Well... here I am again. Contemplating the differences between believing that Christ is the messiah that was predicted so many years ago and what it means to believe in Him... what it means to have a spirit... what the hell religion has to do with all of it. So I need some input.

After a lot of thought about the Old Testament and how it so specifically tells of Jesus' birth and what he will do for the world... I also wonder why that part of the bible seems so paganistic. So many r... read more

Yet again, I am humbled. I had the best time with my family on Thanksgiving. It finally felt like a gathering of people who love each other. Maybe my grandfather's passing has had a good affect on everyone... in fact, I know it has. It's a beautiful thing to know that God's timing is so perfect. It actually made me miss home. I felt like a family member this time, not just an out of towner. I spent quality time with my closest friends and family. Hallelujah! I love it when God slaps ... read more

my granfather passed away Monday the 5th of November. his heart finally failed him. he needed a valve transplant, but since it would be his third heart sugery, they knew the chance of surviving yet another would be extremely dangerous. his eating habits and sedentary lifestyle did this to him. i love him so much and do not mean to judge his habits, he was a righteous man in my eyes and the eyes of many others.

this holiday season, even more so than others, will give me even more pain t... read more

We are who we want to be most of the time. But what happens when you don't truely want to be you for a minute or two? What happens when all we want is to be different... but we can't seem to be that way. Maybe it's that we think we want to be that way, but deep down inside I don't think we really want a change. Maybe it's that we hope the world around us will change... but the problem is, we can't change the entire world, but you can change your world. If I think others should adapt to ... read more

For years I have dreamed of going to Europe and backpacking for months just to "find myself". I have always thought that a trip like that will make me understand all that I do not understand. Since I have been living on my own in a small town not very far away, I found that I didn't have to go very far to have all my questions answered. I don't know if I'll ever get to backpack in Europe for a month... I really hope I do and I think I can make it happen eventually. What I've discovered is... read more