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~Ian~

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joined on 11/21/03
last updated 08/07/09
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Strangefolk and friends

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Liber OZ - words to live by

“OZ: the law of
the strong:
this is our law
and the joy
of the world.”
—AL. II. 21.

“Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.”
—AL. I. 40.

“thou hast no right but to do thy will. Do that, and no
other shall say nay.” —AL. I. 42–3.

“Every man and every woman is a star.” —AL. I. 3.

There is no god but man.

1. Man has the right to live by his own law—
to live in the way that he wills to do:
to work as he will:
to play as he will:
to rest as he will:
to die when and how he will.

2. Man has the right to eat what he will:
to drink what he will:
to dwell where he will:
to move as he will on the face of the earth.

3. Man has the right to think what he will:
to speak what he will:
to write what he will:
to draw, paint, carve, etch, mould, build as he will:
to dress as he will.

4. Man has the right to love as he will:—
“take your fill and will of love as ye will,
when, where, and with whom ye will.” —AL. I. 51.

5. Man has the right to kill those who would thwart
these rights.

“the slaves shall serve.” —AL. II. 58.

“Love is the law, love under will.” —AL. I. 57

lib.oto-usa.org/libri/liber0077.html

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My Recent Activity

Birthday BBQ at Chez Ian ( events » other ) So long as it's not raining I'm going to BBQ on Saturday, my birthday.
If you'd like to come over and celebrate the wonder that is me, me, meee(!) bring something for the grill, and something (food or drink) to share. Extra points for Asian snack... read more
event starts Saturday, April 25, 2009 - 5:00 PM 5 RSVPs
Nebula @ Circadia includes Acrylick Alchemical! ( events » arts )

Acrylick Alchemical will have art showing in Portland for the First Time next week! She's still new to the area, so please forward!
people.tribe.net/acrylick
www.myspace.com/acrylickalchemical

"Nebula"
"an art show/dance pa... read more
event starts Saturday, February 28, 2009 - 9:00 PM
The Invisible Forest - a film by Antero Alli ( events » arts )
ParaTheatrical ReSearch presents
"THE INVISIBLE FOREST", A Film by Antero Alli
(2008; 111 mn. USA). Filmmaker in person.


FRI. JUNE 6, 9:30pm, $6.50
HOLLYWOOD THEATRE, 4122 NE Sandy, Portland
www.hollywoodtheatre.org

The Trailer (3 mi... read more
event starts Friday, June 6, 2008 - 9:30 PM
Deathguild Thunderdome Fundraiser! 7 June '08 ( events » nightlife ) Deathguild Thunderdome Fundraiser! 7 June '08

Saturday June 7th 2008 - "bringing the dome to San Francisco"

Location: Ace Auto Dismantling in San Francisco
2255 Mc Kinnon St San Francisco, CA 94124-1326
www.aceautosf.com/aceautofuns... read more
event starts Saturday, June 7, 2008 - 6:00 PM 5 RSVPs
Deathguild Thunderdome Fundraiser! ( events » nightlife ) Saturday June 7th 2008 - "bringing the dome to San Francisco"

Location: Ace Auto Dismantling in San Francisco
2255 Mc Kinnon St San Francisco, CA 94124-1326
www.aceautosf.com/aceautofunstuff.html

A night of entertainment featuring:
... read more
event starts Saturday, June 7, 2008 - 7:00 PM
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Quotables:

"Oh go through the walls; if you must, walk on the ledges of roofs, of oceans; cover yourself with light; Use menace, use prayer...My sleepers will flee toward another America!" - Jean Genet
"I believe in nothing, everything is sacred. I believe in everything, nothing is sacred."
- Tom Robbins
"'Tis an Ill Wind that Blows no Minds!" - Malaclypse the Younger
"Nothing is True, Everything is Permissible." - Hasan bin Sabbah

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Nanakoyobi Yaoki

"Never give up"
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Features and reflections...

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about me
Metaprogrammer and dreamer; Discordian, Thelemite, nurse, witch, magickian, Thunderdome Medic, crossdresser, tantrika, scooter pilot, motorcycle racer & insatiable reader. Big time anime fan. Cat lover and gardener, lapsed mountaineer, semi-retired professional warrior, aspiring bodhisattva.

Though I've long walked the path of Shadow I seek to view the world from a standpoint of compassion and loving kindness...I strive for balance in an unbalanced world.
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The light of the sun, moon, and stars...

Like the light of the sun, moon, and stars, may love, compassion, and wisdom shine forth. May they strike every single living being and dispel the darkness of ignorance, attachment, and hatred that has lurked for ages in their being. When any living being meets with another, may it be like the reunion of a mother and child who have long been separated. In a harmonious world such as this, may I see everyone sleep peacefully to the music of nonviolence. This is my dream.
--- From by 17th Karmapa Ogyen Trinley Dorje

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Mirror, reversed

I just discovered that Eskimo North, the ISP I trusted for over 15 years collapsed yesterday after its owner Robert Dinse was sent to prison for incest (!) fer chrissakes!
No notice, no warning!
Eskimo hosted my virtual domains, the mailing lists I managed, my main ftp storage sites, a jillion images and a plethora of web pages, and 15 years of mail archives all of which I have only partly backed up because they had been such a trusted reliable provider for so many years for me. I'm devastated and in shock.
I can only hold out some vague hope that the data may someday somehow be recoverable but for now I watch amazed as the Tower crumbles before my eyes.
seniorobserver.blogspot.com/2009....html

Postscript: see my last comment below, they have resurrected it and I have been able to rescue and archive *all* my data including over a decade of saved emails, whew!
Wed, November 11, 2009 - 7:41 PM permalink - 4 comments
 
I've been a Witch for 36 years tonite! My favorite thing on Hallowe'en is still the glowing pumpkin faces of my Jack O'Lanterns...
Sat, October 31, 2009 - 9:41 PM permalink - 3 comments
 
Today was good - I found a 4-leaf clover by my walk and gave it to Marlena, we brought home rotund orange pumpkins, watched Hebe's appetite and spirit continue to rebound, and watched Häxan (Witchcraft Through the Ages, 1922) with kitties curled on the blanket, meow.
Mon, October 19, 2009 - 10:54 PM permalink - 2 comments
 
Back to worrying about Hebe who is losing weight and seems depressed.
She is a shadow of her former self, vet trips haven't given a clue. I've been referred to The Holistic Pet Vet Clinic by two friends to assess her for IBS, we have an appointment on Thursday...
Tue, October 13, 2009 - 5:55 PM permalink - 8 comments
 
Twas the night before Crowleymas
we all sang in chorus
each one of us crowned
and conquering like Horus

My woman in scarlet
And I the Great Beast
Had just said our Will
and were preparing to feast

But somewhere outside
a strange goings-on
Perhaps, I thought Aiwass
But nay - 'twas Choronzon.

In my body of light
I went with assertion
of will to confront
The demon of dispersion.

When what with this prophet of
Princes went amiss?
But my Guardian angel
Calling across the abyss.

He possessed my wife
and then bade me to scribble
Three days worth of nonsense
and ludicrous drivel.

And there then he left me
alone in the wastes
To redeem all mankind
But I feared to make haste.

I pondered and wandered
causing many a schism
debauching, blaspheming,
By word, deed and jism.

But now here I stand
at Crowleymas feast
with the word of the Aeon
I am crowned the Great Beast!

~uncle al (Chris Durham) 10/12/99
Sun, October 11, 2009 - 10:09 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
Wow, summer's over - that sure seemed to go by fast!
Tue, September 22, 2009 - 7:21 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
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Cassilda's Song

Along the shore the cloud waves break,
The twin suns sink behind the lake,
The shadows lengthen

In Carcosa

Strange is the night where black stars rise,
And strange moons circle through the skies
But stranger still is

Lost Carcosa

Songs that the Hyades shall sing,
Where flap the tatters of the King,
Must die unheard in

Dim Carcosa

Song of my soul, my voice is dead,
Die thou, unsung, as tears unshed
Shall dry and die in

Lost Carcosa

-Cassilda's Song in 'The King in Yellow'
Act I. Scene 2.

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Happy Holidaze! Snowpocalypse 2008

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The Thunderdome tale

My Bout in the Thunderdome with Boychaos - Burning Man '06 (excerpt from my blog):
Deathguild is a group of inspired madmen and madwomen who recreate the whole Mad Max environment, from the cars to the costumes to the attitude. What best exemplifies this attitude is their to-scale Thunderdome, where nightly bouts of mayhem take place to the roar of a hyper-excited crowd - it doesn't get more surreal than to crouch within the dome, waiting one's turn as the combatants bounce and bash each other in their suspended harnesses...soon it was our turn, and we were cinched tight into the leg straps, and brought to the center of the Thunderdome. Both in our BIMC Colors, Boychaos and I saluted each other, were hauled back to the edge, and released! I felt an intense calm, a familiar pre-combat feeling I've not had for a long time since adopting my "kinder, gentler" stance on life. The only way I could have done this was just this way, to fight with someone, a warrior, that I love and respect - in battling we manifested our great bond with one another, something I will never forget so long as I live. The first round was fierce, (Boychaos is very strong) but I felt not a single blow, just the bash bash of striking and being struck, the dust filling my mouth and nose, and my senses screaming. Excellent! Our second round was my undoing though, as I lost my balance on launch, and caught a hard blow to the face while I was still flailing around - match over. I felt great! Even the Deathguild guys said "Good match." which gave me swellings of pride and joy. We embraced, and left the Dome, exultant, as fireworks from the Flaming Lotus Girls' Serpent Mother set the night on fire...

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My Thunderdome bout - Deathguild,BM '06!

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People say the funniest things

Unsu...
 
February 3, 2008
Ian is real. Every since I met him I have had an extra skip in my step and heart.
January 21, 2008
sometimes Ian is my cult hero. sometimes Ian is just a big ole pain in my ass.
Overall one of *the* most classic freaks of the lovely persuasion.
November 5, 2007
I made Ian snort milk out of his nose with my writings.
I win!!!
Love Ya, Brother.
KK
March 13, 2007
The precious things in life can be found in the heart that brings orchids back from the brink of death and in the chaotic beauty of a rat bike. Ian is incredibly special to me and if only he lived closer, I am sure I could make him tired of my presence around his spiritual and moto oasis in Portland.
May 30, 2005
.......sigh........ummm....20 years I think I've known the man, and things only get better! Great friend, great weirdo, great biker. I can't wait for my next visit "home" to the PNW!
November 24, 2004
Absolutely fabulous with no hesitation to claim that I've yet met anyone who makes me giggle gleefully with pleasure every time I ponder of his wonder...He's the star I would wish upon!
Unsu...
 
November 12, 2004
Too smart to fit inside of one person. I love and appreciate all the aspects of Ian. I keep turning around corners and meeting him again. I'll see you around the next bend, my brother, my sister.
July 24, 2004
Ally, friend, teacher, test-case. Tough as nails where it matters most, and Kindly Nurse Havoc where it matters more. I'm _grateful_ for his friendship.
June 26, 2004
Ian's a great person, I am honored to call Ian a friend (or was that fiend?).
Oh yeah, great parties too!! People can't seem to keep their clothes on (or at least while they're spinning fire).
December 26, 2003
One of the most amazing, intelligent, surprising, fun, weird individuals I've ever met. I'm very much the richer for making your acquaintance. A Toast!
December 3, 2003
Ian is the incarnation of Pluto energy. And at the same time, e's goofy! E's a planet, populated with entire populations, some alien but most entirely familiar. And when I visit em, e lets me play with his trepanation drill!
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Inner Universe

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Inner Universe lyrics

This is the Ghost in the Shell "Stand Alone Complex" opening and kind of my adopted personal theme song:

Song: Inner Universe
Lyrics: Origa/Shati Syder
Music: Yoko Kanno
Vocals: Origa

Angely i demony kruzhili nado mnoj
Razbivali ternii i zvyozdnye puti
Ne znaet schast'ya tol'ko tot,
Kto ego zova ponyat' ne smog...I am Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
Soboj ostat'sya dol'she...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
Soboj ostat'sya dol'she...Stand alone... Where was life when it had a meaning...
Stand alone... Nothing's real anymore and......Beskonechnyj beg...
Poka zhiva ya mogu starat'sya na letu ne upast',
Ne razuchit'sya mechtat'...lyubit'...
...Beskonechnyj beg...Calling Calling, For the place of knowing
There's more that what can be linked
Calling Calling, Never will I look away
For what life has left for me
Yearning Yearning, for what's left of lovingSoboj ostat'sya dol'she...
Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
Soboj ostat'sya dol'she...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
Soboj ostat'sya dol'she...

Angels and demons were circling above me
Breaking the hardships and starry ways
The only one who doesn't know happiness
is the one who couldn't understand its call
I am Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer...Stand alone... Where was life when it had a meaning...
Stand alone... Nothing's real anymore and......Endless run...
While I'm alive, I can try not to fall while flying,
Not to forget how to dream... how to love
...Endless run...Calling Calling, For the place of knowing
There's more that what can be linked
Calling Calling, Never will I look away
For what life has left for me
Yearning Yearning, for what's left of loving
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer...

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My favorite Lord of the Rings scene ever

 
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