I will only accept what you are willing to give. I will never demand of you, only ask. I will always accept you for exactly who and what you are. Whatever you need I will deliver as much as I am capable of. I will always support you yet give my own opinion. I will act like a jack-ass at times and I welcome you to feel free to do the same so we may laugh about it then or later. If you do not agree with me feel free to tell me so; I may or may not change my mind but will love you regardl... read more

I sit with my guts in a knot, my hands shaking, clasping and unclasping because there is nothing else to do but wait. My hands do not know how to be still. My mind races and comes back to itself. Every muscle tensed, the line between my brow grows deeper, my eyes wide always open, focused. I've developed a haunted look which I carry always, so much so I've become accustomed to my new look. The waiting is torturous. I breathe and relax for a second, then the waiting begins again. How mu... read more

I picked up my violin for the first time in a long time. The technique was still there, though rusty. Why, oh, why did I ever put my violin down?
I have music I've written, composed. I trained to be a concert violinist as a child. Life, as I chose it, did not involve my violin for a long time. I am finally coming back to my musical origins... my bow needs re-hairing, my strings need restringing, my fingers need reminding of what they once knew so intimately. But my ear and my heart ar... read more

Does anyone have any old CD's they want to get rid of? There's an art project in the making and all the CD's available are appreciated.

Just in a day I lose track of how many times I walk into a door frame, trip over something, stub my toe, break something falling on my ass, burn myself, get something in my eye and proceed to freak and walk into door frame, trip over garbage can cuz I can't see it, stub toe on random object lying on floor, fall onto said object and breaking it, and burning myself on stove because I was cooking in the first place hence I got vinegar in my eye... this is just in a ten-second time frame. Being ... read more