Have you ever been so stressed out that you neglect to realize that you are stressed? This happens to me quite often. I always think, "yah, there's a lot going on right now, but it's not so bad." Then days later my body and mind rebel, trying to get me to take some sort of care of myself. Well, I'm at the body rebelling part. It started with my stomach lashing out in the middle of dance class the other day. I ended up missing most of class and didn't stay for dance movement. Then my shoulder, which I injured about a month ago (I know shame on me for not getting it worked on, but I thought it had gotten better.....really) decided that it wanted to act up right before dance class. This of course was ATS class where you arms are in a high second. To really top it off, I forgot how to dance. Yup, 4 years and couldn't remember a damn thing. Couldn't even cue my fav. move. Hell, I couldn't even feel the music...it was pathetic! I leave tomorrow morning (have to be at the airport by 5:00 am) and I still have so much left to do. I'm mostly packed thank god, but I'm still cleaning the house. I know the trip and the show aren't my only stressors right now, but I can't afford to think about all the other things that have got me down. This just isn't the time to deal with tall of the other stuff going on. I wish there was a switch in my brain so I could turn everything off, except for that little part of my brain that dances, breaths, and digests food. Hell, talking is highly over rated right about now! I don't know what's more stressful...leaving for two weeks and doing a show, or coming home and facing the future. Being an adult sucks!

Well, I should be off to more cleaning.......damn my left eye is ACTUALLY twitching.