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I will not be performing at Tribal Fest.
Sun, April 5, 2009 - 7:21 PM
At this point I'm considering not going. It's probably temporary cuz i'm feeling like ass, but to be honest, my priority was to promote myself, not to take classes or look at stuff I can't afford. Considering that, I think I'm in need of an attitude adjustment. Either I enjoy every moment of bellydancing and stop being so fucking critical, or I get the fuck out. I'm really really tired of the materialism and popularity contest that is involved in breaking into bellydancing. If I could only do this full time, I have SO much to offer and so much potential, but at a certain point, one needs to cut their losses and try and find other dreams to chase.
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Sun, April 5, 2009 - 11:25 PM
I can understand both sides of the coin that's currently spinning wildly in the air...
I can understand your disappointment at not performing at TF (I share your disappointment since I was so looking forward to seeing you dance there), especially when you've looked forward to it for so long. I can understand how the task of having to split your time, energy and focus between what you *want* to do, and what you *have* to do, however, I do not believe that your dream has to be sacrificed on any altar for any reason. I know it sounds cliche, but the path to our dreams is never easy, never clear, and most certainly filled with obstacles, setbacks and stumbling blocks; what makes us worthy of our dreams is how we handle these things. So, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and smile in the face of whom ever, and what ever, may try to deter you. I hope you'll still come to TF, we can hang out, watch the dancing, browse stuff we can't afford, talk with friends... and don't forget... pool and hot tub at the condo. ;-) |
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Mon, April 6, 2009 - 11:43 AM
Wow, I'm so sorry to hear that you won't be performing - you are really exceptional to watch. I don't know the exact process that TF uses, so I'll just leave it at that.
I really feel you on some of what you said here, particularly the materialism that can be associated with bellydance. I love some of the beautiful things that people create, but I feel like a lot of festivals are very shopping-centric and, as someone who tries to buy little to nothing, that can be overwhelming. I also know the feeling of trying hard to stay positive. I've been in some situations recently where there was literally nothing appropriate I could say and people really wanted me to sink to a different level, when what I wanted was to just not be a part of the conversation to begin with. I don't like that atmosphere, and it seems to be pervasive in most performance arts (well, and the entire rest of the damn world!). If I got a vote here, I'd say don't stop chasing this dream. You have a unique style, great technique, and you DO have a lot to offer. If you were offering classes in my area I can say without reservation that I'd be there in a heartbeat. I don't think it's possible to enjoy -every- moment of bellydancing (it seems unrealistic to me, and like it would lead to disappointment), but if you can count more good times than bad, more worth than stress, more benefit to you and those around you than detraction, I say it's worth it. I, for one, would miss seeing you perform - and I will, when you move! |
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Mon, April 6, 2009 - 2:42 PM
No.
I'm sorry you didn't get the opportunity to dance, but don't let a disappointment sour your time out there. You've done so much, and know we back here in T.O. are so proud of you. :)
Here is your attitude adjustment: You are in the most populace bellydance area and you've managed to have A LOT of opportunities that others in that area have no chance at (ew... ending on a preposition... I should know better...). Take pride in that. Do not let exclusion from TF cloud your path or your judgement. Only you can tell if you still have the forward momentum to make the mark you want. And if you feel you're done, come on home to loving arms. :) Enjoy all you have accomplished, paste a smile on your puss and move past TF. I didn't realize you were moving back here. Permanently? Yer bud, V. |
