Female

29

Well let's see..I am 24, moved to Portland Oregon about 4 years ago. I love to party... going to bars to hear live music.... currently going back to school...I really hate talking about myself.. I am very humble, very generous with my time and friends. I have been told that I am a very good listener. I have goals, and i don't let that interfere with my social life. I smoke Camel Filter 99's.. or Nat Sherman Naturals. I am originally from south Georgia....yuck. I am always on the lookout for cool bars with great happy hour specials... I recently picked up knitting....I like to get up in the wee hours of the morning to run or walk. I am a vegetarian....but I cheat once in a while.. sometimes you just have to have a piece of meat. I love tattoo's... piercings.....I am tired of politics... but i have my opinions and I vote. I am tired of people bitching and moaning about how this country is going to hell and yet they don't do anything about it. I detest Bush and his gang of right wing ghouls. I have green eyes long brown/red/blond hair... very fair skin.. and somewhat of a southern accent. I am very open minded and carefree. I treat people the way I would like to be treated.i'm choking on my own existence. getting sick, been tired for a long time. the days blur together, time becomes just that. there's all that waiting that just sits there hoping to be put to good use. not alot of action, just stagnation. there's those times when we'd talk about our future and i'd just stare at my shoes. what do you want to do? what do you want to be? oh, don't say that. cheer up. there's those times when we'd talk about love and i'd watch the ice cubes melt in my drink. i'd pretend they were pieces of my heart. you'd say that all you want is for me to be happy. mistake after mistake and it's the same episode, over and over again. i'll tell you who i am not, i'll give you a line. verbatum. how about a nervous smile? maybe some dreams that aren't mine? i'm living in a movie that was written for someone else. pages turn and I can't recognize my handwriting. these photos aren't me. who are these people? the tick-tick of permanance and the beating pulse of desperation. that is my soundtrack. I have been playing the piano for 17 years... I am also skilled at the violin, and the bass guitar. I studied italian opera for about 10 years. Anyone want to start a band?? You can probably find me at The Bar Of The Gods during their happy hour during the week 5-8. My girlfriends and I started a ladies tea where we have a girls night out.. I would love to meet some cool chickas that would like to join! I am in a point in my life.... where I am tired of game playing.... sure it can be exciting... but damn.... no more bullshit. I study people, People disgust me. I pursue peace of mind. The passionately sane and the insanely dispassionate. People that value meaning over happiness, and art over beauty. I am insane. I value true friendship, I have few real friends. I wish for reciprocated love, Love is a scarce comodity. I know more that I should, I won't tell you unless you need to know. I am still learning, I don't know why. I will forgive in a heartbeat, I am understanding. I can't hold a grudge forever, I am not to be taken lightly. I will take on the world, who's with me? 'm a functional paradox...... <embed name="RAOCXplayer" src="home.comcast.net/~j_leopol...yer2" width="300" height="50" autostart="true">