So I just listened to the voice recorder and was amazed at the similarity between the vision I had described there, which occured at kiwiburn, and the vision I had while at this weekend meditation.

Lowest common denominator information we can take from this is that this is a recurrent pattern in my brain that I was not so aware of previously 

In the meditation workshop I had a vision of Thoth, Ibis-headed god of the Egyptians (a major spiritual sponsor of the event.) Thoth had his long beak stuck in the top of my head, drawing energy from me. I drew from around me the ambient energyand fed that through.

I am reminded: in recurrent lessons from different teachers,it has been repeated that a healer must not just send their own energy, or they will deplete themselves.

So for a while I was channeling energy from through my back outside of me through me to Thoth. This felt fine.

Then I had a vision of the two of us, together, transforming into a single entity. This entity had a sort of point down oblong asymmetrical triangle head wearing long flowing black robes.

I recorded this a few hours after one of my two, very good, peak experiences friday night (see previous post):

“If I put myself in the state of mind that I am being observed by a benign and vast, intelligence, and then track in my energy feed from the universe around me; Until you perfect that, it’s feeding on you. After you perfect that you become it. A part of it. *pause* When you no longer sacrifice your own energy; so we’re all just choosing which idea to become a part of. "

Actually, just look at the picture. That says it all. Taken the other day while nature runs riot around me :-)