about me
I'm having a hard time finding my balence. How can you own the land ??? the land owns me, I am a servant here, yet I have been taught that to survive and have a family of my own I need to aquire some land.
When I saw my pop chase the buck I saw him lose sight of what's important. I have chosen not to chase the buck. This business of making money seems to deprive others of what they need. Our whole fucking standard of living in this American dream is causing the poverty of nations world wide and it sickens me.
By the sweat of my brow I man eat my bread. I want to work hard for the good things I've got yet I don't want to hurt any of my brethren or sistren along I way. I search for my balence of working hard and being rewarded for the good work I do.
Yet now what am I doin' ?
studyin' to become an electrician ??? and to what end ??? To serve the very society that is causing so much turmoil apon our earth. NO !
That hasen' t been my goal !!! I want to be part of the solution !!! I need to work for kindred folk that have a vision of a sustainable future !!!
yet, here I am in Greenwich, CT working for the elite.
gaining skills to take with me to where I need to be. but but but but but but I'm worried about my process. I don't want to become just another construction working miserable fuck-----there are far too many unhappy people going through the motions.
I have a strong desire to honor my family and their way.....but, they don't seem to get it.
They crack jokes about how I buy organic. and these are dire times :(
To honor my family and our joined legacy........I need to walk away.
I can no longer live their way, and they don't seem to have any desire of joining my way.
so hard to do and so easy to say, but sometimes sometimes you've got to walk away.
~~~maybe a bit much huh....yeah 'suppose i get heavy and dramatic sumtimes......ought to work on keepin' it lighter
~~just workin' at my contradictions and hypocracy's
~peace~