a great burden. this person is easy to talk to and a trusting loyal friend, he finds the truth of a person thru gental understanding and respect but it breakes his heart to know that he is not capable of offering the same to anyone. his depth is his greatest strength and most brittle weakness. All this aside his biggest drive is love and thats what keeps him moving forward living in liquid contradiction. Where can a man of this nature find his place and will any one ever be able to understand and love more then a mask? now what can i say about myself that would not sound like bullshit.lol I like to live and i love how life puts things in front of you just when you need them or sometimes when you need those things less it takes those things away. I often wonder if im crazy because i have such a hard time fitting in. every one thinks they are special and some would say all people are, one thing i know for sure is that i'd like to make a difference in this world in someway that secures my personal knowlege that im worth the space i take and the air i breath.