The Ramblings of My Mind

Gettin' back into IT

circle-magic — Tue, 06 Nov 2012 01:23:33 GMT

Ahh! I AM! And there really isn't any need to say more. I've been rolling around in my head for a while. Think I'll roll out and breathe some fresh air. Reconnect and make some ART... my Art.

Well its been a YEAR!... and then some.

circle-magic — Thu, 02 Oct 2008 07:46:03 GMT

Aug. 15 2007 was my last entry. Oddly enough it was about getting to perform fire with Jeff McBride on and episode of Criss Angel's Mindfreak. Well here I am, a year and a couple of months later, and I am now officially working for Cirque du Soleil's and Criss Angel's show called "Believe". It opens Oct.31 and I am getting work with Michael Curry puppets and and many other props. Its kinda weird how everything has worked out, but in a good way! But many other wonderful things have also been happening. I have connected with a wonderful being named Aaron and am delighted to see where our relationship goes. I now have Blue hair again!! And I got the left side of my nose pierced!! It has been a very blessed year and this next one promises many more abundant doors and travels. Things are growing and blooming and I am reaping the first early fruits of a greater harvest that is yet to come.

Mindfreak episode

circle-magic — Wed, 15 Aug 2007 08:26:03 GMT

Well its next Tues. Aug 21rst. Criss Angel's Mindfreak. This will be the episode that Jeff Mcbride brought us in for. Myself and Ra' performed with Fire fans and Badger was our Number one safety/tech. Josh and Morgan played drums that night. So there is a lot of our crew present and involved on this one. We are recording it on the DVR. We will be at Burning Man when it airs. So we will check it out on our return from the playa. Speaking of which we all begin our journey on this weekend of the 18th and 19th. So we will be a bit out of phase for a while. Hope to see some of these faces out on the playa. And definitly will be happy to see the faces of loved ones and friends when we return.

Comtemplating My Navel

circle-magic — Wed, 17 Jan 2007 17:48:45 GMT

With the twist of the twine and the slip of the beads Graphite and paper pulse within the paint Clay of the ages forms and reforms Watching the celestials move through my earthly hands Heart beats to the drum of the Universe Pulse Golden threads weave from that of only thought And new worlds are inspired from the sips of Rumi's Wine OhmyGod's/Goddesses I have touched the face of God/Truth today. This time it was found while creating a project. The subtleties of the twitches of my hands and fingers. The delicate turns that my thoughts moved and danced with. The place where creation is made with a thought. I have listened to the whispers and found the wisdom of the ages. Create, Create, Create,...........pulses like the drum that cannot be quieted. Making stuff has always been a part of me, today it was like a missing piece of the jigsaw puzzle was popped into place. Making stuff will never be the same again. Now it is a space I share with God.

Longest Night

circle-magic — Fri, 22 Dec 2006 22:51:18 GMT

So I spent my longest night of the year attempting to stay awake through all of it. Snikker.... Coffee and Kahlua helped... and Friends. We toasted to silliness and worked in our heads the progressions of the old year and the wonderments of the year to come. We gave food to the fire to burn the past and resume the future. We worked and played and well I dozed off a couple of times. It was simple and perfect with room for improvement, which how life should be. It was shared which made it even sweeter It was my Solstice Night Happy Freekin' Solstice Happy End of the Year (yeah we made it) Happy New Year (yeah we get to make it again)

Carnivore

circle-magic — Sat, 25 Nov 2006 08:44:24 GMT

Conversing with the bone white, raw, Exposed Gnawing on the gristle sucking out the marrow Listen to it singing a form once supposed Now Coarsing through the veins of a hunter Cleaners removing sinews and fibers Returned to its base Form of the True Listen to the story Live the new strength Revel to its honor Life that did Dwell Abides Within me. .

Squishy moment of sincerity

circle-magic — Thu, 14 Sep 2006 04:04:31 GMT

I have been reminded again most recently, of the mirror that resides in souls that we call friends and family. The mirror that reflects the many facets of both current form and potential unfoldings, yet to come. To look around at those which I would call friend and family, and I know with honor that the images that reflect from their faces are of the spirit that resides within me. Some images more easily received than others. To then take it a step further, and to see that reflection of life mirroring within itself. Reflecting the image of all that lives and to know that I am of that place. That within the planes of existence this continues to "whole true". It continues to move in this way throughout the whole honey comb I for this moment am full of gratitude and appreciation for all that it is reflected between us.

Falling in Place

circle-magic — Sun, 10 Sep 2006 06:36:30 GMT

Heyokah's grin flits within the eyes " I Know You.... I See You". We are the children that tease you with water guns. The mothers that grab you by the ruff of the neck. Pounding our drums, resuscitating your heart. Reminding it how to dance. Kokopelli plays a tune of the story "Sing a song for sixpence...... hah hah I've Got You" Wide and varied are the paths of trancension and it will not be ignored. We shall spit paper wads and tap you until you awaken You sleeper that searches for Avalon. Loving you with kisses that recall a sweetness to the heart Spiking your drink, so as to inflame the inspiration. Moving the memory to twitch the atrophic dreams Itching to live Tricksters shifting to become the perfect need. "Now you see Me...Now You don't " Motivating the chaotic spice to just the right flavor. Crossing portals but not remaining. Moses shows you to the promised land and our mirrored skin imitates the reflection of your soul. With a crack of a smile and cock of the eyebrow we shall fade into the mists and wait like some distant recollection. Shamans of the moment Waiting

Happy New Year!! Thank you all

circle-magic — Fri, 09 Dec 2005 23:17:48 GMT

I have decided to do the New Year resolution crap a bit early this year. I have resolved to get my head out of my ass!!! I have returned to Vegas only to truly see that this is not the city that I want to live in! So I have resolved to finish school, make what monetarily must be made, and move on. This is not a reflection upon the generosity and kindness shown to me by my tribe and family. The hospitality and goodness shown to me here, will follow me where ever I end up. And know that I will still return to visit. No, I don't know where I would choose yet, but I have some definite clues as to the character and type of place I want to live in. And lastly, but not least, I have resolved that no more shall Asshole, egotistic, controlling, pricks be allowed in my life. I have little to no patience for them. I am really in the process of shedding and molting. This process doesn't always make me the most pleasant or compassionate person to be around. I also tend to be a little bit socially inept and words don't always flow well from my mouth, hence I stay quiet alot. I know what I am going through so please don't send me any happy shiny gratitude poetry right now. So, if I step on anyone person's toes or don't live up to the usual "Renee" personality, or hurt anyone person's feelings...................... To Bad! I actually treasure the friends that I can speak this way around and not worry about other sensitivities. But, even that concern is fading from my personality and being stripped away like old clothes that don't fit anymore. My "Real" friends can handle the bitching and also call me out on my bull shit. They can also handle whomever it is that I am, whenever I am. They can also handle it when I decide to be "Nice" as well. I have been told this is my first life-time as a woman............... maybe someone should re-define woman. Thank you all for being my friends

A case of the fuzzies

circle-magic — Wed, 07 Dec 2005 07:43:13 GMT

The pretty, did find tufts of rabbit fur growing from her predator's hide, and has a rabbit ear upon her head. Her little finger has sprouted a lucky rabbits foot, in place of the finger she did knaw upon. Grrrrr...... Why should this desert creature have fuzzy bunny stuff growing off her body. ooooo that's right I ate one of those Damn Fuzzy Bunnies for dinner last night. It must be part of the indigestion. Its so hard to find good health food in Truckstops at 2:00 in the morning. Do you know what's the worst thing about eating a Bunny Rabbit? Thump! Thump! Thump! Thump! Thump! in the face. Heee hee

Desert's Mirage

circle-magic — Wed, 16 Nov 2005 07:41:54 GMT

Roughened tongue licks fevered brain Musky scented deluge invades nose Long toothed nibbles nuzzle neck Sinewy muscles stretch and limbs intertwine Deep within the shadow the iris glows and pupils flicker Claws knead and rake sweet flesh Deep low growls quiver in the back of the throat Quenched thirst is but a temporal state Sated only by the next kiss Evoking passions of a Desert memory.

Love affair with a Storm

circle-magic — Sat, 22 Oct 2005 19:16:44 GMT

Lightning arcs across my lips Electric sparks and pop rock candy sizzle my tongue Thunderous vibration pulses a Deep Base that penetrates my psyche Ascending crescendos and plummeting waves Treading the dance of spirit and soul Cool rain mists cloak and hide Shango's passionate affair Clouded lantern illuminated, brimming and bursting. Spilling the contents of an Orisha's orgasm over the naked surface of a waiting body As I dare to dance with the spirit of the storm.

From the back of my head..

circle-magic — Sat, 08 Oct 2005 08:20:19 GMT

Resting within the glance of my shadow's eye is the glint of a spark that once inflamed my humanity. There within a perfect repose bides a love imagined only by poets and dreamed of by fools. Idealism awaiting manifestation inside the bowels of the cynic. As the worm opens its maw. Photo by Margot Knight

Favorite part of a favored poet.....

circle-magic — Sat, 08 Oct 2005 07:55:06 GMT

Here we go round the prickly pear Prickly pear prickly pear Here we go round the prickly pear At five o'clock in the morning. Between the idea And the reality Between the motion And the act Falls the Shadow For Thine is the Kingdom Between the conception And the creation Between the emotion And the response Falls the Shadow Life is very long Between the desire And the spasm Between the potency And the existence Between the essence And the descent Falls the Shadow For Thine is the Kingdom For Thine is Life is For Thine is the This is the way the world ends This is the way the world ends This is the way the world ends Not with a bang but a whimper. T.S. Eliot The Hollow Men part V

Quote from my ancestor Vasco Da Gama

circle-magic — Fri, 30 Sep 2005 20:45:40 GMT

"I am not afraid of the darkness. Real death is preferable to a life without living. "

Massage Therapy School

circle-magic — Wed, 28 Sep 2005 21:27:12 GMT

So I have decided to go back to school. I start courses for Massage Therapy and Sports therapy. I feel really good about it and will recieve a National Certification when I finish, plus be able to branch out into different fields of study. I picked the Massage studies, because this is something I will enjoy, it can travel with me, has low overhead costs, and I felt like it was something that I could grow with and it would allow for flexibility for the other creative endeavours I enjoy doing. I will start my classes on Oct. 3rd. This will be a vocation, I know I will do well with and I really will enjoy it. Its so weird to think of myself going back to school, I haven't had homework assignments, and tests in such a long time. It will be good and fun and worthwhile.... this time is different. When we were young we were obligated to go to school. So, naturally we often times resented it or rebelled or challenged it. This time I am going back because its my choice to return and I want it. That makes a difference, for me anyways.

Behind the Veils of the Stars

circle-magic — Thu, 15 Sep 2005 20:40:24 GMT

Descendents of the Infinite Walkers of Eternity Transcending form and time Traveling in the hourglass sands Residing within the heartbeats of the All One Thing Mid-wives to the Soul The Birthing begins

Connections Shared

circle-magic — Mon, 22 Aug 2005 20:22:12 GMT

attract and repel worlds separate rotating near and far heavenly dances between souls connections shared then danced apart and hearts that linger for a longer kiss

Yemaya's last wave

circle-magic — Sat, 20 Aug 2005 06:45:32 GMT

I am just shell empty Cast upon the sands waiting Once I knew life within Now I am Yemaya's gift laying at your feet

Over the Mountains

circle-magic — Thu, 18 Aug 2005 00:23:50 GMT

To know such brilliant light and such equal darkness Waiting with held breath for the empty hand to be filled once again with the warmth of love that has spilled across the floor And watching the cat lick it up again.

Devil's and Angels

circle-magic — Sun, 24 Jul 2005 23:00:08 GMT

What creature has spawned? With one wing dipped in blood and one foot left in heaven Surrounded by a golden Halo tinged with fire and a glint of silver held in the eye. Kisses like honey dipped in spice and teeth that slide carefully into the vein.......... ... ahhhh ... I've been hangin' out with the vampires to much..giggle snigger.

destruct the constructs

circle-magic — Thu, 07 Jul 2005 07:58:45 GMT

Its all just something we've made up, shit and beauty. And now because we made it, we have to live in it. I think now I am ready to lick the playa. See all you burners, back home.

19.5 hours

circle-magic — Wed, 29 Jun 2005 16:25:37 GMT

Well I am now in Las Vegas... wow!!what road trip. I think that is the longest I have ever driven in one day. It was the day that would never end.... Beautiful scenery, I swear the Gods left their foot prints in sands of the deserts. And some of them even made sandcastles, out of the mountains. Amazing drive, I am so glad I did it.