expressions of reflections

Integrity

   Sat, April 19, 2008 - 10:56 PM
It's the small things in life thats count.


There was a time in my life where integrity was a long lost concept.
and the innocence of the child plays and dances with in the fields.

Intentions are pure, and life is full.
In the past i have been in this place, as i moved through out my life in awe and wonder within the world.
My brilliance illuminated those around me. when i was there with you, with you all. knowing you where feeling me
feeling you receiving my kindness and joy of being.

And in the midst of this great dance, was a forgetfulness,, a subtle rythem in my life.

" oh i will be there i say, to take care of your house"

"oh i will be there i say, to check in when i'm traveling"

"oh i will be there i say, to phone and let you know i love you"

"oh i will be back on tuesday, and i wont be late for work"

and the majik of life continues, as i frolic in life's gifts and get lost in awe of there moment.
and when i come back i say....

"I'm sorry, it was not my intention, i meant to come by and take care of your house like i said i would....
I just had the most incredible time, met these beautiful people and i would not have changed a thing"

"I'm sorry, i meant to check in, let you know i was okay.. but you know how traveling is...? dont you?"

"I'm sorry, i know i said i would phone.. but i was just too busy.. far to busy"

"I'm sorry, please dont take this personally, I really did intend to be back on Tuesday, and to not be late for work
i hope you understand"


This has been my dance. Beautiful, gracefull, and in the moment. and there is something missing in the midst of my dance.
a responsibility for my actions., and in turn hurting other's with out intending to do so. I allways seem to turn to the story, turn to my head and elaborate on my excuses. of why i didn't do these small things that i said i would.

one time... i almost burned down one of my most dearest friends house.



-WE ARE POWERFUL BEINGS!
AND WITH GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITY-



As of late, i have been noticing these patterns with in my self, and have made the choice to change my life around, to be accountable, and to be in integrity with my actions: what i say and what i do line up.

I Now see how great of an impact these small, and subtle actions can have, and how much they can hurt some ones els.
for how much they are hurting me.



9 Comments

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Sat, April 19, 2008 - 11:29 PM
thank you for your honesty andreas.

i am moved by your words and specific examples.

the question 'who am i?' comes to mind.
frolicking in the wonder of new friends, at time i have forgotten to check in with myself and ask who i am. really. checking, listening, discovering, and asking this question all of my values have become clearer and stronger. You are right that with great power comes responsibility. And responsibility, when in line with one's values and purpose is not such a heavy weight.

warmed inside,
rayann
Sun, April 20, 2008 - 1:37 AM
I too... am warmed inside
Sun, April 20, 2008 - 1:40 AM
whups!
Tech error,
what I meant to say fully is...
Growing up is good eh?
Sun, April 20, 2008 - 8:16 AM
Integrity is me being my word. As if I would die if I wasnt my word. Being my word is me keeping my agreements, cleaning up the ones I am not able to keep and making new agreements to complete on those I failed, putting the past behind me and reestablishing my commitment to keep my new agreements to be my word.
Sun, April 20, 2008 - 9:01 AM
integra-te
Sun, April 20, 2008 - 9:41 AM
AHO
Sun, April 20, 2008 - 12:08 PM
boom!

a very warm...

boom.
Sun, April 20, 2008 - 5:19 PM
I'm in this same space. so crucial to be learning it.
a solid post
Sat, April 26, 2008 - 3:18 PM
Frolicking in the light of others shows you new things you've never seen.... but exploring the darkness of yourself shows you the deepest things within... the things you've closed your eyes too.

Revelations of the self are huge stepping stones in the growth of life. Its beautiful to see you taking another step forward too :)