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wassup

so I got away,
if only for the day,
headed up stream
away from the decay

we call the river Mianus
after a 17th century Paugussett Chief
or was he Siwanoy ???
his tory is a lil blury

my mom remembers stories of the river valley before the damn.
me dad lives close to dumpling pond.
where a colonial woman dumped her dumplings.
rather than allow british soldiers to enjoy them.

I learned to ice-skate with leather straped training skates.
memories dabble in a Norman Rockwell scene.
ice fishers in the backround, bonfires and booze.
our faithfull lab tugging me along on a flexible flyer.

fished for flounder below the damn in the salt water
sometimes snapper or strippers
fished for trout above the damn
caught mostly sunny's and threw em' back

headed further upstream for quality trout fishin'
up to a spot called merry-brook
but it was the same mianus river
just a bit more wild.

further down stream, and into the harbor
were the public docks and our lil put put boat.
ohh the freedom of a teen
navigating Long Island Sound.

the headwaters ???
a series of ponds at about 600 ft.
then through the pristine protected gorge
and into a resevoir 'bout 40 miles from Manhatten.

ahh the gorge is gorgeous
had a nice hike around talkin' to the inhabitants there
old man river seemed to know my name
and I'm not too surprised :)

so I walked down to the river to skim the water with my hand
for it looked just so inviting and the path was laid out before me
and as I reached out for the water, a big ol' snapping turtle swam off.
I was delighted and relieved that that prehistoric critter didn't swim off with my finger :)

a curious owl stopped me as I trodded along
he hoot hooted out
I giggled and said 'beg your pardon'
an he hooted again and again till I finally spotted im right in my line of sight

such an amazing solstice day
I felt so very connected to all that was around me
and well, it was kinda scary.....
to feel such a sense of belonging, in an area I'm itchin' to escape from.
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uh........bit of me

about me
I'm having a hard time finding my balence. How can you own the land ??? the land owns me, I am a servant here, yet I have been taught that to survive and have a family of my own I need to aquire some land.
When I saw my pop chase the buck I saw him lose sight of what's important. I have chosen not to chase the buck. This business of making money seems to deprive others of what they need. Our whole fucking standard of living in this American dream is causing the poverty of nations world wide and it sickens me.
By the sweat of my brow I man eat my bread. I want to work hard for the good things I've got yet I don't want to hurt any of my brethren or sistren along I way. I search for my balence of working hard and being rewarded for the good work I do.
Yet now what am I doin' ?
studyin' to become an electrician ??? and to what end ??? To serve the very society that is causing so much turmoil apon our earth. NO !
That hasen' t been my goal !!! I want to be part of the solution !!! I need to work for kindred folk that have a vision of a sustainable future !!!
yet, here I am in Greenwich, CT working for the elite.
gaining skills to take with me to where I need to be. but but but but but but I'm worried about my process. I don't want to become just another construction working miserable fuck-----there are far too many unhappy people going through the motions.
I have a strong desire to honor my family and their way.....but, they don't seem to get it.
They crack jokes about how I buy organic. and these are dire times :(

To honor my family and our joined legacy........I need to walk away.
I can no longer live their way, and they don't seem to have any desire of joining my way.

so hard to do and so easy to say, but sometimes sometimes you've got to walk away.

~~~maybe a bit much huh....yeah 'suppose i get heavy and dramatic sumtimes......ought to work on keepin' it lighter
~~just workin' at my contradictions and hypocracy's
~peace~
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