Babblings...

To everyone

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 21:57:22 GMT

I just wanted to say thank you to the wonderful people in my life. I feel a love and tenderness for all of you and wanted to express so. Each one of you has touched my life is a specific special way. Remember when you are feeling like shit that someone out there does think of you and is always (even when I am pissy) sending you love. Remember when life gives you cow shit, build a house! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love is not something you think about, but a place in which you dwell. -Christopher Moore-

Cats need home

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Fri, 04 Jul 2008 22:33:35 GMT

My mom has two three year old female cats that need a home. They are completely healthy. They need to be separated and put into a single pet situation. Please let me know if you are interested.

State says Same Sex Couple have The Right To Marry

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Thu, 15 May 2008 18:04:50 GMT

State Supreme Court says same-sex couples have right to marry Bob Egelko, Chronicle Staff Writer Thursday, May 15, 2008 (05-15) 10:31 PDT SAN FRANCISCO -- Gays and lesbians have a constitutional right to marry in California, the state Supreme Court said today in a historic ruling that could be repudiated by the voters in November. In a 4-3 decision, the justices said the state's ban on same-sex marriage violates the "fundamental constitutional right to form a family relationship." The ruling is likely to flood county courthouses with applications from couples newly eligible to marry when the decision takes effect in 30 days. The ruling set off a celebration at San Francisco City Hall. As the decision came down, out-of-breath staff members ran into the mayor's office where Gavin Newsom read the decision. Outside the city clerk's office, three opposite-sex couples were waiting at 10 a.m. for marriage certificates. City officials had prepared for a possible rush on certificates by same-sex couples, but hadn't yet changed the forms that ask couples to fill out the name of the "bride" and "groom." Kenton Owayang, the office supervisor for the city clerk's office, said he's waiting for word from the state registrar's office about marriage forms and working on getting extra staff members in today in case the city is able to give out the certificates to same-sex couples. Ed Harrington, the general manager of the city's Public Utilities Commission, was one of the staff members in the mayor's office shortly after the decision was released. Harrington has lived with his partner for 35 years and in 2004 Harrington married about 40 same-sex couples. "You wait for this your whole life," said Harrington, who said he planned to call his partner and say, "I love you. What more do you say on a day like this?" The PUC chief said he's unsure if he'll get married if Newsom resumes the City Hall marriages. "What's important is to be able to (get married) if you want to," he said. The celebration could turn out to be short-lived, however. The court's decision could be overturned in November, when Californians are likely to vote on a state constitutional amendment banning same-sex marriages. Conservative religious organizations have submitted more than 1.1 million signatures on initiative petitions, and officials are working to determine if at least 694,354 of them are valid. If the measure qualifies for the ballot and voters approve it, it will supersede today's ruling. The initiative does not say whether it would apply retroactively to annul marriages performed before November, an omission that would wind up before the courts. The legal case dates back to February 2004, when Newsom ordered the city clerk to start issuing marriage licenses to couples regardless of their gender, saying he doubted the constitutionality of the state marriage law. The state's high court ordered a halt a month later, after nearly 4,000 same-sex weddings had been performed at San Francisco City Hall. The court annulled the marriages in August 2004, ruling that Newsom lacked authority to defy the state law. But it did not rule on the validity of the law itself and said it would await proceedings in lower courts. Some of the couples immediately sued in Superior Court and were joined by the city of San Francisco, which said it had a stake in ensuring equality for its residents. The case that ultimately reached the state Supreme Court consolidated four suits, one by the city and three by 23 same-sex couples in San Francisco and Los Angeles. Superior Court Judge Richard Kramer, ruling in the San Francisco cases, declared the ban on same-sex marriage unconstitutional in March 2005. He said the law violates the "basic human right to marry a person of one's choice," a right declared by California's high court in 1948 when it became the nation's first court to overturn a state ban on interracial marriage. Kramer said the law also constitutes sex discrimination - prohibited by another groundbreaking California Supreme Court ruling in 1971 - because it is based on the gender of one's partner. But a state appeals court upheld the law in October 2006, ruling 2-1 that California was entitled to preserve the historic definition of marriage and that the state's voters and legislators, not the courts, were best equipped "to define marriage in our democratic society." The appeals court also said California is not discriminating against same-sex couples, citing state laws that give registered domestic partners the same rights as spouses. Those laws provide such rights as child support and custody, joint property ownership, inheritance and hospital visitation, and access to divorce court. But domestic partners are denied marital benefits under federal law, which means they can't file joint federal tax returns, collect Social Security survivors' benefits or sponsor one another as immigrants. The suits before the court relied on the California Constitution, which state courts have long interpreted as being more protective of individual rights than the U.S. Constitution. The initiative that California voters are likely to consider in November would write a ban on same-sex marriage into the state Constitution, a step already taken by voters in half the states. Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger has twice vetoed same-sex marriage bills, citing a ballot initiative approved by more than 60 percent of the state's voters in 2000 that reaffirmed California's opposite-sex-only marriage law. That initiative was not a constitutional amendment, which requires more signatures to qualify for the ballot. Suits similar to those that went before the California Supreme Court have been filed in other states, but only the Massachusetts Supreme Judicial Court has ruled that the state's constitution gives gay and lesbian couples the right to marry. Courts in Vermont and New Jersey have found their states' marriage laws discriminatory but left the remedy up to state legislatures, which opted in both cases for civil unions for same-sex couples rather than marriage. A similar ruling by the Hawaii Supreme Court in 1993 was overturned by a ballot initiative. The California case is In re Marriage Cases, S147999. The ruling is available at www.courtinfo.ca.gov/opinions. Chronicle staff writers Cecilia M. Vega and Heather Knight contributed to this report. E-mail Bob Egelko at begelko@sfchronicle.com.

The oath challenge.

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Tue, 13 May 2008 01:00:19 GMT

So below is the oath I took for the website www.tut.com. Very cool website, I want to take the Peruvian trip! Anywho I challenge all to take this oath, just for themselves. I think it's pretty great. Notes for the Universe Oath www.tut.com In the face of adversity, uncertainty and conflicting sensory information, I hereby pledge to remain ever mindful of the magical, infinite, loving reality in which I live. A reality that conspires tirelessly in my favor. I further recognize, that living within space and time, as a Creation amongst my Creations, is the ultimate Adventure, because thoughts become things, dreams come true, and all things remain forever possible. As a Being of Light, I hereby resolve to live, love and be happy, at all costs, no matter what, with reverence and kindness for All. So mote be it!

Beltane

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Tue, 06 May 2008 20:53:14 GMT

Well Beltane has come and gone. I had a pretty good time. It wasn't as warm as I would have liked it, but still it was fun. The tent heater that I borrowed was a lifesaver! It got pretty chilly at night. McLeod was initiated Friday night and Tim and Kia did a great job. It was quick, sweet, and poignant. The May Games this year were very nice. The out going royalty did a great job organizing the games. Everything was in the upper meadow this year, which was fun, more of a return to how things use to be done. The turn out was smaller than expected which is bad for money, but good for the people there. I enjoyed sleeping down below. Our group was there and it was nice to have a place away. It felt good to be distanced from all of the happenings. I was so involved last year that I really wanted to make sure that I stood back this year. I think I succeeded in that. All of the rituals were good. I really enjoyed the Saturday night ritual. I am not a huge fan of Bardics. I would prefer out of control partying, but hey everyone else seemed to enjoy themselves. There seemed to be an overall deeper understanding of what the energy of the weekend should be. Overall I had a good time. I hope things stay good through the year and that next year the controlling tribe will step down and let some new people in.

WEEEEEE!!!!!!

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Wed, 06 Feb 2008 18:53:00 GMT

I am off like a crazy woman. I am doing a hectic world wind tour of seattle. I will be looking a two schools and driving all over hell and back. Yehaw!

Gunpowder and Lead

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 18:50:10 GMT

So yesterday I heard a new song. Gunpowder and Lead by Miranda Lambert. The general premise is "abusive x is getting out of jail today and I am waiting for him by the door with my gun." This song made me cry because it so clearly represents my feelings. My x hub went to jail for violating his restraining order. I remember the date and time my ex got out of jail and waited for him to show up. Luckily I had someone with me and nothing happened, but there is part of my the wishes his ass will show up so I can shoot his ass. This song is so relevant to me because it shows how you can pursue the legal routes to try and stop someone like that, but in reality a restraining order is only a piece of paper and sending them to jail only pisses them off. I remember when the song Goodbye Earl by the Dixie Chicks came out. I didn't ever really get beyond a girl power song. It is interesting to listen to in now because it talks about how she pursued all the legal means to stop her abusive husband and "he walks right through that restraining order and put her in intensive care." This song is light and fluffy compared to Gunpowder and Lead. I am lucky because my x landing himself in jail has definitely curtailed his bad behavior, but I can't help but wonder if he is waiting for the restraining order to be up so he can show up on my door step and say hello. Unfortunately being stalked isn't an experience you can really understand unless it happens to you. And truly i wouldn't wish that on anybody.

Full Moon

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 21:32:11 GMT

It was the full moon Sunday and my crazy x husband decided to rear his ugly head again. At some point he found my car and followed it to my apartment complex. On Sunday night he broke in to it, I am assuming to see if it was still my car. My theory is that he saw McLeod driving it and followed him home. Then waited to until late at night and broke into it to see if I was on the registration, which I am. It is so tiring to deal with this shit. When will it end? When will he finally get past it? I have done everything I can think of besides kill him, to stop him, but nothing seems to really be working. Yes he is better. Since I put his ass in jail he has calmed down, but not completely. He does show up when I am on the freeway, or does something like breaking into my car. The problem is that none of this will do much. I am hoping to get a hold of the old detective and see if he can talk to my x’s probation officer. Maybe that will stop him. Also I am surprised that he hasn’t been brought up on drug charges, considering the amount of pot he smokes. My family keeps encouraging me to get a gun. They all want me to be armed so that if he does ever show his face I can shoot him. The problem with that is I don’t want to kill him. I just want him to leave me alone. Just go away. He can’t leave though. He is on probation meaning he can’t leave the state to go live in Arizona or Iowa where his family is. What a fucking catch 22. I put him in jail to have him leave me alone only to trap him in this area, thinking about how to piss me off. I do my best to move on with my life, to grow, and learn, but it is hard to get past it when he does something shitty and I get thrown right back into the craziness of his neuroses. I feel like there is something that I am not learning, that there is a reason he keeps popping back in. I have learned a lot about myself with this whole experience, but I still must be missing something because he hasn’t gone away yet. Maybe it’s that I am not suppose to be in Sacramento anymore. I really don’t want to move, but maybe I am suppose to. There are so much potential here for things to happen, to walk away. And really I don’t want to give that power to him. I don’t want him to think that I am leaving because of him. It is such a pain in the ass to do what I want to and be safe. I don’t want him to have power over me, which he still does if I am writing about it. He should not be a factor in determining what I do, how I act, and where I go. But he is. And the thing is not a lot of people can relate. It is similar to being raped, unless you have been raped you can’t really understand what the other person is going through. I have been dealing with this fucker for almost three years. Two of those have been through stalking. It amazing how you life changes with an experience like that. You memorize the look of the vehicles headlights, you can sense when you are being followed, you know the sound of their vehicle and a thousand other tiny little things in your mind and behavior that changes to be vigilant against your attacker. And though the attacks mostly aren’t physical you are still being attacked. There is still a mental beating that is taking place, where the attacked is always on the defense. I will wake from a dead sleep if Todd (My x) is near. Like when he broke into my car I heard him shut my car door, get in his truck and drive off. Did I see him? No! But I no longer have to. I have become so in tune with his juju that it wakes me up in the middle of the night. I even remember thinking I would need to check my car in the morning. I have done multiple magical things to stop him. I did a spell where you freeze a picture of the person to freeze what they are doing. I have done reiki, cleansing and protection rituals, and cord cuttings. These all seem to make a difference, but not enough so to stop him all together. I think the cord cutting helped me more than anything. He had done a lot of energy work to forcibly connect us, things that the average pagan/witch/energy worker would consider extremely unethical. The cord cutting did a lot to disconnect the shit he had attached to me. Now I don’t connect with his moods or know what he is doing which is good, but also it left me pretty clueless to his attacks. I did have a flash of memory earlier in the day before he broke into my car, but not enough so that I applied it to anything. My concern now is he knows what complex I live in and he knows where the car is. Him knowing where the car is leaves it open to be vandalized on a regular basis, one of his favorite pass times when I lived with my mom.

Sun God!

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 21:28:19 GMT

Yule has come and gone. It was a good time, a little tumultuous, but good. Yule was had at our Winter Queens house and I think a good time was had by all. Most of us stayed up all night to hold the vigil and welcome in the sun. It had been long time since I had stayed up that long and I made myself sick. So I drove home to get a few hours of sleep and then came back for the ritual on Saturday. It was great to see everyone. McLeod had been away on a business trip and came home Sunday. We did presents on Christmas Eve and I got good stuff, lots of books, which is always good for me. Christmas day was spent at my Mom’s along with the evening before. We opened presents and had a good time. So as some of you know I recently turned vegetarian (thanks to my Pop Culture teacher). Well, I am just figuring things out. I need some new cookbooks and such so that I can figure out how to make a good dinner. Anywho, Christmas was the first most of my family had heard about this new development. It was really interesting how they responded. Some tested my commitment by going down a laundry list of things that I would be missing out on. Others responded like I was judging them for eating meat, which I am not at all, if you choose to eat meat that is totally cool. Don’t judge me and I wont judge you. Some of them were decently defensive when I wasn’t questioning what they were doing at all. It was my first experience with “vegetarian” being a dirty word. There was part of me that was ashamed for not eating meat, even with my mom trying to come to my defense. It was a whole new experience. I am use to Witch and Wicca and Pagan being said with air of “you don’t know what you are talking about” but not vegetarian. And even now as I am beginning to express my personal belief that the biblical Jesus as a person never existed I thought vegetarian would be low on the list of insults. Speaking of Jesus I am finding it interesting how many people get defensive when I say, “Jesus never existed. He is simply a mythical sun god.” There is some evidence that Joseph from the Old Testament was an actually person, but not Jesus. I was shocked by how many people who claim to have a problem with Christianity defend the idea that Jesus was an actual person. Here is my thing, without taking into consideration all of the info about the myth and astrology, the little info we have about Jesus is so old that the likelihood of it being historically accurate is slim to none. And why do we believe all this bunk about Jesus when there are numerous myths that are almost the same and just as old if not older? What about the Book of The Dead? It is very clear when comparing the Bible and the Book of The Dead that the Bible took many of its stories and concepts from the Egyptians. The Ten Commandments, for example, are taken directly from the book of the dead. It seems strange to me that there are so many myths that are so similar, yet wars are being fought over Jesus, when he is nothing but another myth about astrology and the movement of the Earth. It’s fucking PAGAN!!!! Christians, hear me, these pagans and witches you are so willing to send to hell, and condemn are worshipping your God closer to tradition and more truthfully than you ever have. Remember him for the Sun he is!

Memories

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Wed, 19 Dec 2007 17:40:11 GMT

It is amazing how your body can have a physical imprint of something that happened emotionally, like today. Today is the 1-year anniversary of the finalization of my divorce with Todd. I remember being so happy last year, but this year all I want to do is cry. Maybe because of my anger then I didn’t have it within me to hurt. Our relationship was a disaster from the beginning and I didn’t even love him, but it is my biggest failure to date. For so long I was ashamed of the way I had handled myself. I had made such a mess and how that will affect my life for years to come. And there still is apart of me that feels like I failed my father. I didn’t keep his money and use it for my education, which is what he would have wanted. I know the experience has taught me a lot about myself. I have a pretty clear definition of what I want and who I am. I know how far I will let someone push me before I break. I know I can handle myself in a physical altercation and that really and truly I can survive anything life throws my way. I am lucky to know all of this at a young age. It has made me wise beyond my years and has given skills and tools to cope with life. The idea that life lessons get a little bigger and harder each time you get a new one scares me. “Life only gives you that which you can handle.” What the hell is next? I know I have lessons about remaining friends with an x and how to do a break up right. Also I have gotten a kick in the ass about being happy with myself. Currently doing what I think I need to, to make that happen. There is a part of me that feels like I need to be alone for a while, just me with myself. I feel like I didn’t get enough time to heal for the two years I was without a romantic relationship. There was just too much chaos then. I made a CD for someone that had asked me to. I tried for months to make a CD that I thought was good enough. I tried to be socially relevant and intellectual. Again and Again I tried to come up with something that I thought was appropriate. Finally I came up with the idea of making a CD that was a chronological soundtrack for the past three years of my life. I think I did a great job. There isn’t as much of an eclectic mix as I like, but it is pretty accurate. I was listening to it today to see how it flowed only to find that most of the songs still make me cry. The CD itself is not depressing, but some of the music I used to grieve, heal, release. It was interesting to how this music that I don’t really listen to anymore still hit home, directly to the emotions tied to the time period. I have found that this has been a big time of release for me. I have been reflecting, grieving and deciding what to do with myself. I graduate in May, but need to find a new job now. I might go to graduate school, but then again I might not. I want to find a job that keeps me entertained and pays well. I want to get healthy again. I am eating basically a vegetarian diet, though I have eggs and dairy products, and I am exercising every day. I have been finding quotes and affirmations and plastering them all over the place. There is a whole list in front of my treadmill that I read every morning. I have a list of things to do to start fighting the fear that controls my life like sing karaoke, read my poetry at an open mic, get a tattoo in a shop, sky diving, bungee jump, asking someone out who is out of my league, run for May royalty, give a presentation on sex ed to a bunch of pastors, etc… I will conquer each one as they come, knowing that I can do it all.

Ramblings

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Tue, 18 Dec 2007 06:29:04 GMT

Boredom strikes again. Along with avoiding writing my final paper that is do tomorrow. I can do 8 pages in one night, no problem ;) I am having the hardest time becoming motivated. I am changing my life so that fear and laziness aren't the controlling factors. That shit has GOT to change. I am still trying to decide if I am going to go to Grad school. I feel like the longer I am in school the less power I have over my own brain. Schools purpose it to teach us how to think. How to be good workers. It narrows you creative processes. It constructs the way we think into a very defined box. I am finding this more and more annoying. As a student at Sac State it is very clear that I am just one of the multitude. That there is nothing special about me. I am just another number that the school can make money on. I know that within this society I need that degree so I can get a job where I get paid well for not doing much. And most of the stuff I am learning isn't going to help me a whole lot with what I want to do. If there was a class on how to get grants and how to write a business plans to convince people to give you money. Those are the classes I need. I don't need money, but my company will to buy land, build a school, and support it. How do I start a compost business? Maybe I will need to do that first to get the money to build and support the school. How do I decide how much land I will need, based on the amount of students we want? I need help coming up with these answers. Teach me how to gather the people who will be with me the whole way. Teach me to believe in myself and have the motivation to get off my ass and do this. Show me how to have a plan, a place to start. Show how to maintain myself while working a job just to pay the bills and not get lost in doing so. I mean really, most of the stuff we learn in school wont ever be all that useful to us unless we become teachers, and even then it is your personal interpretation of the information. I think being a teacher can be stifling. They ALL, yes all, use they same examples and say the information in exactly the same way. (In the beginners mind there are many possibilities and in the experts mind there are few.) I don't want to be an expert. I don't want to limit my minds ability to think outside of what I have been taught. Though, that is already happening. Yes I was attracted to sociology because I was already thinking that way but now it seems almost impossible to get outside of that frame of reference. I feel like limiting someone's learning to just a specific path can really keep them from having a mind that can really think of something new. I don't want to stifle the children at my school. I want them to be able to think outside of the box and believe they can do it, whatever it is. Education is stifling. It just is. I know that things like math, and science are important along with art, music, etc. But I don't want them to end up like me. I want them to have incredibly open minds. Be able to think up shit that none of us can/could because we have been stifled by our education. As a person, educator, administrator how do you create that environment and also teach the children how to function within society. I would love it if there was a subculture like in Harry Potter where magic was accepted and real. Where there was a whole developed society that no one else knew about, but there isn't. At least not yet. These kids are going to change the world and we are going to be their foundation. So how do I start this? My heart aches for it. I feel like everyday that I am not trying to figure this out is a day wasted. It should NOT take me ten years, but I figured I would give myself lots of time. There is no doubt in my mind that this will happen. For me it is just getting the information detailed and organized enough to start trying to get donations, sponsors, investors, etc… I want to pay the employees really well and keep tuition almost non-existent. It is going to take a special breed of people to work out in the middle of nowhere in a private school. It really will have to be community oriented. I think the life might be hard, but I want to make sure that I have the best of the best working there. I want to poach college Profs, but I am not sure they would want to work with younger kids. I feel like though kids will act as old as you teach them. If you treat them as young adults they will do their best to live up to there standards. Also I don't know how a boarding school will work in the US. I feel like there is enough Hollywood folk that I could get to be interested in it that it would raise awareness about it. Also I think if we could market over seas then we really could get more kids. Boarding school is looked down upon in the US so I think that could possibly make it harder to get parents on board. There are so many details to take in to consideration and potentially the practicality of some of my ideas might be shot to hell. I might have to change and compromise or just give up. I understand that flexibility will be important, but there are important aspects that can't change. Like growing our own food, being zero waste, composting, recycling and being self-sufficient. The idea is if we can produce our own food (mostly), power, and water then the classic expenses of running a school wont be there. Though I want to spend extra on health care so that any medical issues for all person's enrolled or employed would be completely covered. I want to have a resident doctor that would take care of everything but emergencies and then a dentist that was the same. We will still have to pay employees, but their pay would be different depending on what options they took, if they lived on campus they would get paid less, but not have to pay for housing or expenses or most of their food. The idea of pay would then be so if they decided to change jobs they would have money to support themselves. Also plan for retirement, trips, etc… If they wanted to live on campus, but pay for their own medical and dentist, then their pay would go up so they could get it privately. Or through a company we have a deal with. It they lived off campus and didn't want the medical/dental their pay would the highest of all the options. I feel like there should be some pay increase for seniority, but I really want it to be merit based. Also I feel like being a teacher should be like having any other job. You get hire with a one-year probation, and then it's a regular job. You have to meet the criteria for being there and you can get fired if you suck at your job. There would have to be criteria developed for evaluation of students and teachers to determine the how the teachers are doing. There is just so much to do. I have to remember to take it one day at a time and one piece at a time. The resources will be there when I need them. The people will be there when they are needed. The school will be a huge success and run for many many years. Hopefully all the while staying true to what it was suppose to be. Hopefully it wont get caught up in the capitalist shit and become about profit. So I decided to google my professors. I think I found shit that none of them thought would be so accessible. Like, I found one that participated in a competition called Lord of The Chainrings. It's a total bike culture thing. And I found another's quote pertaining to an article about online dating. Sometimes I think that shit gets put on the Internet and you don't even realize it. It was fun. I have found because of my current job my diggin' up dirt skills are pretty damn good. The professor that I am going to work one on one with next semester is like a hippie punk "down with the man, man!" sort of guy. He wrote a piece on the Bohemian Grove. I got all excited when I saw that. There is such potential for me to really learn from him, not just jump through the appropriate hoops to get the grade. I am excited and scared. He is going to put me through my paces, but it really could be a mind-expanding experience.

Fuck You Professor!

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Wed, 05 Dec 2007 00:05:31 GMT

Ya so I literally told one of my professors fuck you today. Now I am thinking it was not the best idea, but he was normal when I saw him in his office after class. He showed us a PETA video today. I have seen them before, but I sat through this one. I need to remember that when a prof says "this is a disturbing video" I need to leave. The video was about how terrible commercial slaughter houses are. I know they are terrible I have read books and done research. Seeing video about it though is just ... hard. It just sucked. Hopefully I will not have dreams about it tonight. Anyways I was all upset after the video and walked up to my teacher and said fuck you. It was shitty to have to sit and watch that. I really should have left. Here's my thing, first, meat itself isn't bad. It is the way in which the meat is harvested that is bad. When and animal is treated like a sacred object and then killed as such it changes the way the interaction happens. Besides all the crazy stuff they pump into these animals, it is the lack of respect the companies have for the animal that is the worse. Second, is being a vegeitarian any better? Plants have a consciousness. It is much different than that of animals, but it is still there. Also the deforestation and terrible environmental and social practices of large scale farms, can be argued is just as bad as the slaughter houses. Really unless you are growing your own food or have enough money to grow only local organic grown food there isn't much to eat that isn't just fucked up. So what is a good pagan to do? Personally, I do my best to by organic and local, and hope that when I have opened my school that will reconcile some of my shit with myself. I think it is time to get back on the as little meat as possible band wagon. I have become increasingly lazy as I have gotten older, developed some really bad habits, it's time to start the change and stick to it.

Take Me Stuff

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Mon, 19 Nov 2007 04:04:46 GMT

McLeod and I are moving into a new apartment and need to get rid of stuff. So here is the deal, for a limited time I am going to have my stuff at our apartment. Let me know if you are interested in any of it and we will get together so you can take it. By next week it will all go to good will. Also I am selling two things. Please message me, email me, call me if you are interested. I will list the items below. Quite possibly I can deliver the items to you. Outback trading duster size xs. This is a true old school duster that looks just like those used by cowboys. Water proof and warm. I have barely ever worn it. Long polyester metallic black trench coat, size s, It is very nice. Nice Black Fairy wings with sparkles William Sonoma Nut bowl and cracker. They are both a nice dark wood. Neither have ever been used. Lava lamp with black top and base. Purple liquid and white wax. It needs a new bulb. Fitted leather case for a samsung cell phone. Still in package. Red halter top formal gown size two, great for prom or formal event. Maroon Strapless formal gown size 6. Four pairs of high heels, size 7 -7 1/2. Three pair have very high heel. Misc clothes all too small for me. Also an assortment of fiction books and music CD's. I am selling my Red Love seat and Bistro Table and chairs. They both are in pretty good shape. I will put them up on craigs list next week. Let me know if you need photos send me your email. The Bistro set is dark wood and the chairs have matching leather. $120 The Love seat is tomateo red with medium wood feet. Oh and it's mirco fiber. $160

This Weekend

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Sun, 04 Nov 2007 17:01:22 GMT

The Pub-Crawl, on Friday night, went great. We were hoping for more people, but just the right amount arrived so it went well. All were fabulously dressed, and dancing was fun. After the pub-crawl was the Dumb Supper which I think went great. As we were sitting down to the silent dinner a hunting pack of Coyotes caught their kill and we got to hear the whole thing. It was so cool. I know the Coyote represents many things in Native American Traditions. I should look that up. Our Priestess and Priest kicked butt all weekend. They did a great job with the Dumb supper. It felt like a family dinner and some people became emotional. It was just the right amount of time, no one was bored and no one thought it was too short. On Saturday was the full Samhain ritual. This is when we are to cross into the underworld. I was prepared to be there much longer than I was, but most people were done before me. It was great fun to set up alters out in the grass for people to be at and try to understand, learn from, etc... It was chaotic up until the very start of the ritual, but it all went beautifully. It was great to see the Priestess and Priest transform from doubt to "I can do this!" It was a new beginning for everyone! We are starting a new tradition at a new circle. The house of our Winter Queen is were he held ritual and she is very open to (and I think a little excited about) having her home and Backyard be a new place for a decently large gatherings. It looks like there will be a new circle starting at this place. I think this is going to work out well. We had a BUNCH of newbies, but all in all everything went well. I mentioned last night Priestessing Beltane, which is a VERY large holiday. I would have to jump through some extra hoops because I am not a second-degree initiate, but I think I would be supported. I know there is a friend that was interested also in being involved with Beltane, so maybe we could do it together. Beltane would be a group effort anyways because our Priestess from this weekend has some specific things that she wants included, and Our Winter Royalty would be involved because there would be a whole passing of the crowns, May games, ritual discussions that would need to happen. It would be a big project, but I feel like I can get it done. I have been so heavily involved in other rituals that I have no concerns of putting it together and carrying the energy. The only thing I need to decide on is if I want to be involved with Beltane again this year or if I want to take a break and just enjoy myself. I am already thinking of ideas and Samhain was last night! I guess there is no decision to be made. My heart is in it already. I already know who I will ask to do one ritual.

Samhain

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Fri, 02 Nov 2007 18:07:59 GMT

I am sitting here at work all strung out about this weekend. I have been energetically wound up for the past week or so and sex is not taking the edge off like normal. There is so much going on. Three big events this weekend with people I haven't seen in awhile. On top of the rituals I have a LARGE test and a VERY important paper due next week. I feel like life is a whole bunch of plateaus and climaxes. (Life is like having multiple orgasms. The more you have the more difficult it is to have another. Then you have to get more and more creative just to have one. ) I just wish I could get rid of the knot in my stomach. I need to chill so I can enjoy myself. My energy shifts at this time of the year. I was telling our High Priestess for our ritual that I think I will cross into the underworld and stay there. I can't wait to be running in that energy feeling calm and secure. Then there is the Samhain boy. There is a member of our community who only at Samahin our energies mesh. The rest of the year we don't get along so well. But at Samhain, man, all I want to do is fuck him. Just have the moment of raw passion. It won’t happen and I am ok with that, but there is a part of me that longs for a direct connection to that dark energy. This Samhain will be great. Two of my very good friends are priest/priestessing for their first time (with a ritual this large). Also The Woman who is allowing us to take over her house is going to be the Winter Queen. I was at her place cleaning (with our priestess) and as we were prepping the circle there was part of me that truly felt like this could be the next big pagan gathering place. There is a group of us whose home use to be Annwfn, but with all the drama and fucked up rituals we have felt the need to find a new home. I feel like the place this weekend could be the new home. This of course is very loose and far in the future, but there was a part of me that was like "hey, we can do this here. We can start our own circle and new traditions here." It was very exciting.

my semi crazy life

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Wed, 31 Oct 2007 04:45:21 GMT

My parents are out of town again and I have been watching their house, while McLeod has been staying at our apartment. Early Sunday morning after McLeod went to work at 4am someone broke into our apartment. They took nothing, but a can of loose change, but they did trash the place. We have put our apartment back together, done a cleasning and protection ritual to try and claim our space, but we decided today that we are going to move. We are staying in the same complex, but moving into a two bedroom place which we wanted to do anyway. This is kind of speeding up the process. This weekend is going to be great and crazy all at once. Three big events in two days. I love it! I got to help create part of the props and prep the place we are going to do it at. I have got a test next week that at some point I have to study for. I will get a great grade, so no panic. Tomorrow is Halloween which is a great day I am going to be a Corporate Witch while I am at work. This weekend I am going to be a Sexy witch at least for the pub crawl. I bought a costume and everything only to find out that the costume doesn't fit and I can't do a damn thing about it. No returns and no exchanges. Now I will be making up my costume with what I have. Seems like such a waste of money. Life is good. Today my honey and I ditched school so that we could spend the day together. It was really good for us. I don't know how good it was for my grades, but hey it was worth it.

Watch this video!

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Sat, 13 Oct 2007 17:08:25 GMT

I love it. One of my professors showed it in class. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cn52Px_h7_8

Car for Sale

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Sun, 30 Sep 2007 18:52:04 GMT

I am trying to sell my car again. It just got a check up and everything is in great shape. It is a 2001, Saturn SC1 with 60,000+ miles. It gets GREAT gas mileage, cd player, ac, sporty and fun. It is a great first time or commuter car. I am trying to sell it because I bought a new car with the plan to sell this one, but it just hasn't happened. We don't need two cars. There isn't anything wrong with it. I would love to sell it to a friend, but anyone will work. Price is $6500 OR best offer. I really would like to get rid of this unnecessary bill. Please let me know if you are interested!!

Help!!!!

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Sun, 09 Sep 2007 18:30:38 GMT

I want to open a pagan based boarding school. How strong the paganism will be is still up for debate. My goal is to have alternative education loosely based in German and French school where they start complex theory early within the children's career. Also I want critical thinking to begin early. As the children progress they will get to learn subjects that I feel are relevant to a pagan child's path (Herbology, Native American Studies, Sexuality, etc...). The other part about the school is that I want it to be the BEST green school ever. I would love to be completely self sufficient, but I think we will only be able to get close. I want to find land where we can have enough space to raise animals and crops so that we are providing some of are own food. Also I want to have an actual doctor and dentist on staff so that health care is provided. How realistic is all this? I don't know. There is a massive amount of work to be done. So I am going to need help, and lots of it. Opening a Pagan Private School (I don't know how Pagan though) is going to take a Butt load of work. The three largest pieces I need help with right now is research (regulations, curriculum, and finding the appropriate community), putting together a kick ass business plan, and securing funding. This process is VERY detailed oriented. I need teachers to help with the curriculum, business folk to help with the plan, and fantastic people who are willing to help with everything else. This is not a project I can complete on my own. I need help. So anyone interested in helping out with preliminary research because they feel there needs to be better school, please contact me. Seriously, hit me up. Even if you can only help for a short period of time, I still need your help. So Please, anyone willing to help commit some time, email me!!!!

Insects, Cats and Transformation

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Sat, 08 Sep 2007 22:23:21 GMT

I met a cat today. He was the size of a "regular" cat. Probably about 15lbs, maybe less. He had Bright true yellow eyes, bobbed tail and tall pointed ears. He was the color of wet cement, a very true gray. He was meowing loudly outside my door as I was leaving this morning. He had such a presence that when I saw him I jumped. He gave me a look like "Well? Aren't you going to let me in?" I didn't let him in though I did give him food. I hope he comes back. He was a very powerful being. I wouldn't be surprised if he had some Bobcat in him. I have been thinking for the past week or so how I would like a cat. I haven't seen a cat like this before in our complex so I don't think he is one of the wondering out door cats that live here. I really hope he comes back. Last night I had crazy dreams about Wasps, Cockroaches, and a Great Horned Owl. (I am feeling the need to buy Animal Speak, luckily a friends has it.) In the first dream, which I can only remember a piece of, I was in a corner (I don't know if it was a room or what) at night and my mom's husband was there. We heard an owl and he told me "There! That is a hoot owl." That is it/ The other dream I had, I was at my old room in my mom's house and there was dead and dying wasps all over my bed. I had to clean them up so I could sleep. I was in the process of taking care of the dead Wasps when for some reason I had to leave the room. When I came back the completely dead wasps were gone, but the partially alive ones were still there. As I was trying to capture the partially alive ones I accidentally got a different bug which made me jump. It was a cockroach. The cockroaches had taken all the dead wasps from my bed. I remember that I woke up wondering why it was people would cover themselves with Bees, but not Wasps. Crazy. I feel like the Goddess has a check list of all the shit I am suppose to deal with and she is trying to get me through the list quickly. Last month I dealt with crap from my mom's husband and now I am dealing with stuff from my ex. I almost feel like my emotions aren't mine anymore. And I am sure that my love is having quite a time trying to live with me. I am still learning about projection and not letting that happen. I find I tend to project shit onto him with out even knowing what is going on. It is so embedded in the way I handle emotions that it happens without conscious thought still. That has got to change. It is not fair to him to be screaming and yelling about shit that has nothing to do with him. I am going to be doing a big cord cutting to handle some stuff with my ex. I am sick of him having power over me. I got a lot of shit to handle. I thought school was going to be tough:)

Summer

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Tue, 21 Aug 2007 03:38:30 GMT

Man, where did the summer go? There definitely wasn't enough trips to the river or camping. Taking summer school was good, but I am glad I dropped my second class. It was good having the last 6 weeks off. I didn't get to spend enough time partying, even though I don't really party. It was great having friends here, and camping in my giant tent. I have learned a lot and grown up more. I have been TOTALLY broke and been able to buy what I want. My baby has grown SO much I can't even convey it. He has signed up for school, got a job, lost a job, and got a better one. He really is amazing. School starts for him in a week and for me in two. Our books together cost $900. Once schools starts for me I will be studying hard. I am taking 18 units and they are all requirements. It's a little crazy, but I have taken 21 before so I should be fine. Graduation is at the end of this year! Then I am done. What I will do from there I have no idea, but at least I will be done with CSUS. A friend and I are talking about going to holistic school, but neither of us know how we are going to pay for it. I have gotten back on my health train. I made Applesauce muffins and multi-grain scones. Breakfast is my weak point so to have healthy alternatives is very good. Hopefully I will get enough recipes under my belt to stop buying cereal all together. My favorite cookbook right now is "The Healthy Kitchen" by Andrew Weil and Rosie Daley. It is a really great cookbook for someone who is starting the eating healthy process, because it gives a list of what to stock your shelves with so you have on hand what is needed to make the recipes and create your own stuff. Also I am pre-making my lunches so I have a healthy alternative to the crap at my office. I am going to bring snacks and such so that I am not as tempted by the candy, chips, soda, and junk at my office. Also I am walking and working out at home. Taking a simple 45minute walk after school/work can make a huge difference in muscle tone and feelings of health. Hopefully I will stay on the train longer this time. I have a lot of summers left, but I am feeling like I wont have one like this. I want a job I love not one that I have to do. I hope I can find a way to make money that I enjoy, not that I feel like I have to do. I wonder where I will go from here.

Movies!!!!

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Tue, 14 Aug 2007 04:28:07 GMT

Ok So I just watched two online movies that EVERYONE should watch if they haven't. The first was Zeitgeist. This movie was obviously low budget, but had GREAT info. Fast forward through the first 10 minutes or so as they are only pics and music. The person who put together this movie must be friends with Aaron Russo because some of the points and footage was taken from Russo's own movie. the link to the movie is http://zeitgeistmovie.com/. Please, please, please send it too everyone because I believe it is very important to watch. Next was America: Freedom to Fascism. This is Aaron Russo's movie. From what I can tell it came out before the above movie. It is of high budget and was in a few theaters. This movie focuses directly on the income tax and what stems from it. It does offer some solutions, though they are very scary. The problem is that everyone needs to do these solutions together from them to work. I hope the American public stands up and defends itself. I am very worried it wont. The link is http://www.freedomtofascism.com/. This is the website and on the front page there is a link to see the whole movie on Google. Again please spread the word! People need to see these to fight back!

Animal Rescuer

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Mon, 30 Jul 2007 19:33:39 GMT

My Dad and I were involved with Australian Cattle Dog rescue when I was younger. We would take in, rehab, and find homes for dogs. There was a time when we would have 12 dogs at our home. I am sure there are some of my friends who remember all the dogs. Anyways the owners would call us and ask us to take their dogs. Sometimes we would also get calls from shelter asking to take dogs. We did the best we could. It wasn't ever enough, but we got to make a small dent in preventing dogs deaths. The excuse we got the most from women, for why they were giving up their dogs was "My boyfriend/husband doesn't like the dog." It was the most frustrating thing for me because the dog would have stayed with her and treated her better that her boy friend ever did. I came across an old email and I felt like it was very appropriate in describing what it is like to be an animal rescuer. The author is unknown, please read it. ________________________________________________________________________________________ Dear Mr. And Mrs. Average Pet Owner: Thank you for contacting us animal rescuers, shelter volunteers, and foster-homes about your inability to keep your pet. We receive an extremely high volume of inquiries and requests to accept surrendered animals (and none of us is getting paid, ok?). To help us expedite your problem as quickly as possible, please observe the following guidelines: 1. Do not say that you are "CONSIDERING finding a good home" for your pet or that you, "feel you MIGHT be forced to," or that you "really THINK it would be better if" you unloaded the poor beast. Ninety-five percent of you have already got your minds stone cold made up that the animal WILL be out of your life by the weekend at the latest. Say so. If you don't I am going to waste a lot of time giving you common sense, easy solutions for very fixable problems, and you're going to waste a lot of time coming up with fanciful reasons why the solution couldn't work for you. For instance, you say the cat claws the furniture, and I tell you about nail clipping and scratching posts and aversion training, and then you go into a long harangue about how your husband won't let you put a scratching post in the family room, and your ADHD daughter cries if you use a squirt bottle on the cat, and your congenital thumb abnormalities prevent you from using nail scissors and etc., etc. Just say you are getting rid of the cat. 2. Do not waste time trying to convince me how nice and humane you are. Your coworker recommended that you contact me because I am nice to animals, not because I am nice to people, and I don't like people who "get rid of" their animals. "Get rid of" is my least favorite phrase in any language. I hope someone "gets rid of" YOU someday. I am an animal advocate, not a people therapist. After all, for your ADHD daughter, you can get counselors, special teachers, doctors, social workers, etc. Your pet has only me, and people like me, to turn to in his or her need, and we are unpaid, over worked, stress-out, and demoralized. So don't tell me this big long story about how, "we love this dog so much, and we even bought him a special bed that cost $50, and it is just killing us to part with him, but honestly, our maid is just awash in dog hair every time she cleans. And his breath sometimes just reeks of liver, so you can see how hard we've tried and how dear he is to us, but we really just can't…" You are not nice, and it is not killing you. It is, in all probability, literally killing the dog, but you're going to be just fine once the beast is out of your sight. Don't waste my time trying to make me like you or feel sorry for you in your plight. 3. Don't try to convince me that your pet is exceptional and deserves special treatment. I don't care if you taught him to sit. I don't care if she is a beautiful Persian. I have a waiting list of battered and/or whacked-out animals who need help, and I have no room to foster-house your pet. Do not send me long messages detailing how Fide just l-o-v-e-s blankies and carries his favorite blankie everywhere, and oh, when he gets all excited and happy, he spins around circles, isn't that cute? He really is darling, so it wouldn't be any trouble at all for us to find him a good home. Listen we can go down to the pound and count the darling, spinning, blankie-loving, beast on death row by the dozens, any day of the week. And, honey, Fido is a six-year-old Shepard-Lab mix. I am not lying when I tell you that big, older, mixed-breed, garden variety dogs are almost completely unadoptable, and I don't care if they can whistle Dixie or send semaphore signals with their blankies. What you don't realize is that, though you're trying to lie to me, you're actually telling the truth: Your pet is special, wonderful, amazing creature. But this mean old world does not care. More importantly, YOU do not care, and I can't fix that problem. All I can do is grieve for all the exceptional animals who live short, brutal, loveless lives and die without anyone ever recognizing that they were indeed very, very special. 4. Finally, just, for God's sake, for the animal's sake, tell the truth, and the whole truth. Do you think that if you just mumble that your cat is "high-strung" I will say "okey-doke! No Prob!" and take it into foster care? No, I will start asking questions and uncover the truth, which is that your cat has not used the litter box in six months. Do not tell me that you "can't" crate your dog. I will ask what happens when you try to crate him, and you will either be forced to tell me the symptoms of full-blown, severe separation anxiety, or else you will resort to lying some more, wasting more of our time. And, if you succeed in placing your pet in a shelter or foster care, do not tell yourself the biggest lie of all: "Those nice people will take him and find him a good home, and everything will be fine." Those nice people will indeed give the animal every possible chance, but if we discover serious health or behavior problems, if we find that your misguided attempts to train or discipline him have driven him over the edge, we will do what you are too immoral and cowardly to do: We will hold the animal in our arms, telling them truthfully that they are a good dog or cat, telling them truthfully that we are sorry and we love them, while the vet ends their life. How can we be so heartless as to kill your pet, you ask? Do not ever dare to judge us. At least we tried. At least we stuck with them to the end. At least we never abandoned him to strangers, as you certainly did, didn't you? In short this little old rescuer/foster momma has reached the point where she would prefer you pet owners to tell her stories like this: "We went to Wal-mart and picked up a free pet in the parking lot a couple years ago. Now we don't want it anymore. We're lazier than we thought. We've got no patience either. We're starting to suspect the animal is really smarter than we are, which is giving us self-esteem issues. Clearly, we can't possibly keep it. Plus, it might be getting sick; it's acting kind of funny. We would like you to take it eagerly, enthusiastically, and immediately. We hope you'll realize what a deal you are getting and not ask us for a donation to help defray your costs. After all, this is an (almost) pure-bred animal, and we'll send the left over food along with it. We get it at Wal-mart too, and boy, it's a really good deal, price-wise. We are very irritated that you haven't shown pity on us in our great need and picked up the animal up already. We thought you people were supposed to be humane! Come and get it today. No, we couldn't possibly bring it to you; the final episode of "Survivor II" is on to night. Thank you, Mr. And Mrs. Pet Owner, for your cooperation. --Author Unknown--

Jeopardy

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Fri, 13 Jul 2007 17:48:19 GMT

Wrote this today. Not all that great, but socially conscious poetry is new for me. I am just a bird with clipped wings Looking for a way to fly from this cage A cage within cage within a cage Society binds me My love for you binds me Everything has a string attached Tying this bird down In a society that proclaims freedom We are anything but I want to be able to fly Moving with grace from place to person I wish I could release my self from these cages But compassion and caring Drive and determination To make things better Keep me caged Keep me examining and re-examining These bars Looking at everyone’s cage Seeing what key or trick will work on them all In the end love and teamwork We must join together Work together Each of us picking up our piece To stop the fighting And start the education To stop the consumption And start the conscious thought of choice We can be free of our cages If we just recognize that All of us has at least one There is one thing every single person has in common We are all on the big ball called Earth Maybe if we could learn to take care of her We could learn to take care of each other Then we would be free “Respect Me, Respect Me I need you to protect me For it is you not me Whose fate is in jeopardy” -"Gaia" by Olivia Newton-John-

Transformation

babywytchsmonkeytribe — Sat, 07 Jul 2007 04:47:01 GMT

So this is suppose to be a time of transformation. I believe this, but it seems to be a very painful one. My mom and my brother have hit a very rocky place and it has hurt her deeply. It has caused her to stop trusting him all together, to the point of changing the locks, etc... I can tell she is in a lot of pain and it just breaks my heart. Honestly she is finally giving up on him, something she has been encouraged to do for while, but hasn't been able to. I am sorry it is happening like this, but maybe he has to finally be cut off before he will change. I hope that she can heal from it. In my life more directly I am going to have it out with one of my co-workers. This women is above me, but not my boss. She is the office manager so she sends in my time card so I get paid. I am suppose to be paid on the first. Well, that has only happened once in the eight months I have worked there and I still don't have my pay check for this month. So I am going to go above her and speak to my actual boss about what to do. Also If I am not paid by Monday I will be demanding an office check so that I can pay a large bill that is due on Tuesday. I hope I will be paid on Monday so that all I have to do is make a plan with her to make sure I get my pay check on time. ---------------- Also there is shit with Annwfn. A wonderful (or use to be) Pagan sanctuary that I have been attended for a year now. There is a yahoo group called Friends of Annwfn (FoA) (if you want to know exactly what I am talking about look up FoA on yahoo groups and read the past 20 posts) that is suppose to be a place for people to learn, discuss, and keep up with the Annwfn news if the can't be there physically. Will the list has turned into a toxic place of in-fighting and verbal abuse. It is tainting the land and the people who attend. Just recently a LARGE rift was created because of some VERY harsh and ignorant words that have been written. There are two members who tithe, work on the land, and participate in most meetings that have been continuously attacked. The mud slinging usually goes both ways between attackers and the attacked so I try to stay out off it unless it seems WAY over the top. Well, these two are good friends of mine and the one was horribly attacked. Most who know this couple understand that they have a dominant/submissive quality to their relationship. It isn't a complete constant, but they do participate. The female is the sub in the relationship and someone attacked her in such a way, basically saying that she deserved all of the verbal abuse and her opinion is invalid because she is a sub. The logic ran along the same lines as "you just a woman, so what do you know" and "that is what you get for dressing that way" (Insert submissive where woman is). What I find most disconcerting is that this logic came from another women. I know that we are from a different generation, but I thought because she was Pagan that no women could think that way. I am someone who has loved and worked the land. When I was there in March it was so beautiful! But Beltane came around with significantly more people there than allowed and all this crap seemed to come up. I have found that I have not wanted to back since and have made plans to spend my holidays else where. Though many of these people who seem to say such toxic things don't ever go to the land itself, because they still see themselves as attached to the land their energy effects it. Maybe there should be a giant cord cutting for Annwfn, so these people aren't tied to it anymore. Annwfn can start fresh and new without the old guard that seems so interested in stirring the shit a little more. Why would I participate in a place with all this crap when I can just set up my own ritual, invite everyone I want to come and leave the crap behind. If it is an ever changing place and an ever changing group then the drama can be left behind. I expected more from pagans. I guess they are just people, but they are suppose to be more conscious of their energy and what they put out. I have found the further I walk on my path the less I want to be like a lot of the pagans I meet. It's like they claim they are pagan so they don't have to claim responsibility for what they do. I am too young on this path to be this jaded. I just want to know what happened to a personal since of responsibility. The whole things is just one big mess that leaves a bad taste in everyones mouth. ---------------------- In other news, Today was another trip to the fabulous river. It is so great to be able to swim in warm water naked. We thought we were at a nude part of the river, but we weren't. It was great to make people uncomfortable as we same around naked. We met the Rangers who were very nice and informed us of where the nude beached were. I have SO much homework to do tomorrow. Like research a whole presentation and put it together, ugh! I will get it ALL done tomorrow so that I can go to SF w/ my girl friend and meet another there. Life is good even though it seems to be a little crazy.