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It never gets easier... in fact I think it gets more difficult

   Fri, April 24, 2009 - 12:25 AM
Last November, I lost one of the best dogs I have ever had the privilege to be friends with (see prior blog entry). Of course, those who know me well realize I will say that about every dog I've lived with.

Last Wednesday, 4/15/09, I lost my last remaining friend. He was a true friend. Darby came at a very low point for me, during the search for another great friend who was accidentally let out of the house. He never tried to be the center of attention. He knew his job was support, and he did it well. He took care of me when I was sad, when I was sick, when I was "off". He trained me for the FD. He rehabbed me after the car wreck. He helped me grieve for Wilson. He would follow me around like I was important, like I mattered. All he wanted were some skritches behind the ears and a ride in the car. No worries, though, he got a lot more than that.

And last week I gave him every ounce of what I had left. I owed it to him.

He was one of the best dogs I have ever had the privilege to be friends with.

I miss him so much.

1/95-4/09. I love you, bubba.


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Fri, April 24, 2009 - 1:21 AM
Oh, sweetie!! I'm so, so sorry. To have a companion like that, who loves you through such trying times, is such a gift, and leaves a huge void when they are gone. I'm glad that you had such a relationship in your life, but I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you find comfort in your family and friends, and maybe at some point, you'll be ready to share yourself with another dog, too. They really are such amazing creatures, to give us so much and ask for so little.


Fri, April 24, 2009 - 1:26 AM
Oh, Shan. I am so sorry...
I'm a dog-lover. Your buddy looks so sweet in this pic you posted.
I am certain that you gave him the best life a puppy-dog could ever ask for. I'm sure of it.
May you somehow get through this. Love to you. xo
Fri, April 24, 2009 - 5:52 AM
I'm so sorry to hear this... What a tremendous loss, I know.

You're a good momma, Shan.
Fri, April 24, 2009 - 7:55 AM
very sorry for your loss...
Fri, April 24, 2009 - 8:48 AM
Aw, what a sweetheart.
I'm sorry for your loss, Shan.
Sounds like you were both blessed by each other's friendship.

and BTW, you ARE important, and you DO matter!
Buddy got it right.
Fri, April 24, 2009 - 9:15 AM
I'm so sorry honey. It is such a great loss, and I am sorry I didn't get to meet your boys. Bubba had such a sweet face. Lots of love to you.
Fri, April 24, 2009 - 9:33 AM
i'm so sorry to hear this... condolences always feel so inadequate. i am truly saddened by your loss, lots of love to you!
Fri, April 24, 2009 - 11:24 AM
Thank you, all of you. I know words can feel inadequate (to give), but I must say that for me, your words are a tremendous, big, visual hug! He's been gone 9 days, he was the only one I had to keep me company all day, his presence was huge. This is the longest I have ever gone in my entire life without a dog. We had planned to get another dog after Wilson passed, to avoid such a gap, but honestly I thought we had a lot more time.

I know I was a little confusing in the original blog, but his name is Darby. I affectionately refer to ALL of my animals as "bubba", like "sweetheart" or "honey" or "friend".

He was the bestest bubba ever.
Fri, April 24, 2009 - 6:18 PM
I'm so sorry!

Furry friends are part of our families and bring so much love and joy to our lives.
I'm sorry you've lost part of your family!
I'm sending hugs!
Sun, April 26, 2009 - 10:19 PM
Sending you warm thoughts and hugs...
Wed, April 29, 2009 - 8:58 PM
Shan ~ You are the best companion a dog could have. Darby (and Wilson) were very lucky to share their lives with you. Remember their wet noses and tails that thumped on your leg while they stood by you. Hugs and love...