I have discovered that I can remember certain kinds of things pretty easily now and other things are like triggers to forget. I have started to map out these triggers for myself and wondering how far reaching they really are for others! For me when I encounter neglect or what I interpret as neglect I will feel the fog close in and then often forget about that thing that has "neglect" connected to it in my mind.

I feel angry more specifically around neglect or feeling neglected. It seems like behind the fog is a mistaken belief: Is it -I deserve to be neglected?

I wonder what probably fairly typical (albeit unhealthy) event occurred that led to this neglect.

I also wonder how much of my generation has been divided and conquered on a mental level?

Part of my anger now is about knowing that i could have had these memories and greater functionality 10 years ago.