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summer is almost here

bettybass — Fri, 11 May 2007 04:19:55 GMT

and i'm wearing flip-flops. i just got the cable hooked up today, horray. digital tv and internet. an interesting site i learned about in my Flash class is www.go2web20.net so go check it out and be endlessly amused. i am hoping i can get a raindance ticket, they go on sale tomarrow. i am even more hoping i can get the weekend before the 4th of july off which is pushing it at a new job. the new job is good, though. :) outdoor campout planned for july 20-21 very exciting. very strange photo from the stage of bassnectar's set at raindance last year. damn i gotta get the new album.

what a wierd way to start my new year

bettybass — Mon, 08 Jan 2007 06:06:59 GMT

i have been sick since jan. 1 and ended up with pink-eye starting on Friday, the only night I happened to work. so you can imagine what happened, i gave pink eye to a coworker. ugh. i had to go to urgent care yesterday and get antibiotic eye-drops. a visit which could cost me up to $400 since I decided to use my stupid student health insurance that shitty sierra nevada college made me buy. i am on day 4 of quitting smoking cigarettes. i am a real joy right now, let me tell ya. the only good thing is my amazing new boyfriend. he rocks. he brings me food and medicine and back rubs and lotsa love all the time. :) i can't wait until i can go to yoga (and snowboarding)!

Halloween

bettybass — Mon, 30 Oct 2006 05:13:45 GMT

So I am going to be at the Sound Tribe Sector 9 show on Halloween in SF, anyone else going as well? Just curious who I may run into... look for me in psychedelic prints, silver pants, and a white afro!

Vacation time?

bettybass — Mon, 02 Oct 2006 06:22:37 GMT

school and work. school and work. two shows this weekend, fri night absynth and then sat night was Zealous. pretty fun, i got to hang out with some good people... who helped remind me of some things about life that I've been missing. I think i am currently going through a break-up. shit. (again) I'm so tired all the time. There are some fun shows coming up as well, I think maybe I need to start drinking coffee again. Tea isn't cutting it anymore. I don't know if I'm ready to re-gain one addiction when I still need to get rid of another (smoking). I'm working on dremmeling (i.e. power tools) this 3-wood-block snake that is 11x14 times three and it is taking forever. I think it is same to assume I am behind in my class. I just happened to get too ambitious, which tends to happen with art. I really need to go to bed because I have to wake up early and make it to ceramics class. Ugh... school and work. Both of which happen tomarrow. this picture is cute. i miss him. i don't think we are supposed to be together. :(

if at first you don't suceed, try and try again...

bettybass — Fri, 08 Sep 2006 21:15:25 GMT

so I'm back in school, once again an art student. what a life change, adjusting to the schedual and commuting through road construction and such to the north shore. I went to some awesome shows this weekend, even though I didn't get to go to Burning Man. There's always next year... and the year after and the year after... next year was way better, anyway. I saw DJ Tiesto on Thursday for free, I won 4 tickets from the radio station and took Vince, Chris, and Chris's new girlfriend Tonya. It was a lot of fun! I dressed up in playa gear and had fun... broke my light up glow balls... I gotta invest in the real practice poi ones. Any recommendations on where to buy online? ? ? Sunday night was BT at Opal Ultra Lounge. What an interesting night to say the least... The beats were great and I danced my ass off despite the set not starting until 1am and only lasting an hour and a half. Monday night I worked and ended up waiting on BT and his wife (I think) Ashley, drinking sake with them. Fun! I want to order This Binary Universe now like you wouldn't believe. Dancing a lot only makes me want to ... go out and dance more. Too bad that good music doesn't come to Tahoe regularly. There are some shows to look foward to, though. Moe, Easy Star All-Stars, and even Love Fest SF if I decide to make it to the bay. Such a journey when you don't have a good car. I wish I could go to Earthdance or Symbiosis. Anyone going ? Take me with you! Just kidding.

a day off listening to reggae

bettybass — Fri, 30 Jun 2006 03:38:21 GMT

so what's happening? i got promoted to head waitress at my job. sweet, i can make my own schedual at some point, possibly from the 2nd week of August on... i went camping one night, got eaten by misquitos the next morning. i took my dog and a friend's and tied glow sticks and strobe lights to them. always entertaining. :) there are some good shows coming up this summer. paul oakenfold jurassic 5 pepper w/ 311 and the Wailers g. love and the special sauce ben harper w/ damien marley dj tiesto and those are just the expensive ones! i want to go to everything! how will i ever save any money? thank God that i am not trying to go to burning man! i just had my bf put my skateboard together for me! time to learn to skate! t's a hades deck. www.hadeskateboards.com my buddies/his roomates company. last time we went to reno we watched the photoshoot for the catalog in a pool and vinnie attempted skating it! ;) i'm still gardening, just planted lavender, more cilantro, and some smaller sunflowers. it might be too late for them to bloom from seeds though, esp. if it's an early winter (i can hope!).

ramp madness

bettybass — Mon, 19 Jun 2006 05:49:32 GMT

so the ramps at vince's house got re-masonited. lots and lots o' skating madness. i'm waiting for him to go see a friend of a friend's funk band. we might go camping this week. work is getting busy. tips make me happy! i applied to college at sierra nevada college in incline village. it's fathers day and i didn't call my real father. i called my godfather. vince and i went to the beach today with the dogs. i'm working on fading my tattoos and getting tan. i can't help but not want to be pasty when it's summer. i read "becoming like god" about the kabahhlah. it was rad. peace.

Raindance Campout

bettybass — Sun, 11 Jun 2006 22:11:40 GMT

Last weekend was spent in the redwoods of Big Basin outside Santa Cruz on an indian reservation/boy scout camp with Vince. It was totally amazing, too much so for words. But I can try................ DJ Lorin aka Bassnectar rocked so hard Saturday night, I was dancing until I was almost falling down... but I didn't! :) He even made Vince dance, and that's an accomplishment! Lorin even dropped some jungle... so rad! What I heard and saw of Tipper's set was awesome, and Heavyweight Dub Champions were astonishing at sunset. Camping was so much fun! The living art always takes my breath away. The (sweat) lodge was always dropping the dopest, hardest beats and bass. I loved it in there, all the freaks getting crazy! We also hit SF the night before, and Santa Cruz and Capitola on Sunday. Seeing the ocean restored serenity and dancing recharged my soul.

whoa... this is crazy. find out who your true love is!

bettybass — Tue, 16 May 2006 05:27:29 GMT

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/119521542

happy 420

bettybass — Wed, 19 Apr 2006 19:30:33 GMT

yonder mountain string band tonight. cookies to bake. breakfast and tea in bed. a good night at work last night. i had a nice talk with rick last night. things are pretty damn good. and i don't have to drive to the show tonight, i got a ride with amy and her daughter veda in the blue chevy van. sweet. could it be better than this right now? the picture is from the galactic show. :)

Charlie lost his balls

bettybass — Tue, 11 Apr 2006 20:03:11 GMT

Yep, it happened yesterday. His collar was too thick to attach the conehead. So, he licked out two sutures and there was blood everywhere. I had to help hold him on the table while the vet re-stapled him back together. It was traumatizing. I mean, I used to be the president of FFA and I've castrated pigs before but this wasn't something I wanted to see. He's my baby, I couldn't even coo him and tell him it was ok because I was in such shock that I had to go through that. Charlie obviously went through worse, but it's ok and he has a new collar and conehead. He's not peeing or drinking water even yet but hopefully by tomarrow. Oh, and that's the view of Lake Tahoe from Heavenly. :)

spontenaity

bettybass — Sat, 25 Mar 2006 23:01:36 GMT

so i cancelled my trip to colorado. i must be crazy. i just had to do it. i gotta be more responsible if i want to progress in life. i'm listening to midnite for the first time since peter and i broke up. i used to listen to it multiple times a day. memories hurt. especially this one. really though, his face looks different the way he looks at me now. as if he doesn't love me like he used to. wow that is hard to admit, but it must be true. i can tell just from looking at pictures of us. but pictures capture something that your brain can't. perception without judgement. my income tax return got deposited yesterday. i want new bedding. i have to go to work tonight. hopefully it will be good. better than sitting at home, which is all i've been doing for weeks. i'm thinking about going to the show at whiskey dicks tonight. mainly because i think vince will be there. is that bad? he's a cutie.

moody march

bettybass — Sat, 25 Mar 2006 09:12:34 GMT

i had a date last night. i made vinnie thai curry, he liked it so score on my becoming a good cook. and score on boys who can eat well, i suppose. i was nervous. it was uber hard, but i was my goofy non-drinking-on-antibiotics at the club dancing like a dork self and we watched waiting with ryan reynolds (yum) which was like a bad nightmare of my corporate-restaurant-working days. ha ha. i wonder if he will call because of how honest i am, sometimes too brutally honest which can be harsh. damn it being an aries. whY??? then i cooked peter halibut and asparagus and a fruit & veggie salad. plus i baked brownies today. the "mystery man" from my photo album asked me if i've been eating and said that i looked like i weighed 80 pounds. jerk. vinnie told him i had thirds! i was just sick for a week! anyway, dinner with peter. akward. lots of eye contact. harsh reality comment about him obviously not being that sad over us breaking up, him breaking up with me. i just can't help but think there is another girl that he is keeping from me, to try to "spare my feelings." i touched his hand, the energy contact was intense. small hand massage touched me somewhere else. that shouldn't be possible. i called mark in colorado today and told him to cancel buying my ticket if it wasn't already purchased because i just feel guilty about spending money on having a good time. i have responsibilities and needs of getting my subaru fixed because it is the only way i'm going to be able to go to college. my income tax return is my only chance of getting cash before i go back to school, really. he said he would call me back when he got out of the shower. he never did. i think he's pissed, i feel really bad. what if it's too late? i'm just scared of putting myself in a bad financial position, even though i know it will always work out ok. i need more income, side jobs, more motivation. education. i want to be doing design work already, i want a better computer. i want more knowledge. i want enlightenment. i hope vince calls. he's totally cute, i've always thought so. my roomates are totally crazy. they're at deathcab for cutie in Reno. friday night home alone. my dog is insane, whiny, outta control. what the heck? at least i get to work tomarrow. it's funny when thats what you look foward to. i really need to get out of the house and not spend so much time at home. ~d

what the bleep?

bettybass — Wed, 22 Mar 2006 11:12:23 GMT

so i finally watched this movie tonight. it wasn't that mind blowing considering i've talked or read on most of the topics/ideas covered. it was good, though. it made me wonder that if i don't percieve my relationship to really be over, if i believe that there will be a second chance, does that mean that there will? because i think it it happens? maybe this is more to do with the fact that he and i always talked about it and how much we knew that if we broke up, we would end up back together. to me that was reason enough to not break up, but not enough for him. he needs to know what else is out there. he isn't ready to love again. he's afraid. me telling him it's ok and that he doesn't need to be afraid is not enough. he needs to see something through his freedom that shows him it is ok to love and that he shouldn't be afraid, but what? other girls is what i think, but that hurts. i know he doesn't have time for other girls, but i also know he will make time. just like he made time for me that he didn't have. and addiction and it's factors in our lives are huge. what can we live without? this is a big question. to what are we too attached? without that attachment, would we be more enlightened. did he feel he was too attached to me and that without me, he would be more enlightened? enlightened enough to realize that he could love me? this is what i want to believe, just because you want to believe something... does that mean that it is reason enough to believe it? what is the difference between reality and desire? am i supposed to stop desiring him just because he doesn't want to be attached to me? i've realized that when you really love, the love doesn't change despite how the other person feels. it only becomes more stiffled due to circumstance. the stiffling creates lonliness, which in turn creates negative emotion. sadness, which maybe isn't necessarily negative. but it is reality. how pure can one individual be? how much waiting is too much? i guess at least it got me thinking, but i swear i spend way too much time thinking about this kind of crap anyways.

so i've been dumped

bettybass — Tue, 21 Mar 2006 14:00:13 GMT

my birthday is coming... april 4th. horray for half a century! the big 25 i'm single, i miss him so much it kills me inside. i've been so sick with something that resembles scarlet fever for a week. it's awful. i leave on the 26th to go to Colorado to visit Mark, get tattooed, and snowboard. It should be good fun! the photo is me at the bar at my camp, camp evolve at burning man.

Love Life

bettybass — Sun, 25 Sep 2005 06:23:52 GMT

So... I am roomateless since he decided to move to Oregon and bail out on me. So I'm just working my ass off to pay half of his half of the rent which he decided to stick on me. I'm working towards finding a new place to live as of November 1st. I took Charlie with me to the Block last night for a snowboard movie premiere, bought $10 worth of raffle tickets and won hella free gear. I got guys stuff but whatever it's still fucking rad! I won: a mens xl snowboard jacket that is rasta colors it is soooooooo loud! , a von zipper audio beanie for an mp3 player which btw I got an ipod for graduation and have never rode with it yet, von zipper goggle with a plaid strap and chrome mirrored lenses (this was my fave prize by far), 2 shirts, 1 bball cap, 1 beige beanie, and a Sierra-at-Tahoe lift ticket. I am totally excited on the gear. The only thing I really need to buy for this season is a new pair of pants. Ed gave me a jacket last week as well, a girl's jacket which is nice and 60% down liner but it doesn't have a hood. I guess if you wear a helmet you don't really need a hood... The new boy is nice and sweet and kind and owes me sushi dinner for a bet well won. He said I always have a spot on the couch under the blanket any time I want it. Awww......... He's going to move away in a couple of months and I should not get too attached. He's awfully damn sexy, too. I have a nice fire ragin' which I should surely add more wood to. Lake Tahoe is COLD right now! Oh yeah, the picture is from July, that's me in Santa Cruz. :)

Charlie

bettybass — Wed, 21 Sep 2005 08:40:40 GMT

You were the greatest man I even knew... and I hope everyone remembers! When I wrote this at Burning Man a girl came up to me and said "LA CONCHITA?" and touched my arm, because she knew him. It just made me cry more....

Love and Life

bettybass — Wed, 21 Sep 2005 08:28:12 GMT

My lovelife has taken some insane turns as of late. There is a new boy and the old boy and drama and emotion and I think I'm just along for the ride. I had butterflies in my stomache today. How cute. I can't stop thinking about how cute HE is. Whoa. Slow down Betty! It's raining outside and I'm supposed to be in Napa Valley with him right now but thats just not the way things worked out. For a reason I'm sure. I might be moving. I might not know what is going on with my life at the moment. I don't know if my roomate is coming back from Oregon or not. I hate it when people have the ability to fuck with you. Damn it for letting people get too close! P.S. My burning man pictures rock, I can't wait to see the other 5 rolls of film that weren't digital!

Burning Man 2005

bettybass — Wed, 07 Sep 2005 09:21:23 GMT

Wow, what a journey. I wish I could tell all but in a way it just isn't right. I'm happy to be home with my puppy dog. I'm minus a boyfriend and can tell that despite it being over, it isn't over. I just know how men are, esp. crazy ones, and they hang on for too long. I took about 200 pictures, didn't meet all the peeps I was supposed to, heard half awesome half crap music, danced not nearly enough, drank too much, didn't do enough drugs (ha ha), did too many drugs (wait, does that combination work?), rocked out with my cock out in some crazy costumes, and camped with wild tahoe peeps, the Marauders. We were at 2:30 and Bipolar with a 3 story shade structure and a nonstop loud-ass party every other night and day across the street. I dig the desert but I love the mountains more! I cannot wait for snow and we already had a fire today! :) Ok, well, I'm going to get less than 6 hours sleep for work tomarrow so I really should go to bed!

Burning Man!

bettybass — Thu, 18 Aug 2005 08:45:41 GMT

I'm going to Burning Man August 29-Sept 5! Cruisin to the desert with Ed! *Thanks Izzy and Frog!

I called in sick today

bettybass — Thu, 23 Jun 2005 09:38:01 GMT

I have some sort of allergies/sinus infection going on. I think (because it usually is) the changing of the seasons. Summer is officially here, as of two, wait, three days ago. This on top of being menstrual is too much to handle waiting tables in a smokey casino. I just can't do it captain! So alas, I called in. I never call in. Oh well, fuck it right? I went to Fallen Leaf Lake and smoked a joint with my boyfriend and our friend behind the boy scout camp, on the rocks by the water. Somehow my boy and I got inspired to get off the hill so we drove to Reno, went grocery shopping at Trader Joe's, and had sushi with my friend Cara and her new boyfriend Taylor. It was quite lovely I might add. And now I have a fridge full of healthy groceries. Oh yeah, and we stopped in Carson City on the way there at Lowes and bought some more rad, cheap house paint for our art excapades! It was a good day. Tomarrow I have lots of sh*t to do and then on Friday my godfather is coming up for my graduation, and we are going hiking during the day. :) My dad told me that he and my godfather were going in on an ipod for my graduation present. I'm stoked! He said "I told him to get the big one!" Sweet!