I love that whenever i think i have things figured out it all falls apart. then i look deeper and ask myself is this the answer? no. i dont know what is, but i certinally have a lot of questions. sometimes i really take life and myself to seriously. you know i thought that at 30 my life would look different then it does.

but on the flip side im still breathing have an all loving h.p. and friends that love me, a good family and tha ability to feel(though i hate it sometimes)i love mo... read more

So im frustrated and dont know if i can sum it all up in a few sentences. I need to learn better communication skills. and not be afraid that if i show people all of me that they arnt gonna run the other way. I thought i was over that apparently not so much. I guess i want to be immune to feelings and im not. Im just gonnaa move foward afraid what else is ther to do.