THE BOOK OF DAYS: THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS DAILY ORACLE & MASTER ALMANAC 2009

THE BOOK OF DAYS DAILY ORACLE & MASTER ALMANAC 2009

Happy* Blessed* Prosperous* New Year

THE BOOK OF DAYS DAILY ORACLE & MASTER ALMANAC 2009

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IN OTHER NEWS

CHECK OUT MY TWO NEW FACE BOOK GROUPS
THE GREAT COMPANY OF SOULS
www.facebook.com/profile.php
& CONSCIOUS EVOLUTION DAY
www.facebook.com/group.php

in 2009 there will be 9 more CONSCIOUS EVOLUTION DAY events

N 2009 THOSE SOLSTICES, EQUINOXES, LUNAR EVENTS CLOSEST TO THE HALF WAY POINTS WILL BE:

CANDLEMAS: FEB 9THTH FULL MOON 2009
VERNAL EQUINOX: MARCH 20TH
BELTANE: MAY 9TH FULL MOON
JUNE SOLSTICE: JUNE 21ST
LAMMAS: AUGUST 5TH FULL MOON
AUTUMNAL EQUINOX: SEPT. 22ND
SAMHAIN: NOV.2ND FULL MOON
DEC SOLSTICE: DEC. 20TH 2009
NEW YEARS EVE DEC 31ST 2009 FULL MOON

any one even you are welcome to join these groups and invite your friends

THE CONSCIOUS EVOUTION DAY EVENT WENT GREAT THE NEXT ONE THIS YEAR IS FEB.9TH FULL MOON SUNSET WHEREVER YOU HAPPEN TO BE
YOU CAN ALSO DO THE CONSCIOUS EVOLUTION MEDITATION ANY TIME IF ONLY FOR A MOMENT.
TO FIND OUT MORE
GO TO
daenglish.com/consciousevolutionday.htm

ALSO HAVE A FACE BOOK FAN PAGE FOR THE NEW WORLD FLAG
www.facebook.com/profile.php
AND MY VERY OWN CULT OF PERSONALITY FAN PAGE
www.facebook.com/profile.php


also
in case you hadn't heard
DIVINE METAPHYSICS 101
the short course...illustrated ...
the care and feeding of the natural high...

is now available
on amazon
with a look inside feature
and at
daenglish.com/divinemetaphysics101.htm


THATS ENOUGH FOR NOW

SOME REALLY AMAZING STUFF UPCOMING

WILL OF COURSE LET YOU KNOW WHEN THERE'S MORE CONCRETE THING TO SAY

"...IT'S ALL STILL HAPPENING...GETTING USED TO HOPE...?"

a week in and the signs are still up
the name is still resounding
with glee
the usual world is still
on its way in a handbasket
yet people everywhere
seem to not be that phased
because they know what is happening

our man was seen hobnobbing at the whitehouse
today...

and that alone
is hope incarnating...

this is no longer a time for hope to be deferred
for 8 long years we have been waiting
for this time
for some of us we have been waiting since 1968
and some since nov. 22 1963...

we have a future
again
that looks brighter
than our past...
for the first time since
that dreadful night
the supreme court announce
they were giving the presidency
to the unelected gov. of Texas...

the first time...

it's amazing how the global consensus
is in already...
no need to wait for the hindsight of history
the present administration and its sorry cast
is loathed and reviled
by enough of the world
for us all to feel the elation and jubilence
at its democratic demise...

but the great thing about this moment is
not only is it that we get to get rid of
and shake off the freaking yukkyness...
but...
we also get to have
just a human being
with obvious integrity
in the office of the presidency
of the United States...

now from the reactions of the world
and the immediate headlines
the media seems to have
initially couched the story as:
"first black president"

from the first moments
that magnificent night
as i searched the web for his victory speech
from the front seat of my bus
parked on a street in "the Valley"
and at first saw the headlines
"First Black President "
i was actually surprised
and thought they had all missed the point
i've been meaning to write this since then
& as the days have gone by
what i've seen has only served to inspire
me more to get it down as the moment passes...
so here is my two cents:

for me as a person of 3 racial bloodlines
the significance of this election
of Obama wasn't about race...
it was about the quality of a person
triumphing for us all at a time
when we all ..the whole world
really needed for the best man,
the best person
to win...
so we could finally
begin to live up to our potential
and our ideals...as a people...as a nation
and as a true beacon
as the best and brightest humanity has to offer
yes
as "...the last best hope..."
at this critical of critical moments...

there are those who may see
this as the story of
the triumph over race prejudice
another giant step in this country
healing itself of
the undeniable truth
that America was built on slavery
(both the Whitehouse and capitol building
were both built by enslaved Africans
and African-Americans)
and the inherent hippocracy
of "the founding fathers"
creating a nation state
based on liberty and justice for all
except those they owned and enslaved...
which led to the horrors
of the civil war and the klan
and the lynchings, fire-hoses,
and the illegality at risk of death
of my ancestors on both sides
making love and marrying...
for the past 2 centuries until 1968...

given all this ...history...
for me i recognise how important it is
for all those working on the race thing
but if we leave it there
if we let the story be
"1st BLACK Pres."
we miss the point...

1,000 or 10,000 years from now
if humanity is still here
Race will be as confusing an issue
to understand as it is for "us"
to understand the Bosnian
or Rwandan ör Shiite/Sunni genocides...

but if things go right
humanity may have cause
to look back here
and see that here is where
we finally started
to fulfill our destiny
our potential
as human beings and as a species
and it all started
with
h o p e...

the hope we rallied
around
and invested
in our choice
of a man
who stood
for one brief shining moment
as a symbol
for all that we might aspire to
for ourselves
and our generations...

a man who recognized
and reminded us in speech after speech
that it wasn't about him
it was about us
our relationship with our selves
our potential
and our future...

a rallying point and a symbol
of all that is
the true, right and goodness
of humanity
to finally set things right
and strike out on the best path
for humanity...

the path of consciousness
and compassion...

no small task
no small expectation
but at least we finally
get to live and move in the direction
we started and left off with
"...one small step for man..."

it ain't about race...

it's about promise
fulfilling
& living up to
our own ideals...

simple homework
so good to be doing it with
the whole world at once...

that is the wonder of this time
the global awareness
of the unity of the species of humanity
with the rest of creation...
to pretend otherwise is to really miss out...

never before in the history of our species
has the awareness of our connectedness
been so unavoidable...

i love you

d

THE REST OF THE EXPERIMENT...

AS I WAS STANDING NAKED & ALONE
IN THE UNKEPT
POOL

THAT HAD TAKEN ME SO LONG TO INCH INTO
BECAUSE OF THE TENSE, CHILLING COLD...

LOOKING DOWN IN THE WATER
I SEE THE SHADOWS OF ALL THE LEAVES FLOATING ON THE SURFACE
AS RAINBOWS
SPECTRUM SHAPES SHIMMERING
ON THE CONCRETE BOTTOM...

I LOOKED UP AT THE SUN
STANDING IN ITS LIGHT & WARMTH...
TAKING IT IN...BREATHING IT IN...

THE SUNLIGHT
BEAMING
THROUGH COB WEBS GLISTENING
ON A HIGH TREE BRANCH

LISTENING TO THE HIGHWAY
JUST OVER THE FENCE
SOUNDING LIKE
THE OCEAN WAVES BREAKING
OR RIVER RAPIDS SLUICING
THROUGH THE ECHOING CANYON OF SOULS...

...A MOMENT OF WEALTH

TODAY IS: " #267. WEALTH...?" IN MY ORACLE
(THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS DAILY ORACLE...
365 CARDS, BOOK, PERPETUAL CALENDAR, MEDITATION KIT, DVD, COLORING BOOK...MY DE FACTO SUMMER PROJECT;
& NOW IMMERSED IN THE FALL PROJECT: THE 2009 TO 2012 MASTER ALMANAC )

SO WHILE I WAS STANDING THERE IN THE POOL
I REALIZED THAT THE TITLES OF THE IMAGES OF MY ORACLE
ARE REALLY JUST
THE DAILY MEDITATION...

AS I WAS STANDING THERE IN THE POOL
I REALIZED THAT THE MEDITATION IS REALIZING MY TRUE WEALTH...
TODAY ...

I REALIZED MY TRUE WEALTH
IS GENIUS...
REVELING IN
& ENJOYING
PURE
GENIUS...
THE GENIUS THE UNIVERSE SEEKS TO SHARE WITH US
REVEAL TO US AT EVERY MOMENT
I HAVE BEEN BLESSED TO HAVE WITNESSED THIS ON MANY AN OCCASION...
ENJOYING THE MINUTIAE OF LIFE
JUST BEING HERE ON EARTH...
STANDING IN A VERY COLD POOL OF WATER
NEXT TO A FREEWAY
ON A VERY HOT DAY
IN THE SAN FERNANDO VALLEY
WATCHING THE SUNLIGHT RADIATING
FILTERING THROUGH THE TREES
CATCHING THE WEB
BILLOWING
BY A BREEZE
TO INDICATE & ACCENTUATE
THE INTRICACY
OF LIFE
& DEATH
ON EARTH...
FRAGILE
& PRECIOUS....
SO MISSABLE
AS WE MARCH ABOUT OUR OWN LITTLE WORLDS
TO DO OUR DO ...

ONE OF THE LESSONS OF THE DAY WOULD BE:

"...WEALTH IS ONLY WEALTH
WHEN TRULY & GENUINELY APPRECIATED BY US IN OUR CHOSEN MOMENTS
& IS ALWAYS BEST APPRECIATED WHEN SHARED... "


ABOUT THE REST OF IT
PERSONAL PROGRESS & RESULTS OF THE FEAR BURNING EXERCISE:

I AM COMING TO TERMS WITH THE FACT THAT MY OWN PERCEPTION OF MY SELF UP UNTIL NOW...
WAS AS A PERSON THAT WAS NOT VERY GOOD AT MANIFESTING...

BUT

I AM NOW REALIZING THAT I AM
& HAVE ALWAYS BEEN VERY GOOD AT MANIFESTING

THE PHRASE THAT CAME TO ME AT BURNING MAN AS I WALKED ALONE THROUGH THE CROWD AROUND THE MAN THE NIGHT OF THE BURN WAS:
"I AM AN INSTRUMENT OF DIVINE MANIFESTATION...
I AM A MANIFESTER OF DIVINE WILL...
I AM AN INSTRUMENT OF DIVINE WILL..."
I FIRST REPEATED THIS AS NEARLY A QUESTION OF MYSELF & THE UNIVERSE
BUT THE MORE I WALKED & TURNED IT OVER IN MY AWARENESS I SAW THINGS FALL AWAY...

I REALIZED I HAD NOT BEEN OPEN TO ACCEPTING RESPONSIBILITY
FOR WHAT MANIFESTS IN MY LIFE...
PREFERING TO LEAVE IT UP TO THE UNIVERSE
BUT AT SOME POINT
ONE WHO CONSIDERS THEMSELVES ON THE PATH
MUST SHOULDER THE BURDEN OF WHAT THEY CAN BEAR...
I THINK THEY CALL THIS MATURITY
IN THE SPIRITUAL SENSE...
ACKNOWLEDGING THAT I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT DOES & DOESN'T HAPPENS IN MY LIFE...

MAKING IT TO BURNING MAN ON MY BIRTHDAY WAS PROOF TO MYSELF OF MY ABILITY TO MANIFEST A TICKET, GAS, & FOOD...
LAST WEEK I HAD TO MANIFEST NEARLY $1000 FOR VARIOUS BILLS
& IT HAPPENED...
THIS PROVIDED ME WITH A CHANGE OF MIND FROM STRESS
TO PEACE OF MIND THAT I HAVE BEEN FULLY OBSERVING SINCE...
I AM NOW ENVISIONING...
SEEING WHAT ELSE NEEDS FIXING IN MY LIFE
IT'S A SHORT BUT CRUCIAL LIST...

AT THE MOMENT:
ISSUES OF HOUSING
LOVE LIFE PARTNERSHIPS
& PERSONAL FINANCIAL WEALTH
CREATING THE EXHIBITION VEHICLE FOR THE WORK

AS FAR AS THE HOUSING
I CHOOSE
A BIG LIVE-IN STUDIO/GALLERY SPACE ON THE BEACH...
HERE IN VENICE WOULD BE GREAT
UNLESS I FIND SOMEPLACE BETTER...
I CAN SHOW, STORE, CREATE, & PROCESS THE WORK INTO PERMANENT EXHIBITION FORMAT:
THINKING OF SANDWICHING THE 1,400 CANVASES IN GLASS OR PLEXI
TO BE SUSPENDED FROM THE CEILING IN A LABYRINTH PATTERN PEOPLE CAN WALK THROUGH...
IN BOTH THE TRAVELING EXHIBITION & THE PERMANENT EXHIBITION SPACE...
THAT I ENVISION IN A SERIES OF DOME STRUCTURES ARRANGED IN THE SEED OF LIFE PATTERN...
I PUT THE DESIGN PLANS FOR ALL THIS IN MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY LAST SPRING...
THIS LIVE-IN STUDIO I HAVE ENVISIONED SINCE I STARTED CREATING 30 YEARS AGO...

WHAT IS DIFFERENT IS
SEEING & FEELING IT HAPPENING
& EXERCISING THE WILLINGNESS TO ACCEPT BEING DESERVING
NO RESISTANCE TO RECEIVING
BECAUSE I'M ACCEPTING THE RESPONSIBILITY OF CREATING & MANIFESTING THIS
FOR THE GOOD OF ALL INCLUDING MYSELF

IF THERE WAS A I PLACE I GOT STOPPED IN THE THE EXERCISE
IT WAS THAT
WORTHINESS...
ASKING THE UNIVERSE FOR SOMETHING WITH A TRUE SENSE OF WORTHINESS
A HEALTHY SENSE OF TRULY DESERVING WHAT I ASK FOR...

ALSO
THE LOVE LIFE PARTNERSHIPS PROCESS
HAS BEEN VERY DISAPPOINTING
& DOWN RIGHT FRUSTRATING
I'VE HAD SEVERAL SITUATIONS RECENTLY OF INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE THAT
ARE REALLY INTO STRUGGLING FIRST BEFORE JUST ENJOYING...
& I'M OVER THAT
OTHER SITUATIONS HAVE BEEN A QUICK GLIMPSE OR TOUCH...A LOOK... A PROMISE...OR A MAYBE...
WILLING & INTERESTING PEOPLE WHO ARE A LONG WAY AWAY,
AT A PHYSICAL DISTANCE, OR GOING IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION, OR ON A DIFFERENT PAGE...
A CARROT DANGLING FROM THE END OF THE STICK
SPURRING ME ON...
THE RESULT BEING THE SAME
NOT THERE YET
BEING BY MYSELF...
WHILE I LOVE& ENJOY MY OWN TIME & COMPANY
I WOULD LOVE TO BE WITH THE RIGHT PERSON IN A HEALTHY WAY
INSTEAD OF QUESTING HER...LONGING FOR HER...BEING SEPARATED FROM HER...

THE RIGHT PERSON IS SOMEONE I AM GENUINELY EXCITED TO BE WITH
A NATURAL JOYOUS CONTENTMENT...
NOT LOOKING OVER HER SHOULDER OR BEYOND HER FOR THE NEXT COOKIE
WISHING FOR MORE OF THE HUNT
BECAUSE I FEEL UNMATCHED...
& YES I HAVE SEEN MYSELF ATTACHED TO THE HUNT
I'VE WOKEN UP TO GLIMPSES OF MYSELF AS A RELUCTANT BUT DEVOUT BACHELOR...DIDN'T MEAN FOR THAT TO HAPPEN...

I ENVISION A POWER COUPLE
THAT CAN CREATE TOGETHER
& INSPIRE PEOPLE
WITH OUR LOVE FOR ONE ANOTHER...
JUST BY SHOWING UP & BEING TOGETHER...
I ENVISION LOVING SOMEONE SO MUCH
& THEY ME
THAT WE CAN CHANGE THE WORLD AROUND US
WITH THE POWER OF OUR INTENSITY...
THAT'S THE LOVE WORK I FEEL I CAME HERE TO DO...
TO DISCOVER
& EXPLORE THAT DEPTH OF FEELING
WITH HER WITH GLEE...
& ALL THESE WORDS I KNOW ARE NOTHING COMPARED TO WHAT IT IS I AM TRYING TO DESCRIBE...

SO WHY HAS THIS NOT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE SO FAR?
WHY HAVE I NOT MANIFESTED THIS UP TO NOW?
WELL IT'S NOT FROM LACK OF FOCUS, EFFORT, DESIRE, & A STRONG SENSE OF PURPOSE & DIRECTION...& PATIENCE...
I'M GONNA MEDITATE ON THIS ONE
BUT NOT HAVE IT STOP THE MANIFESTATION PROCESS...

ENOUGH FOR NOW
LOVING YOU
D

AUGUST '08 UPDATE

THANKS FOR BEING ONE OF MY TRUE BELIEVERS

HI

THE LATEST NEWS IN MY UNIVERSE :
I'LL BE 51 ON THE 26TH

THE AUTOBIOGRAPHY IS NOW AVAILABLE ON AMAZON.COM
WITH A LOOK INSIDE FEATURE.

TO BE FOLLOWED THIS MONTH BY
LOVE, SEAGULLS...
44 PAGES ORIGINAL WORDS ON PHOTOS
&
DIVINE METAPHYSICS 101: THE SHORT COURSE
THE CARE & FEEDING OF THE NATURAL HIGH...
100 PAGES ORIGINAL WORDS ON PICTURES

THE BIG NEWS THOUGH IS
INSTEAD OF DRIVING AROUND THE COUNTRY
I 'VE SPENT THE PAST MONTH AT AN INTERNET CAFE IN VENICE BEACH CREATING:
THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS DAILY ORACLE
365 CARDS / BOOK / CALENDAR / JOURNAL...366 PAGES WITH EXTENSIVE INTRODUCTION & CALENDAR INDEX
explaining how to use the oracle...each image corresponds to a day of the year; a degree of an astrological sign; a planet; a lunar phase; with a brief, enigmatic interpretation; & with enough space on each page for you to record your own interpretations of each image...
Samples of the deck are being produced now as a submission package for publishers...
WORKING ON :
THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS COLORING BOOK
THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS MEDITATION KIT:
3 HALF HOUR DVD'S / THE BOOK / THE CARDS/ THE COLORING BOOK / THE CALENDAR /
THE COMPANION BOOK (150 FULL COLOR PAGES ALL 900 IMAGES IN THE DVD'S)
DON'T HAVE A BURNING MAN TICKET YET
STILL OPEN TO THAT LAST MINUTE MIRACLE COMING MY WAY
NOW WOULD BE A GOOD TIME TO BUY SOME ART, BOOKS, OR DVD...OR SCHEDULE A READING

LATE JUNE ’08 UPDATE: you can now sample & buy the book...

hey beautiful
today i'm stopped on the side of the road in Nevada
on my way to the Rainbow Gathering in Wyoming
sending out the latest good news from my universe...

yesterday i finished proof reading THE UNPOLISHED MANUSCRIPT
polishing it so hard that i added over 40 new pages since May 17
then i republished it to my on-line storefront lulu.com/daenglish
350 pages 8.5"x11" & it's beautiful
$24.50
then i submitted it in a 8"x10" 342page format to Amazon's
createspace.com online publishing on demand site...& today they
accepted it...& are sending me another proof copy to check & then it
will be available in their store...$24.50
digital downloads $12.50

soon it will be available on Amazon's KINDLE STORE

follow the link to the newsletter page for
* directions to the Gathering
*all sorts of links to the book & more...
*& all the other good news & particulars from my universe
i'll be in the bush for a little bit then i get to work on all sorts
of yummy things
that i've been planning publishing wise...very exciting...very excited
can you tell
just a little heads up:
the book is freakin' beautiful
it looks wonderful & feels even better
like something magical & spiritual... you tell me
you can check out the cover & the first 10 pages here:
www.lulu.com/content/2283803

lately i seem to be doing a lot of readings
both astrology & just intuition
all from word of mouth
so if you feel the need don't hesitate to call 310 869 2454
lemme know if any of this is workin' for ya...
& i really hope you're having a splendid summer...
love
d

Click on groups.google.com/group/dav...anged-book
- or copy & paste it into your browser's address bar if that doesn't
work.

THIS SATURDAY NITE LIVE SCREENING OF THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS DVD AT AGAPE

MAY 31st 7pm SHARP at AGAPE SPIRITUAL CENTER in CULVER CITY/L.A.

A LIVE SCREENING of my 90 DVD:

THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS Vol.1

:a consciousness experiment?



I'll be performing LIVE:
"...THE SONG OF MY SOUL..."
an original improvisation for solo piano that uses only the black keys
& recording this performance for the soundtrack of
THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS Vol. 2
which will include all the sacred geometry paintings inspired by crop circles completed since Vol.1, for release later this year...
there will be a Q & A session after the screening...
address of the screening:
Room #2 AGAPE Spiritual Center 5700 Buckingham Parkway, Culver City, CA
in other news:


I've just received proof copies from the printer of the autobiography

THE UNPOLISHED MANUSCRIPT
Of A Diamond In The Rough...
Portrait Of The Artist As A Human Being...
The Care & Feeding Of A Good Idea...

& I'm delighted to report it looks beautiful...
i'm proof reading the book right now
& aim to repost the final version with all the corrections
& stuff i left out of the first version by June 4th
& will let you know
you can order your reserved copy of this final version right now
at the True Believer's price of $25 shipping included
BY FOLLOWING THIS LINK
daenglish.com/unpolished.htm
i'll send another notice out when i finish publishing the final version
& hit the road for the summer...

for those who didn't get the news
i've declared myself graduated from setting up on the boardwalk...
i'll still be enjoying Venice
just not depending on selling my work on the street...

just published the autobiography!!!!!?!!!!!!

HEY GOODNESS,
IT'S FINALLY DONE & I JUST PUBLISHED the autobiography:

THE UNPOLISHED MANUSCRIPT
Of A Diamond In The Rough...
Portrait Of The Artist As A Human Being ...
The Care & Feeding Of A Good Idea...

IS READY FOR YOU... at my storefront:
lulu.com/daenglish

this is just a quick note
some really cool things coming up
Kelly's movie RETURN OF THE MAGI
the documentary on Authentic Astrology
is premiering at the worlds largest astrological conference
in Denver on May 18th...it uses parts of my film
THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS Vol.1
as transition elements within it...
looks like i'll be doing a screening of my film
& live performance of THE SONG OF MY SOUL
at AGAPE at the end of the month...let you know...

moved out of my place on the boardwalk...
ready for what comes next...

will be giving some workshops in Divine Metaphysics & meditation
at a yoga studio in Crested Butte, CO this summer for a couple days
looks like after
July 21st
after the Rainbow Gathering in Wyoming

i'll keep you posted

thank you for your love
& support

d

here's my latest newsletter
Click on groups.google.com/group/dav...hy-iz-done
- or copy & paste it into your browser's address bar if that doesn't
work.

ok...life of the artist..

so after writing 'til 5am
i get to sleep
& get woken up by my old friend Bob
knocking on the door at 11:30 am
to say i'm gonna get a ticket
so i'm up
out the door
down the ally
turn the corner
& running up the street
in time to watch
the donut patrol
place
ever so casually
under my windshield wiper
my second street cleaning parking ticket this week
...good morning...
that will be $50...
would you like fries with that...?

the first ticket was when
i did a live painting performance
at an art party in downtown LA last week
& at the same time
had my bike with the bike rack still attached
& locked to it
ripped off
stolen from off the front of the car...

the good thing is my beautiful yellow bus
looks better without that pesky bike rack on the front
the thief was kind enough to leave his own broken bike
with the seat & handle bars still warm
laying on the sidewalk next to the bus...
after all what would he do with 2 bikes
must not be too greedy...
(i used it to ride around looking for the bike rack
& left it back on the sidewalk....so if you need one
it's on the corner of Broadway & hurrmppfff )

& then find out from the woman
i'd loaned my other bike to
& asked for it back 4 months ago
that it had been stolen 3 months ago...

this was the bike that was on the front of the bus
coming back in the dark
from Burning Man last year on the 395
when i hit the deer
that was knocked into my lane
by the oncoming fresh-off-the-lot white pickup truck...
i had to drag her broken deer body still warm
out of the road so no one else would hit her...
the wheels of the bike were bent & wobbly
marked with deer medicine:
gentleness...

this all comes in the context of
the events of last month
when after having lived on the block
for over 10 years
out of the blue
i go out the day before street cleaning
to move the bus
& it's gone
i rode around on my bike looking for it
thinking i must have somehow forgot where i put it
i even chided myself for being so absorb in the work
that i forgot where i put my car
i finally accept the fact that it's gone
along with the suitcase of one of a kind manuscripts
& call to report it stolen...
find out they towed it from the middle of the block
for being parked in the same spot
for longer than 72 hours...
because one of my neighbors
a really nice Scottish tenor/math tutor
with a pomegranate tree in his yard
he planted 25 years ago from seed
had been complaining of
boardwalk vendors parking storage vehicles on the street

i try not to drive much
& use my bike...used my bike to get around...

$300 to the LAPD
to get back my bus...
so i can put up the artwork the next day
at AGAPE Spiritual Center
for their next 3 month artshow...

so today i wait 'til noon in a
"hey we'll leave you alone after noon on Monday" space

at 6 minutes 'til noon
the parking enforcement rolls by again
& keeps on rolling as i'm sitting in the drivers seat...

then i stroll to the boardwalk
to kinda see if there might be a space for me to set up
not that i feel like working out there any more
it has not been working on many levels for months...
after a while i had to ask what's the best use of my time
all the signs are pointing at some sort of graduation...

gotta move out in two weeks
& need to finish writing the autobiography
that i've been working on since Christmas
& as of this morning i'm finally up to the summer of '06
just a year & a half left to write about...

now i've kind of gotten my self in a pickle
it's just been confirmed that the boardwalk
as we've all come to know it
will be ending on may 10th
as it goes through yet another
in a long series of convulsions
of being screwed up
by the people that work in offices
that have no idea what makes the boardwalk work
but think they do
& have the power to work their will
& make others deal with their view of reality...
until the next convulsion...
this time it's a federal judge
who loves performers
& has given 200 spaces on the boardwalk to performance
when there are 20 performers
& 103 spaces to every one else
& there are several hundred of those depending on the season...
everything in the performance spaces must be by donation only
threat of $500 tickets for violation
(except books, CD's , & DVD's of & by the performer
so maybe if i could afford an inventory
of the 7 books i've published since Sept.
i could then make out)

so if someone comes up & wants to take your work for nothing
the judge is saying you have to give it to them...
can you say l a w s u i t...?

so
end of that income
not that it has been working
but no new income coming...
no new doors opening
to take care of the immediate concerns
& owing a serious chunk of change,
more than i ever have,
& two parking tickets
& new registration
& Hawaii drivers license renewal
have to move out on may 1st...
where to store all the paintings
bus needs a new battery & a tune up
& where am i going?
& with what...?

in an effort to finish the book
i've gotten into this odd time cycle
by writing all night 'til 5am
then trying to get 6-8 hours
then jumping back into it as soon as i wake up...
so i've been writing 12 to 15 hours a day
for the better part of the past 2 weeks...
before that i was writing from
when i came in from the boardwalk 5- 7pm
until 3-5 am...for 3 months...

this is the context in which i wrote the words:
"the path with heart
the true path
is beyond
fear..."
?

over the weekend i noticed this line in my right hand
i had never seen before
this big strait-as -a -ruler line
from the nexus of lines at my lower palm to my pinky
i looked it up on the web
says the pinky is the Mercury finger
a line like that could mean issues to do with
health, commerce, &/or communications
business opportunities...
getting ones message out to the world...
i don't usually pay attentions to such things
but dang this line is like a big
"what the F*****K is that" thing
...am i gonna live doc am i gonna live...????

so i ask a friend who is a "hand analyst"
& she confirms what it says on the web...
& that the fact that it's happening
while i'm typing the book
is the key...

so then i read this thing she writes to me
about this being all for me to get the point
or the cherry of this process...
because as i get the point of this process
then i can best share it with the world...

& it suddenly occurs to me
that i may just be doing this whole thing for my self...
?????????
that had not occurred to me...
i was thinking i was creating something of benefit
to others
but that could be a conceit...

as i came back to my room the gentle man
across the hall
apologized to me...
i had to ask for what...
& he said that he had had a relapse...
& i said at what...
he said he thought it had been hardest on me...
that he basically lock himself in his room
the past few weeks doing coke...
i said i had no idea..he was surprised i didn't notice...
not that i know this man but to say hello in the hall
he's an old rock /jazz drummer
he stays up late but then so do i...

& i thought what's the difference in a way
i have also been sequestering my self in a room
immersed in me & my life from beginning to end
top to bottom...reexamining the facts as i see them...
how odd i have been so consumed in the same way as this man
with my own little drama that i've put the world on hold
'til i'm done...recording my navel gazing...

it occurs to me how odd
what a weird coincidence
we're both responding to the same vibe
to use this time to focus
with focused blindness
our full attention on the chosen task...
ok so who influenced who...

i know the universe loves me
& is taking very good care of me
the reason i wrote that line about the true path
is that focusing on & executing the completion of this project
has been where the light is...

but then i suppose the coke addict
would say the same about getting & doing more coke...

even though i've described this process
to whomever would listen as
feeling like performing abdominal surgery on yourself
without benefit of anesthesia
your hands all up in there covered in you
as you reach around groping up in there
trying to put your bloody finger on it
grasp at it & finally & definitively grasp it
...bring it out into the light
for the world to see & take a good look at...
'til you get it all out...all of it...the heck out...
not done 'til you do...

i wrote to a friend that
"i am so far into this now
that the only way out
is through..."

but really i have felt in the moments
when i'm working on this
that i'm moving forward...
getting it done
& having it done is the yummy part
full of light...

make your own light ?

while everything else feels like it's
falling away
dark
yukky
or just
done...

interesting place to find oneself
wonder what comes next...

well here's another gem from the vault of davidismz
that may apply here:

"...the closer
we get
to the truth
the easier
it is
to kid
our
selves..."
?

the fact that i'm meeting the challenges
& resistance
at the end of the hall...the end of the project
may mean i'm closing in on the goal...

& deluding myself at the same time...

ahh the splendid paradox

what brilliance & genius loves to squish between the toes

ahh & here we come to it
my attachment
is
to recognition

of brilliance & genius...

i've been seeking this my whole life
through everything i've done

yet recently when i've heard people express
that recognition
i've missed it
i haven't entirely taken it in
in part because i feel i haven't yet arrived
because if i had surely
fame & fortune
wealth & prosperity
& financial independence
would follow...
& ease lest we not forget ease...

but as i go down that list
i feel in a way
i already have all that at this very moment
i am famous & fortunate
wealthy & prosperous
& financially independent
& living in the red...
not a clue where it comes from next
as usual
yet knowing
from experience
it comes from within
& the universe
would not leave me hanging
unless
there was some
good to it...

now if i was living in the black?
& had all my bases covered money wise
then ease
would be just multiplied
because i already feel like
i got the ease thing going on
any more laid back & i'll be laying on the ground
i would feel all confident & justified in my choices
instead of the netherworld & free fall
the queasiness & uneasiness
of unsure & insecure & self doubt
about how it all will work out
without an ouch somewhere in there...

as i look it appears i may be finding myself in retreat
while feeling like it's time to advance
but how to advance...?

oh then there's worry
the proof of the path is in it's fruits

"by their fruits ye shall know them"

i thought
if what i was doing was a good thing
it would be generating
light & wealth
not parking tickets, bills, & dead ends...

but the bottom line is
it feels so blessedly good to be letting die what needs to
right now...

worry is there & as worry will it is biting at my butt
but if there is one thing i know how to do
if there is one thing this life has taught me so far
it's how to live well
& worry too...

how to be a good worrier...(warrior? no worrier)

i got this one
step back
lemme at it...

recently i was told in an accusing way
that i was too self absorbed
this by someone i've known for 15 years
as one of the most self absorbed people
i've ever met
totally dedicated to her path
& consumed with her journey...

but in pondering the blessed accusation
examining it for merit
if one is to be the thing itself
the genuine article
how do you give your work your all
& not be self absorbed
how do you be the work...live the work
& not be...

from my experience
the path is not even about being loved
getting love or keeping love
but being love
enough
to complete the mission
no matter what

& the mission is life
the mission is to do what one is born to do

if that's being self absorbed
then that
would be me

life of the artist...

thank you

love
d

a thought from the field of the inner game...

“…the path with heart
the true path
is the path
beyond
fear…”

?

...jus'a lil' sompin somthin'...?

“…last time I was back home I heard this story that was supposedly in the Cape Cod Times a few weeks before I got there that summer…

way down Cape… they found the footprints of an old woman leading down to the water from her cane she’d left standing…decidedly stuck in the sand…of the National Seashore…

the picture of an old soul finished here in this body…swimming out past the break…swimming for the deep…swimming passed the past…swimming for the old body to give out…swimming to choose the day & the hour rather than wait for death…to go meet it…tempt it…toy with it…dare it…to cheat death of the satisfaction of taking away something precious one might not be ready to part with…while others right now may or may not be clinging onto…grasping onto any thin hope to prolong life…to stave off the inevitable visit of ones end…bargaining with god…promising in fear…fingernail clawing for any shred of life kicking & screaming for more life more light more breath…

…to swim out to sea rather than remain an old woman in America...

...to swim out through the cold chill waters ‘til the numbness comes over your skull & your heart rather than remain an old woman on earth just after the turn of the Millennium…”