Integrity

It's the small things in life thats count.


There was a time in my life where integrity was a long lost concept.
and the innocence of the child plays and dances with in the fields.

Intentions are pure, and life is full.
In the past i have been in this place, as i moved through out my life in awe and wonder within the world.
My brilliance illuminated those around me. when i was there with you, with you all. knowing you where feeling me
feeling you receiving my kindness and joy of being.

And in the midst of this great dance, was a forgetfulness,, a subtle rythem in my life.

" oh i will be there i say, to take care of your house"

"oh i will be there i say, to check in when i'm traveling"

"oh i will be there i say, to phone and let you know i love you"

"oh i will be back on tuesday, and i wont be late for work"

and the majik of life continues, as i frolic in life's gifts and get lost in awe of there moment.
and when i come back i say....

"I'm sorry, it was not my intention, i meant to come by and take care of your house like i said i would....
I just had the most incredible time, met these beautiful people and i would not have changed a thing"

"I'm sorry, i meant to check in, let you know i was okay.. but you know how traveling is...? dont you?"

"I'm sorry, i know i said i would phone.. but i was just too busy.. far to busy"

"I'm sorry, please dont take this personally, I really did intend to be back on Tuesday, and to not be late for work
i hope you understand"


This has been my dance. Beautiful, gracefull, and in the moment. and there is something missing in the midst of my dance.
a responsibility for my actions., and in turn hurting other's with out intending to do so. I allways seem to turn to the story, turn to my head and elaborate on my excuses. of why i didn't do these small things that i said i would.

one time... i almost burned down one of my most dearest friends house.



-WE ARE POWERFUL BEINGS!
AND WITH GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITY-



As of late, i have been noticing these patterns with in my self, and have made the choice to change my life around, to be accountable, and to be in integrity with my actions: what i say and what i do line up.

I Now see how great of an impact these small, and subtle actions can have, and how much they can hurt some ones els.
for how much they are hurting me.

Talik: Firn (a process of becoming)

Location/url: www.area709.com/Cory/music/mix/169/

This is the debut mix from Talik, the newly formed musical duo of Cory Zaradur and Ahn-Druid. Firn is our live set from the Kultura 3 event. We prepared a delicate combination of complex ingredients in a lush bowl of borscht soup, just to serve you some delicious beats.

Tracklist:

1) Talik - Bubbles of Minimal Life
2) Loess - Brumal
3) Diagrams of Suburban Chaos - Brane Damage
4) Trickform - Schiafnachrichten
5) Faction - Cutters Way/Kiln - Tigertail
6) Folie - Reveij/Fyrepond
7) Spacetourist - Cruising on Stardust/ Mikael Fyrek - Libertae
8) Kiln - Tigertail/Radiohead - Black Swan
9) BT - The Anhtkythera Mechanism
10) Tipper - OutsideinsideOut
11) Machine Drum - Are I (Soul in the Machine mix Xela)
12) Loess - Sonde/ Metamatics - Hotpod Rewired Yasume Rewire
13) Lusine - Ask You
14) Loess - Veld
15) Tiki Obmar - Deru Remix
16) Arovane - Fard ENT-R
17) Faction - Not Very Transparent/ Yasume - When Audrey Dances
18) Near The Parenthesis - Mare Nostrum
19) Tiki Obmar - Tim Koch Remix/ Esem - Spider
20) Tipper - Odd From Every Angle

plus lots of PSR (parallel synchronized randomness)

Manjrushri's Sword

Cut through the bullshit
and love god in devotion, as the expression of the moment

This dance... the dance that reveals the moment.
and you might say.... "what moment do you speaking of? "

And i reply "not the vague interpretations
muddle by fancy word or glamorous imagination."
I mean the raw, straight up truth of now.

My ego, of which i hold so dearly to my heart (it seems)
dose not like the idea that i could be wrong in each moment.
and so it filters my vision, to reveal a image of my fancy............

And so the shaman Waves his feather. And the flame dances
so i speak with "spirit".. and i bow and i chant and i let this feeling fill me.
in that moment thats all that i am.

And so i hold on to this moment soo tightly, i don't release my grip.
i don't let this moment escape my memory's, in fear that the next moment might
not look as glamorous. and it doesn't. and so again the filter.. continues to filter
of what i want to see.. and this is the "i" that i wish to release from.

Authenticity in the moment is often not what i would expect of it.

And so I step back,
i pick up Manjruishri's sword and i cut those strings
to the supernatural sugar coated, sage coated, crystal coated, channeled information coated reality i steep my self inn

and i cut through the bull shit
And love god in devotion, as an expression of this moment.

Transcending The BiosFear

Transcending The BiosFear.
Bio... biology: Something alive, to be defined as living.
Fear...False Evidence Appearing Real.

Transcending The Living Fear.

Over a month ago i put together a small collection of songs into a mix,
The experiments with imperfection & honoring the path of dissonance. ve

This mix was recently posted on a local online magazine.

www.Eleventhtransmission.org

Enjoy

Burning Man - Thinning of the veils

Journeys Along the path,

After just landing back in Vancouver from the dream berry farm studios.. fully inspired to create, and
manifest a world of powerful intention, via studio space and consciouses creation of divine archetypes, through
leather work passed down through Copper Chris,

Eye igniting the flame of spirit

Journeying as guided presence. Micheal dear Micheal just happened to be stretching in the park. as i was on my way to finding a ride back to Calgary to pack up and move out of my house. with only a week left.. i could feel the strings of stress slowing getting taught.

With in 2 hours of the myth makers bus leaving on the journey to the playa, A sudden impromptu decision of joining the journey
Giving my land lady little to no time to accept my offer of staying untill the 15th of the next month..
When finding out later on the playa, some one was to be moving into my space on the first.
I suppose i had my priority's straight..

Upon arriving on the Playa with a bus filled with beautiful people of divine grace.. was a semi friendly welcome with hints of crude humor, in preparation for what lye ahead. 10 of the 13 of us were virgins to the burn, including myself.. as you probably assumed from the style of this writing.

I ask my self, Is there any way you can over exaggerate of magnitude of this event? as the faeries of the sunshine coast would say.. Epic.

All walks of life, gather on the Playa, A terrain that is not forgiving by any means.. The winds, the Playa dust , and the Energy's that pulls and uproot all those hidden issues that need to be secured, It exposes that brilliance and exposes the depth of shadow that one try's to hide.
Metaphors teaching us to tie loose ends.. cause if you dont...they get blown into the endless Playa of the life we create, just as some bridges get burnt.

We gather to burning man as a testing ground of inner most strength and fear. If we cannot learn to commune together, in the environment of party, prayer, fear, and consciousness that is offered upon the playa, then how can we learn to commune in our every day life, where these sames elements are functioning...

The playa is an archetype of infinite possibility. on such a grand scale, up to 45,thousand people gather to explore the creativity and push it to the limits.. at least many upon the 45thousand do..

I felt as though all of the lights, explosions.. and dazzeling creations where destractions, decoys as a challenge to learn how to communicate
in new and profound ways, offering opportunity's of the rarest kind with in those moments.

The Temple was burning, the temple as an archetype of the sacred within us.
Many have expectations. and from my experience at the burn of the temple i found many people where having there expectation shattered
as this giant wave of cheering came crashing out of the ethers.
Many were offended from the supposed "lack" of prayer displayed during and after the temple burn.

Though through my eyes i witnessed something so profound and beautiful.
The masses.. thousands of people gathered for this burn, and although it was not presented in silence as it once has..
I felt something just as profound and just as powerful. as i was holding space with sacred tones,, when this giant vortexing wave of sound was spinning around in a clock wise fashion. around the temple... this wave of cheering. 11 or more times
creating one of the most powerful vortexes i've personally been involved in.
i soon realized with in my toning,... that not every one is at a place in there evolution where they can get down with the "Aum"
This cheering was a vibration that every single person at this event could resonate with. and they where cheering in honor of this temple burning. creating a super-luminal vortex of power, and honor.

I was then guided to a smaller sacred circle of dear friends, rooting our self in truth. in light
and in love. Through out this hole event, up until these last nights of the burn i participated in prayer.
prayer in collective settings, and by my self... though i was allways taken aback for all i felt was this pretentious motive behind my actions
which i'm sure i was projection up others. a sens of.. i've been there and done that.
yet just when i lest expected it... with in this sacred circle after the temple burn, i felt these hands. composed of the most gentle love. that of a dear... rest gracefully, cupping the back of my head.. i resisted at first trying to shake this feeling.. soon to realize this is what i've been looking for. the thinning the the veils.. a true sence of honor, and true sence of prayer with out any pretentious motives.
as i surrender to the love this being has to offer, i start to speak, Kodoish, Kodoish, Kodoish, Adonai Elohim Tsebayoth!
Holy Holy Holy lord god of hosts.

This subtle joy slowly starts to fill my being until the subtleness was an oceance, as we all speak these words in grace and in harmony.

Grandmother moon in her full brilliance..the eclipse of the fish, and the gentle stream that allways seems to knock me on my ass.

I give thanks for my journey, i give thanks for spirit offering me the time and space for these experiences that help us all remember our essence self. and reminds us to trust.. and i will be in the arms of love, embracing all reflection of this divine life that i've been put here to live.


In Honor And Service
I love you all.


Andreas
























Photo Posted On Tribe By: Les I

strange karmic paths, with hits of humor.

Well here i was yesterday..
jolly ol beautiful day, i was riding my friends bycikle.. i just got out of the bank. with a booster juice in my hand.

I was on the left hand side walk.. and i look onto the road where cars are supposed to be.. and i see this "thing" rolling down the road
(this is downtown Calgary) well okay Kensington... i thought it was a hallucination.. but this thing turned its coars and smashed into me and my bike, know my juice all over my body and of course i fell..... this thing hit my foot.. it cut my shoe right up, as well as my foot.. it hammerd and crunched cement into my foot and some bone. (my foot is not broken though)
what this thing was??? well it just happened to be a 3.5 foot in diameter diamond edged concrete saw blade that was 140pounds rooling down the street the exact second i happened to be there this blade fell off a construction company's truck as they turned the corner a few yards up the road..

So from an odd set of karmic patterns i'm out of commission sitting at home, healing my foot

Any Way.. take it as you will hahaha..

SLOW DOWN.. the universe says

Calgary houseing???

Hello dearest family, of beautiful Feary folk.

I am here to announce that my roommates just recently let me know that they gave notice to our land lord... I will no longer be in this house at the end of this month..
Both of my roommates are going there own way.
Which leaves me in the hands of spirit, and the grace of my lovely Kin to find a housing situation
...

I'm looking for a place to rent for 3 to 4 months before i move to lethbridge Alberta.
If possible somthing semi affordable.. Right now i'm paying 600$ after everythings is said and done.

I am in need of a fairly large space since my dearest Sewing machine juki is coming along with my journey..

....
I'm sure this move will allow me to integrate with the community on a more heart based level of giving and receiveing

i have alot to offer,physically and energetically to a space.
sacred ceremony for clearing and ritual of creating safe sacred space. for personal evoloution... plus many crystals and feathers, and other fun friends & pretty things.
To help with the ambients

If Any body hears of any openings that u feel i would resonate with, please let me know

in Honor and service,
Love Andreas


Ph#: (403)475-7716
E-Mail: experiencechange@gmail.com

Simple graphiti expressions

So this feels good.
one step at a time.

ReMeMbErInG....

Memory, Necessary to be un-necessary
as we BE.... ..NOW..
this is no need for such reliance on what was
or
what could be for that matter...




In this new.... yet profoundly Ancient way of life
Each moment is blessed by God
for each moment we are truly Present
we are
&
We are ..NOW..


Memory...
Some so Beautiful,
moments of Divine Grace
Eye
"ReMeMbEr" Remembering
times of such Bliss

Yet there is noting that i miss
For ..NOW.. is Divine Grace
&
ME
Here
..NOW...

I KNOW we have what it takes!
To make this shift
into Grace
One in eternal embrace

Nothing lasts forever,
except forever
&
EyE am forever one with Jah

The construct of "I"
Shift from "mine" to "IS"
For all just IS
Simply Infinitely
immeasurable brilliance
of
shadow
&
Light



With love, Andreas

Lets talk about OM

This was my little walk home from work


Sooo back to the basics.
......



So OM
They say that if we were to take every sound (Vibration) with in this reality/ existence,
the vibration of which we would here would be OM

The heart beat of the one.. the Sacred Om or Aum

Soo Now lets take a look at our nervous system:

In One moment our nervous system is being triggered by thousands if not millions of subtle and not so subtle sensations.
(i'm including Metaphysical sensations)
These experiences can range from a slight tickle coming from seemingly no-where under the arc of your foot..to your ears becoming frozen from cold weather...

Now We seem to be "unconsciously selective" to what we bring to our attention..

Out of a HUGE number of sensation we only focus on a select few.. We then take these few select sensations and do that following: we label them and put into a nice little box

With This way we think we are in "control" and thus give's an illusion of power.

.,.,.....

Lets take a moment to pause..

Pause.

Lets bring your attention back to OM

Now dont think about this just remember that i started off writing about OM.



Now lets just breathe... .. . . .



In....


.......Out


..............in


....................Out


.............................In


...................................Out


.........................................................

Okay lets begin again, remember OM.... and what i have said about the nervous system and our experiences as a part of the nervous system

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So now lets say What would happen if we were to NOT select a few sensations to experience,
lets say we were to feel ALL of what is happening with-in our nervous system.

One "MAY" think that it would be very confusing... very much just a jumble of feeling, and very chaotic...
maybe even some what uncomfortable..

Ofcourse its not, this is all very present in each of our lifes and we know this knowlegde very well.


So when i give my self the chance to experience all of what my nervous system is experiencing, then it would be infact the very opposite of confusing.... it would be like taking in all of the sounds(vibrations) of the universe at once
It would be the sound of OM

the heart beat of the divine...

I am all that i am in this place.








Soooo i though i'd write about my experience because i realized that it is very left brained, it's a very all most scientific "male" way of looking at things..
So i suppose i offer this for balace... looking at Om with in our physical body's and experience this with in this 3D Reality



Have fun

Love Andreas