The Star You scored 75 change, 65 wellbeing, 58 wisdom, and 44 truth

The woman in this card represents the subconscious mind gathering knowledge from the universal subconscious and pouring it over humanity. The right leg that supports her weight is bent in a 90degree angle suggesting that all will be learned if you search in the right places, with her foot resting in the pool of knowledge. The left hand pours the waters over the land and it disburses into 5 separate streams representing the 5 natural senses of man. some extra words: regaining hope having faith in the future thinking positively believing counting your blessings seeing the light at the end of the tunnel feeling great expectation looking forward to success being inspired regaining motivation realizing an inner strength seeing the way clear being stimulated to a higher level creating receiving the answer being generous wanting to give or share spreading the wealth opening your heart giving back what you have received letting love flow freely offering with no reservations holding nothing back feeling serene experiencing peace of mind relaxing finding your still center remaining untroubled savoring perfect calm being tranquil amid trouble enjoying harmony

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 84% on change You scored higher than 53% on wellbeing You scored higher than 21% on wisdom You scored higher than 5% on truth

Link: The What tarot card resembles you Test written by KamikazeParrot on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

So I found a new apartment living with a close friend in a town I would have never chosen to move to if my life hadn't had the rug swept out from underneath me. It has much more space than we can use. It's ironic that the place I lived with Melissa had no space for either of us to breath, and now that I live in dumpsville I have more space than I can handle. Life is cruel. I'm finding it hard to accept things still, but I am managing. I don't think she cares much about how I feel anymore and I just need to get used to that. Once I move I hope I can find something to center me. Right now I just want life to hand me my pink slip so I can just go somewhere else and find loving tendril beasts by way of the 8th dimension to take care of me and milk my wounds free from all this poison. The part that boggles me the most is that after so many years of saying I love you, now when she hugs me, I can feel this layer of false caring and distance, like she is hugging a cardboard cut out man...it just kills me because I still love her in whatever aspect she exists to me as and would still lay down my life to keep her safe and well. Someday she will think of me and miss me...it probably won't happen until I move to Sedona and she realizes I left her behind.

Black magic on my mind

making me an unkind man

seeking my revenge

gonna get it just as subtle as I can

split it into atoms

so it's easier to wash from my hands

Black magic on my mind

making me an unkind man



i can be reborn

this can be my first breath

you can be reborn too

this can be your first breath



so tragic left behind

the makings of kindly man

no magic intertwines

my heart sifts right through my hands

ditch the evil doers

and find myself a new home land

so tragic left behind

the makings of a love so grand



i can be reborn

this can be my first breath

you can be reborn too

this can be your furst breath



Black Magic on my mind

making me an unsound man

nothing left to sacrifice

nothing left to tie me to the land

this body was an alter

and now it's just an empty can

black magic on my mind

dragging me through burning sands



I can be reborn

this can be my first breath

you can be reborn too

even with your last breath

'TRUTH happens in a state of not knowing, truth happens in innocence. Truth happens where there are no clouds of thoughts moving in your consciousness, when sky is absolutely clear, when there is no abstraction, when you have no idea and God is or God is not. When you don't believe in no-God, when you are simply in a state of not knowing. You don't claim any knowledge, that non-claiming consciousness begins to open up. All knowledge burdens and closes you.' -Osho

I've learned recently that I am too trusting. I like and trust people to a fault. I need to start questioning the people around me and their motives. I take too much at trust. Way too much it seems. Oddly enough, here's a bit to chew on from the Jehovah's Witness POV:







Good Friends—Bad Friends

A YOUNG woman we will call Sarah poured out her heart in distress. A man she had thought of as a friend turned out to be a murderer. ‘If someone I trusted could do such a thing, how can I trust anyone?’ she asked. Her listener asked Sarah if she had known what kind of values the man had. She responded, “What do you mean?” Sarah didn’t even know what was meant by “values.” What about you? Do you know what your friends’ values are?



The answer to that question can literally mean life or death, as Sarah’s experience bears out. One Bible proverb puts it this way: “He that is walking with wise persons will become wise, but he that is having dealings with the stupid ones will fare badly.” (Proverbs 13:20) Yet, like Sarah, many people select friends merely on the basis of whether they “hit it off” or not—how they feel when they are around them. Naturally, we like to be with people who make us feel good. But if that is the only criterion for our choice, with little or no thought given to a person’s real inward qualities, we may be headed for great disappointment. How can you know whether a person has good values?





http://www.watchtower.org/e/20041208/article_03.htm



And if the fucking Jehovah's Witnesses weren't gangsta enough, here's what eminem has to offer:



What are friends? Friends are people that you think are your friends

But they're really your enemies, with secret indentities

and disguises, to hide they're true colors

So just when you think you're close enough to be brothers

they wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't lookin

"If I Had" - Eminem





Not everyone I know falls into this category, but everyone is on notice from now on...

The way my life has been presenting me with stuff lately, the timing of it all, and the way I would act in relation to the timing, is just entirely fucked up. I no longer believe in coicidence. Everything happens on purpose. I think I am about to lose myself...hopefully music will be a strong enough anchor to keep me here.







This is hands down the best music video I have ever watched 20 times in a row. It actually does contain some of the great mysterious of life in it...and answers too! But, if you aren't a fractalian master of the 12th ascention, then those things are best left where you find them, and probably with a little extra dirt kicked over top out of kindness for the next hapless wanderer...