I see this number all the time. Is it because I first designated this number as my name many years back?

it has become more of a prompting...and thanks to 11:11 guy (i just read his blog), i am seeing now that it is more than a coincidence, but perhaps not a sign per se.

my husband experiences the phenomenon of lights turning off whenever he gets near, and especially under them. even though i have full faith and belief in my number phenomenon (although, really, what are the odds, and how have i beat them?), i still hesitated when he told me this. now, we've been together for two years and i have no more skepticism for his claims. it really does happen to him (i think) way more than other people...and myself for sure.

what does this mean, except there is so much more going on than we really are atuned to. we are creatures who only have 5 (and some say 6...whoa!) senses, but for all we know there is a reality out there (either simultaneously existing within, or perhaps alongside) in which the creatures experience endless senses and perceptions.

i just got done reading The Great Divorce. highly, highly recommend it.

sometimes i am afraid to speak of God for fear of what others might think of me. but what about God? i don't think his feelings get hurt, he handles a lot more than me not proclaiming his name.

the thing is, people are afraid to commit, and committing to God means (for most people) committing to church, and organized religion, and abstinence from the things that bring them pleasure. i admit, i have felt and believed this in the past. but the fact that i choose to indulge my pleasures and not go to church does not negate the fact that He exists. nor does it condemn me to hell. in fact, i'm just not sure about the whole heaven and hell thing anymore, except to say i am content not knowing, but in my not knowing, i do not want to fall into complacency.

wow...that didn't make any sense. but i feel a peace today that i haven't felt in a while. i had to shed a few tears to get there, but boy it was worth it.