It was the longest night of my life, I didn’t even sleep. I sat in front of my full length body mirror and stared at myself. I was completely nude except for my underwear. I parted my hair down the middle and pulled it over my shoulders and let it hang over my breasts. I scowled at myself and at everything I was. I wanted to rip my face off; I didn’t hate me, I hated what I was. I hated what I could do to others. I hated what those two boys had done to each other.

Ok, well...i'm at work and i'm actually covering for our receptionists and normally that would be fine. and it is, don't get me wrong. but today is my first time playing receptionist alone. like i don't have anyone up here to help me. so i'm kinda getting flustered and confused.

we haven't gotten many calls but the ones we have gotten are just...not fun i guess is the right word. like they're just confusing or odd or just retarded. i've had like five people calling for another company all... read more

so did you know that the two most common fears instilled in the human subconsious are: Being drowned, or being eaten by wild animals? guess what mine is? mine is never finding love. i know thats stupid but really...i don't wanna die alone...i want to love someone that loves me back. but apparently i'm not loved...or atleast i can't see the people who love me.

i know i'm lame, i know its stupid for me to be talking like this, but right now i just... it guess its cuz the two people i love th... read more

so yesterday i woke up and went to put my feet on my floor...and instead they went into a mini lake. yeah, our house flooded again. mainly my room since its right by the water heater. so today we have flumbers, carpet cleaners, and some other men here at the house...and i'm stuck in the computer room. i'm supposed to be doing my homework...yeah right. but the holiday was still fun. just wet...

So this is my first blog on here, and I really don't know what to write. I guess I should say that I'm slightly amazed with the site and with everyone on it. Everyone is so different and I love it!