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so weird...
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its like the brain trying to contemplate itself......
wefeelfine.org/
ART ART ART!!!
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I haven't watched these videos in a while... but they are soooo artistically inspiring for me... I thought i would share.
I'm just so in love with the B roll..... yum the editing.. ohhh!!! the shots! fantastic!! (but tell me how you really feel...
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Sex Show (updated info!)
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so whats Xandra up to lately?
so I get to play at the sex show! yay!
i will be performing as my clown and its going to be super fun.
so if anyone is interested in coming down its from the 10 -13th
its at Canada place in ballroom B i believe....
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apple is being lame.
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yep its true.
the canadian dollar is at 110 but i went into the apple store and the price of their computer and merch is still at the OLD prices... which means... well.. a computer at 2499.00 american... STILL sells at the canadian price of 2799....
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new video
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shot three years ago now... something like that.. i finally got into the footage. its gonna be ca razy when im done with it.. stay tuned!
"This is a strange way to try to respond to this... oh well"
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Tue, May 13, 2008 - 12:12 AM
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Tue, March 11, 2008 - 12:00 AM
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so whats Xandra up to lately?
so I get to play at the sex show! yay!
i will be performing as my clown and its going to be super fun.
so if anyone is interested in coming down its from the 10 -13th
its at Canada place in ballroom B i believe.
Thursday 8:40 pm Performance
Saturday 3:40 pm (thats our workshop on relationships and dating.)
Sunday 1:00 pm Performance
The whole show is from
• Thursday 5pm - 12am
• Friday 5pm – 12am
• Saturday 12pm – 12am
• Sunday 12pm – 6pm
www.canwestshows.com/sexshow/vancouver/
If you can't make it for the performance, come by the booth 1412, im sure it will be JUST as entertaining!
thanks for your lovely support! <3
hope everyones having a fun new year!
hugs and love
X
Wed, January 9, 2008 - 12:09 PM
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yep its true.
the canadian dollar is at 110 but i went into the apple store and the price of their computer and merch is still at the OLD prices... which means... well.. a computer at 2499.00 american... STILL sells at the canadian price of 2799.00????
WTF???
that means that we are buying their computer for 3000.00 american?????????
i am agahst that they are pulling these bs shanannagins.... (i am not surprised though, really.)
just go buy stuff in the states you say??
why, when i shouldn't have to.
then pay duty... pay foreign exchange conversions fees on your credit card.. yah.. REAL savings there.
its all bullshit.
thanks apple...i will be calling you to have a chat. :(((( grrrrrrrrr.
Wed, November 7, 2007 - 11:51 PM
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shot three years ago now... something like that.. i finally got into the footage. its gonna be ca razy when im done with it.. stay tuned!
Thu, October 25, 2007 - 11:33 PM
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about me
More Than you ever wanted to know........
Basically I make films for fun (though when im making them im wondering how the heck this is fun!) Mostly cause im a story teller. I would have been a great bard back in the midevil times, though im a woman so they probably would have burned me at the stake long before I could have told any REALLY bad jokes. har har.
But thats what makes me love edting, yes, i am a video editing geek. It is because i love to tell stories, with pictures, sounds words, FEELINGS. My goal in life is to expand other peoples minds, as much as mine has been expanded. To make the world a little more interesting. So I love all things that sparkle and shine, and music, and poetry, and smiles, and things that BLOW MY MIND!!!!
Xandra's Personality Report
How You Approach Life
You, Skydiver, are a free-sprited mix of some of the best qualities around. Your drive to live an adventurous life compliments your penchant for abstract thinking and disdain for the conventional and routine aspects of life. Your unusually high self-esteem and desire to do the just and right thing contribute to your particularly high level of responsibility. With all this going on, it's amazing that you lead such a markedly balanced life.
Even though your thirst for adventure seems unquenchable, you know where the line is — which is ultimately why you're so reliable. Though admittedly, sometimes that line is harder to see than others.
You are independent, fun, interesting, and gung-ho about life. So much so that people tend to find you an irresistible presence to be around. You're open and extroverted, and willing to see issues from at least a couple of different sides.
Both professionally and amongst friends, you are a great leader. You're a self-starter and are conscious of picking up the slack when others don't. That's not terribly surprising, since you also are such a tremendous communicator who's looking to mix it up and stay away from routine. Your enthusiasm is contagious — and along with your sincere love of life — will take you far.
So charge ahead, Skydiver. It only gets better.
Your areas of greatest vulnerability
Your vulnerability is that your adventurous spirit may make the necessities of life seem mundane and make it hard for you to slow down and engage with the world you're presented with. Going for new experiences and searching for stimulation are all excellent qualities. But when you don't have alternative modes of being, they can become liabilities. Your need to satisfy your curiosity or experience a thrill can take on an almost addictive quality at times. You may have a tendency to feel trapped doing routine, familiar things others find comforting. Be your best: Finding ways to be patient in ordinary situations and living in the present moment are keys to a more manageable life. Many Skydivers find meditation or yoga to be of great help.
Section II — What makes you a Skydiver?
Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types — your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type.
In your case, Skydiver, your two sub-types are Seeker and Golden. Your primary sub-type is defined by "Seeker" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Golden" characteristics.
Your primary type is Seeker
Like other people with Seeker characteristics, you have a thirst for highly stimulating experiences. You gravitate towards unpredictable situations and then thrive once you find them. You would rather improvise than live by a strict calendar that adds structure to daily life. Also, you tend to find consistent routines absolutely strangling.
Intellectually, you're an explorer — which is why you tend to enjoy abstract thinking. In terms of entertainment, you veer toward media that is dark and edgy, flashy and loud, strange and intellectual. You tend to be interested in activities that get you out in the world including the performing arts and new age spirituality.
More than others, you are driven toward higher states of being — you are seeking something beyond the routines and appearances of ordinary existence. In short, you desire nothing more than complete transcendence. At times this quest can manifest as a fear of being tied down. You ultimately perceive confinement as a negative experience and may crave the unpredictable and unexpected because of this.
Your secondary type is Golden
People with Golden characteristics have unusually high self-esteem and are very conscientiousness. They are responsible, dependable, and dutiful — people others rely on. They are also efficient, and do not like to waste time. They tend to go about life with a positive attitude — both about themselves and the world around them.
Intellectually, Goldens are careful, deliberating thinkers. In terms of entertainment, Goldens enjoy media that is romantic, happy, and inspiring, and tend to avoid media that is dark, edgy, and sad. They are interested a wide variety of things including cooking, eating out, nutrition, travel, sports, recreation, fitness, health and traditional religion.
Section III — Your Four Personality Dimensions
Your primary and secondary personality sub-types determine your personality type. There are, however, additional elements that contribute to your complete personality profile.
Based on how you answered the questions on the Ultimate Personality Test, we have determined where you fall on four distinct personality scales: Relaxed/Apprehensive, Self-Doubt/Confidence, Safety-Seeking/ Risk-Taking, and Internal Experience/External Appearance. The scales are not dependent on one another. They are meant to show you whether you tend towards one or the other extreme, or are somewhere in the middle.
Here's the breakdown of your scores on the four personality dimension scales.
Relaxed versus Apprehensive
Relaxed Apprehensive
Your scores place you in the extremely relaxed region of the relaxed/apprehensive scale. This means that relative to others who have taken the test, you have a calm disposition. It also indicates that you are good at dealing with change and chaotic situations.
Like other people who score high on the relaxed side of this scale, you are likely to be stimulated by chaos and may approach life with a "the more the better" kind of attitude. Your energy levels veer toward high because you tend to be relaxed about problems that are out of you control. You are someone who is relatively less inclined to react emotionally to things that happen — not because you don't feel the emotions, but because you don't let things get to you as easily as others.
The flip side of this is people who score high on the apprehensive side of this scale. They are likely to be drawn to situations that are less stimulating to their senses. Because they are easily affected by change, they try to stay away from environments that can over-stimulate them.
These people have strong reactions to what others would consider minor changes. That is why people who score high on the apprehensive side of the scale try to slow down the pace. When faced with chaotic situations, they will look for more calming places to be. Despite their talents, they are generally more self-critical and shy than others, even if it seems there's no reason for them to be.
Since you're someone who thrives on excitement, you need to take time to analyze different aspects of your life if you're feeling unhappy. Are you feeling stunted, bored or depressed about something you can't quite put a finger on? The answer could lie in uncovering an element of your routine that isn't challenging or stimulating enough. Is your job predictable or easy? Do have a hard time finding good entertainment in your town? Are your relationships falling into a rut?
Even if friends and family envy your life — your home, your mate, your job — remember it's ok if you're still not satisfied. It doesn't mean that you're not grateful, it simply means that you need a change to keep you from being bored. If you're not up for dramatic life changes, make sure you're vigilant about mixing things up a little: take a new class, plan a trip, learn a new skill, or start an art project.
Self-Doubt versus Confidence
Self-Doubt Confidence
Your scores place you in the mid-range of the self-doubt/confidence scale. This means that relative to others who have taken the test, you're more confident than some and less confident than others. It also indicates that you have confidence when it matters the most — even if it isn't present all the time.
To give you an idea of how to gauge yourself on the self-doubt/confidence scale, let's look at people who scored towards the extreme ends of the scale.
People scoring high on the confidence side are extremely self-assured and responsible. Because of these traits, they are often the one friends and colleagues come to rely on — both on the job and in personal situations. These people are also known for having unusually high self-esteem and are natural leaders.
People who score high on the self-doubt side of the scale have a tendency to look to others to determine their self-worth. They seek calm environments and often focus their energies on jobs that have less responsibility and are therefore less stressful. They are sometimes prone to being overly-critical about themselves, but can work their way out of those thoughts because ultimately, others might point out their talents.
If you're feeling some unrest in your life it could be because you don't have as many responsibilities as you'd like to. Other people may be telling you to unload your burdens, that you do too much. But, for you, the opposite might actually be true. You are willing and capable, so maybe it's time to take on a few new projects.
Safety-Seeking versus Risk-Taking
Safety-Seeking Risk-Taking
Your scores place you well into the risk-taking side of the safety-seeking/risk-taking scale. This means that relative to others who have taken the test, you play with the possibilities and thrive on heading towards an unknown outcome.
Like other people who score high on the risk-taking side, you combine a love of the new and unusual with a talent for inquisitive, abstract thinking. You have a tendency to seek out action and in all likelihood, find structure and predictability to be strangling experiences.
On the flip side are people who score high on the safety-seeking side of the scale. They prefer their environments to remain stable. They feel that predictability has positive connotations and that stability is a comfort and an indication of safety.
Don't underestimate the power structure and routine can have on your emotional state. Take a look at areas in your life you feel restricted. Is there anything that can be done about them? Do you have to adhere to strict work hours, for example? If that is something you can't control, focus on the areas in which you do have control. Take a walk in the morning instead of the evening. Go out to dinner instead of making it. Even little things like that can have an impact you might not expect.
External Appearance versus Internal Experience
Internal Experience External Appearance
Your scores place you mid-range of the internal experience/external appearance scale. This means that relative to others who have taken the test, half of the time you focus on the internal experience of the situation and the other half of the time you are more concerned with how things appear to others.
To give you an idea of how to gauge yourself on the internal experience/external appearance scale, let's look at people whose scores lie on the extreme ends of the spectrum.
People who score high on the internal experience side of the scale don't really believe that material possessions are a reflection of their success. In fact, they tend not to focus on how things appear to others at all. They feel that success comes from doing a good job, and knowing that they have positively influenced the world.
People who score high on the external appearance end of the scale tend to be motivated by a wish to be socially desirable. They want to move up and be seen in the world. For them, true success is important, and material possessions are the sign they have achieved it. Therefore, these people sometimes believe that happiness is directly a result of success and that the possessions they own are a reflection of that success.
You are someone who takes comfort in surrounding your things with nice things and there's nothing wrong with that. So the next time your parent's raise their eyebrows at your latest purchase, or your friends joke about your "habit" of acquiring the latest electronic gadgets, don't let it get to you.
There's nothing wrong with buying yourself a new outfit, a new car, or whatever it is you've had your eye on. Don't underestimate the power owning "stuff" can have on your emotional life. Just make sure it's within your means. Otherwise other parts of your life might suffer.
Section IV — The Skydiver and the World Around You
How Others See You
People see you as down to earth with a free spirit. You convey your genuineness to others with your ability to focus on what counts — you are not easily swayed by superficial things. You also don't act in fake ways to “get ahead” or to look better than others. People notice that about you and appreciate it. People intuitively trust you with their secrets. They can see that you are not judgmental, and that appeals to many. You are open and free, yet grounded in the things that really matter.
Communication Style
Your gift, is the ability to handle intense conflict without losing your cool. With your level-headed approach, you are able to shrug off most of the bothersome things people say. Occasionally, you might question your actions or others' criticisms of you. But despite some lingering concerns, you are almost always well-served by your composure in the face of confrontation.
Your Romantic Life
You have high standards for love, believing in one love that outshines the others. To you, successful romance has two aspects: an emotional connection based on mutual care, and doing things together that you and your partner both love. You're happy with someone who enjoys the unexpected as much as you do. You'll both be excited at the prospect of situations with an unknown outcome. You and your well-suited mate enjoy high quality conversation and fulfilling experiences together. You are deep, sincere and willing to take emotional risks. You succeed in romance when you use your intuition and intelligence to choose someone whose compatibility with you goes deeper than the surface.
You At Your Best
You are blessedly free from many common fears and anxieties about the world. You're at your best when you're using your ease and fearlessness to explore possibilities and get to know yourself better. Entertain your inclinations. Learn by trial and error. Challenge yourself and then be gentle when you bump up against your limitations. You'll find great satisfaction and strengthen your sense of self when you get your feet wet in the stream of life.
Achieving Success
You are capable of more than you think. At this point, your most important task is to explore just where your greatest talents lie. You're not prone to care a whole lot about getting ahead of the game or looking good in an expensive car. You're looking for other kinds of success. So cast a wide net as you try out possible jobs, activities, and areas of interest. You're bound to learn a lot about yourself, the world and what excites you. Keep an open mind, a positive outlook, and above all, don't sell yourself short. Armed with self-knowledge and a good attitude, there's nothing you can't do.
What Really Motivates You
For you, the chase is the reward. You are motivated by challenge, excitement, the chance to test your obviously ample abilities — and to get that coveted adrenaline rush in the process. You love to use your mind, so you're always looking for your next learning opportunity. If you know that a challenge includes difficult, abstract thinking, you're intrigued and enticed. Motivation for you is inspiration. There's no end to the energy you'll find when given the latitude to pursue your dreams creatively.
Conflict
You value issues that go beneath the surface so you're not likely to get caught up in petty conflicts. When you do find yourself in conflict with people, it's likely to be people you're truly close to and with whom you're emotionally engaged. The topic of the conflict tends to be something fairly complex and definitely profound and challenging. Your insight and calm help you get through these situations with minimal drama. The only drawback there is that sometimes people mistake your cool demeanor for not caring about the issue. Your challenge is to communicate that getting upset isn't the only way to thoughtfully address a difficult issue.
Getting Unstuck in Your Life
You may not know it yet, but you're ready to take some chances. You'll break out of insecurities and stuck places in your life when you open up to new experiences. Try something new and pay attention to how it makes you feel. You have a natural resilience; so don't fear that your experiments with work, interests, relationships or self-exploration will fail. Wherever they lead you, you'll find yourself with more self-knowledge and a richer understanding of your place in the world.
Section V — What is Personality?
You know that everyone has a different personality, but what exactly is a personality?
The word "personality" actually comes from the word "persona" which referred to the various masks that actors wore to depict different roles in Greek plays. That's how we got the popular notion of personality as the combination of traits that make each person distinctive.
While most people agree that a human being's personality is far too complex to categorize and label, some scientists and philosophers have devoted their lives to doing exactly that. They believe that although there are idiosyncrasies to each distinct personality, there are more general “personality types” that can be identified. One of the advantages of defining these types, is that once you know how someone tends to behave, you can start to predict future behavior. This has applications in both the real, and the theoretical world.
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