Well, at least as it pertains to me.

I dance with a wonderful and talented group of women (Sahara Wind). All of the women I dance with are beautiful and smart and graceful.

Me-not so much. I don't mind that though. It sounds weird, but it's true.

I don't pick up the moves as quickly as the others do. I'm not as graceful as they are. I'm, well, let's face it, I put the "belly" in "bellydance", and I'm just awkward.

However, with that said, when I dance as a part of the whole, I feel alive. I feel good. I feel in tune with myself, and I feel like I'm part of something larger than myself.

I will never be a solo dancer. I have no desire to be. I want to be a "chorus girl". A member of the troupe, not someone who wants to be featured (how's that for a Leo? o.O Yeah, not Leonine at ALL!).

I just want to blend in. Be part of the whole.

It makes me happy to be that way.

In a few months, I'll be starting over anew in a new place. I'm hoping I can find a place to continue dancing. I'm hoping I can find another group of women who will let me join in and dance with them.

I hope.