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As many of you know I have more issues then National Geographic, well one of my more minor is difficulty sleeping. Being that sleeping is one of my favorite hobbies I have Meds for this. Usually they are great, they let me sleep through the night and they give me very realistic and vivid dreams that I remember, cool right, thats what I thought. Last night was hands down, without hesitation the worst experience with nightmares of my existance. I had to ask my room mate if I hurt anyone last night, I remember doing it, but it was a nightmare. I can't forget it, I can't forget attacking people I love, even when I know it was just in my head. I am still freaked out, to me it was real.
Tue, October 20, 2009 - 12:37 PM
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love them more because they are many states away and I have to babysit their hot tub, life is tough
Thu, September 3, 2009 - 9:00 PM
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a friend of mine, much more connected to tribe then myself has spoken of the feelings of seperation, of loss, of need, his words has awoken in me many thoughts and memories of the last spring. I don't want to say these thoghts are passing, but they are a time of the eally festivals. That however might be the way to say it. More then I could ever express I fell I NEED another fix, I mean another festival. that fredom, that love, that comeplete ability to be who I am. Hell, I am a festival junkie, I need the love, the freedome, the ability to for a weekend at a time, be who I really am. Let me be myself. Let me give oy to all. I need to give all the joy I can.
Find a way for me to find your joy
Jovell
If you find a way for me to find you, you will find s much joy as I cn find you. I promise that.
Sat, July 11, 2009 - 2:30 AM
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well there is another weekend of joy approaching, PEX fest, it isn't going to be PDF, not as many friends, but some will be there. I believe that this means that I must work harder to make sure that the presence of our collective energy is felt. I must make that much more of an ass of myself. Mind you it is never intentional, I am just that bad at dancing, and you know that the truth of it is, these festivals are the only place I am comfortable being my flamboyant self outside my own man cave. So know I will dance for all of you, horribly, and know when I am there laughing, dancing, watching beautiful people flaunt their naked bodies. I will be wishing that all of you who are not there, were having as good a time as me, or even better there with me, but, sadly I know that probably will not happen, so... I will dance a dance for you, really badly.
love you, send me dance move requests.
jovell
Mon, June 29, 2009 - 11:08 PM
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I think my classroom might kick me out before Thursday. As they put it I am annoyingly happy and anxious, and the staff caught me dancing, the problem is it is only Monday, and I know the rest of the week is going to be worse, or better depending on the perspective.
jovell
Mon, May 18, 2009 - 5:36 PM
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It has been a rough day.
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As many of you know I have more issues then National Geographic, well one of my more minor is difficulty sleeping. Being that sleeping is one of my favorite hobbies I have Meds for this. Usually they are great, they let me sleep through the nigh...
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love my parents
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love them more because they are many states away and I have to babysit their hot tub, life is tough
fellings of understanding and loss
(blog entry)
a friend of mine, much more connected to tribe then myself has spoken of the feelings of seperation, of loss, of need, his words has awoken in me many thoughts and memories of the last spring. I don't want to say these thoghts are passing, but th...
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working towards another weekend
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well there is another weekend of joy approaching, PEX fest, it isn't going to be PDF, not as many friends, but some will be there. I believe that this means that I must work harder to make sure that the presence of our collective energy is felt. ...
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failing at acting normal
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I think my classroom might kick me out before Thursday. As they put it I am annoyingly happy and anxious, and the staff caught me dancing, the problem is it is only Monday, and I know the rest of the week is going to be worse, or better depending...
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