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~ilanamous~

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joined on 03/16/06
last updated 10/25/07
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My Testimonials

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Cyber Friends!...and some real ones too

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Peek inside the F-Holes

Gender
Female
about me
I am a woman of the amazon
who morphs like a butterfly, but I rarely fly by.
I try to steer clear of cold-hearted lovers,
for their ignorance is hardly hidden by my covers.
I hold my own, as history has shown,
With wings I've flown over every hedge encountered thus far,
I leap toward faith in nothing but art,
As Descartes once said,
"I can be sure of nothing but that I exist as a thinking thing."

I dance,
I leave my path up to chance,
and at heart, I romance the idea of justice
as I must if I am to exist as a thinking thing.
I often wear the expression of an overjoyed child,
I am intrigued by the timid and by the wild,
I believe in love, not just being in love,
I don't hold a grudge, and I like to be nudged in all directions.

I like like-minded people as much as deviants to my path
for their wrath tends to strike like a knife to my veil
and pry open my eyes to the pieces of my mind gone stale.

The hoop recently became the love of my life,
if gay marriage were legal, I'd take her as my wife
but it's not, so I move on as I pray you'll move on too,
so we can unfold what great minds combined can do.
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Little Sparks of Insight

Got a plane ticket headed for NYC on august 3rd at 9pm which means a few things:
1. I will be turning 21 in the air!!! (my birthday is august 4th; timezone + 5 hour flight = landing on august 4th)
2. I want to say bye to you all before I leave! unfortunately, I dont have time do it individually but if you want to see me before I go, I will be at Scott's party most of the weekend. Hes throwing a 3-day BDSm-burner-BBQ-pool party bash at his house. Itll be going on friday, saturday and sunday.... read more
Thu, July 31, 2008 - 4:18 PM permalink - 7 comments
 
Still I lay in arms despite a past that's turned me off
Still I bear these arms to fight a battle I have lost
and even if tomorrow I awake and You're not there
I won't wonder if a comfort can exist that will compare

In your arms, You tear me apart
In your arms, I surrender my heart
In your arms, I want it to stay
In your arms, you can't push me away

All the songs we wrote the lines we spoke ring in my mind
It blows to know that in your soul you have forgotten all our rhymes
I'll... read more
Sat, July 12, 2008 - 12:47 PM permalink - 2 comments
 
Its when I'm uninspired and I forget to write,
Its when the drawn out days of summer suddenly seem trite
Its when each corner closes in far faster than before
When all I want to do is throw my body to the floor

And though it seems the signs are clear they very rarely are
Depression is a twisted plot, and I, its lonely star


Its when I start to fear this moment more than I fear you
When raindrops that once stung my skin become the morning dew
When the pages in my journal unwind t... read more
Wed, June 18, 2008 - 9:17 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
A stoic scene meets animosity as bayonette’s do gather,
Flaring high in unity no matter what each rather.
In the depths lie ego tests; the most human point of pressure,
Mindful of the blind intent, forgetting what it measures.

Through frozen fields dead soldiers yield their minds and march escorted
While brazen links of irony bind symmetry contorted.
“Trust in what’s beknownced to us”, a devoted voice projects
As messy scenes of bloody dreams lie hidden in the depths,

The green p... read more
Mon, June 9, 2008 - 9:03 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
Another day berated by a brother
Another heart is broken by a lover
Dive into a vacant pool to heal
Creating worlds far different from what's real

If you find my mind
Please be sure to treat it kind
Don't abandon it like I did

Forced into another war, I pray
The good battles the bad then fades away
I move from place to place escaping pain
Wish I wasn't here but I remain

If you find my mind
Please be sure to treat it kind
Don't abandon it like I did

It all collects like ... read more
Mon, June 2, 2008 - 10:55 AM permalink - 0 comments
 
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