Tomorrow it will have been 1 year since my girl dissappeared from my world. So much has changed in that year! Most notably, my attitude! It has taken me so long not to be miserable and angry all the time since she died. I am doing better now, much better though still not fully recovered, and the anniversary has resurfaced my old wounds coming fast on the heels of an emotional departure from the life I created back east.

My move back to San Francisco was bitter sweet, yet I am starting to appreciate the potential for rebith that this move has given me. I am putting my energy into looking forward.

My baby girl died on friday and it has been a heart wrenching experience to move on without her. I always knew how significant and important she was to me, but I never anticipated the many and numerous voids that would be created in her absense. She was my constant companion for nearly 12 years, my confidant, my friend, my charge, my motivation, my grounding, my focus, my home, my joy, my warmth, my unconditional love, the love of my life and so much more some of which I have yet to realize. the truest and most pure love I have ever felt. A love I will never feel again. I will miss her for the rest of my life and there will be a part of me that will never recover from this loss. R.I.P my little angel.