Okay-so here goes. I am tired of living in this body. I mean, I have never felt satisfied inside my skin-except for a brief period a couple of years ago when I lost some weight for a class reunion. When I was young and thinish and curvy, all I could see was the bump here or the jiggle there. Now I could kick myself for not enjoying who I was.

It is time. I am doing the HoopGirl Fresh Start Contest. I am doing this-and blogging about it-as a motivator to stay on track. To not loose interest after a bad workday or during my crabby week. I need this because I feel like a cow. I feel like I just want to drop out and hide (and eat).

This is how it works: I diet and exercise using HoopGirl hoop and DVD (easy-it’s the only hooping vid I own). I loose between 20 and 50 lbs and she gives me HoopGirl classes and merchandise. Now the classes part may pose a problem, as she is in San Francisco and I am in Kansas City, but, well, we did love our visit to SanFran… Will deal with that later… Actually, now that I think about it, that trip was during the brief thinness.

The thinness-----When Tim and I started dating I weighed 45 lbs less than I do right now. When I got pregnant I weighed 5 lbs less than right now. When I went to my reunion I weighed 25 lbs less than right now. I obviously can do this, if I am motivated. I will do the same diet that worked for me then. I have failed on it since, but-no motivator-so it should work again now.

The hooping-----I love the hoop. I am not very good at it. I can do a few tricks but I have no flow. But I am hoping that the extra time I will need to give to it EACH AND EVERY DAY will improve my hooping as well as my butt. I am a little bummed that I have to use (buy) a HoopGirl hoop rather than using my own, but I understand. This is a promotion for her company, after all. And Tim, always the supporter, said to go for it.

So there it is. This is more of me bare than anyone will ever again see in a public forum. Weight loss for fun and profit. Tune in next time, same bat time, same bat channel.