AS I WAS STANDING NAKED & ALONE
IN THE UNKEPT
POOL

THAT HAD TAKEN ME SO LONG TO INCH INTO
BECAUSE OF THE TENSE, CHILLING COLD...

LOOKING DOWN IN THE WATER
I SEE THE SHADOWS OF ALL THE LEAVES FLOATING ON THE SURFACE
AS RAINBOWS
SPECTRUM SHAPES SHIMMERING
ON THE CONCRETE BOTTOM...

I LOOKED UP AT THE SUN
STANDING IN ITS LIGHT & WARMTH...
TAKING IT IN...BREATHING IT IN...

THE SUNLIGHT
BEAMING
THROUGH COB WEBS GLISTENING
ON A HIGH TREE BRANCH

LISTENING TO THE HIGHWAY
JUST OVER THE FENCE
SOUNDING LIKE
THE OCEAN WAVES BREAKING
OR RIVER RAPIDS SLUICING
THROUGH THE ECHOING CANYON OF SOULS...

...A MOMENT OF WEALTH

TODAY IS: " #267. WEALTH...?" IN MY ORACLE
(THE SACRED GEOMETRY PAINTINGS DAILY ORACLE...
365 CARDS, BOOK, PERPETUAL CALENDAR, MEDITATION KIT, DVD, COLORING BOOK...MY DE FACTO SUMMER PROJECT;
& NOW IMMERSED IN THE FALL PROJECT: THE 2009 TO 2012 MASTER ALMANAC )

SO WHILE I WAS STANDING THERE IN THE POOL
I REALIZED THAT THE TITLES OF THE IMAGES OF MY ORACLE
ARE REALLY JUST
THE DAILY MEDITATION...

AS I WAS STANDING THERE IN THE POOL
I REALIZED THAT THE MEDITATION IS REALIZING MY TRUE WEALTH...
TODAY ...

I REALIZED MY TRUE WEALTH
IS GENIUS...
REVELING IN
& ENJOYING
PURE
GENIUS...
THE GENIUS THE UNIVERSE SEEKS TO SHARE WITH US
REVEAL TO US AT EVERY MOMENT
I HAVE BEEN BLESSED TO HAVE WITNESSED THIS ON MANY AN OCCASION...
ENJOYING THE MINUTIAE OF LIFE
JUST BEING HERE ON EARTH...
STANDING IN A VERY COLD POOL OF WATER
NEXT TO A FREEWAY
ON A VERY HOT DAY
IN THE SAN FERNANDO VALLEY
WATCHING THE SUNLIGHT RADIATING
FILTERING THROUGH THE TREES
CATCHING THE WEB
BILLOWING
BY A BREEZE
TO INDICATE & ACCENTUATE
THE INTRICACY
OF LIFE
& DEATH
ON EARTH...
FRAGILE
& PRECIOUS....
SO MISSABLE
AS WE MARCH ABOUT OUR OWN LITTLE WORLDS
TO DO OUR DO ...

ONE OF THE LESSONS OF THE DAY WOULD BE:

"...WEALTH IS ONLY WEALTH
WHEN TRULY & GENUINELY APPRECIATED BY US IN OUR CHOSEN MOMENTS
& IS ALWAYS BEST APPRECIATED WHEN SHARED... "


ABOUT THE REST OF IT
PERSONAL PROGRESS & RESULTS OF THE FEAR BURNING EXERCISE:

I AM COMING TO TERMS WITH THE FACT THAT MY OWN PERCEPTION OF MY SELF UP UNTIL NOW...
WAS AS A PERSON THAT WAS NOT VERY GOOD AT MANIFESTING...

BUT

I AM NOW REALIZING THAT I AM
& HAVE ALWAYS BEEN VERY GOOD AT MANIFESTING

THE PHRASE THAT CAME TO ME AT BURNING MAN AS I WALKED ALONE THROUGH THE CROWD AROUND THE MAN THE NIGHT OF THE BURN WAS:
"I AM AN INSTRUMENT OF DIVINE MANIFESTATION...
I AM A MANIFESTER OF DIVINE WILL...
I AM AN INSTRUMENT OF DIVINE WILL..."
I FIRST REPEATED THIS AS NEARLY A QUESTION OF MYSELF & THE UNIVERSE
BUT THE MORE I WALKED & TURNED IT OVER IN MY AWARENESS I SAW THINGS FALL AWAY...

I REALIZED I HAD NOT BEEN OPEN TO ACCEPTING RESPONSIBILITY
FOR WHAT MANIFESTS IN MY LIFE...
PREFERING TO LEAVE IT UP TO THE UNIVERSE
BUT AT SOME POINT
ONE WHO CONSIDERS THEMSELVES ON THE PATH
MUST SHOULDER THE BURDEN OF WHAT THEY CAN BEAR...
I THINK THEY CALL THIS MATURITY
IN THE SPIRITUAL SENSE...
ACKNOWLEDGING THAT I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT DOES & DOESN'T HAPPENS IN MY LIFE...

MAKING IT TO BURNING MAN ON MY BIRTHDAY WAS PROOF TO MYSELF OF MY ABILITY TO MANIFEST A TICKET, GAS, & FOOD...
LAST WEEK I HAD TO MANIFEST NEARLY $1000 FOR VARIOUS BILLS
& IT HAPPENED...
THIS PROVIDED ME WITH A CHANGE OF MIND FROM STRESS
TO PEACE OF MIND THAT I HAVE BEEN FULLY OBSERVING SINCE...
I AM NOW ENVISIONING...
SEEING WHAT ELSE NEEDS FIXING IN MY LIFE
IT'S A SHORT BUT CRUCIAL LIST...

AT THE MOMENT:
ISSUES OF HOUSING
LOVE LIFE PARTNERSHIPS
& PERSONAL FINANCIAL WEALTH
CREATING THE EXHIBITION VEHICLE FOR THE WORK

AS FAR AS THE HOUSING
I CHOOSE
A BIG LIVE-IN STUDIO/GALLERY SPACE ON THE BEACH...
HERE IN VENICE WOULD BE GREAT
UNLESS I FIND SOMEPLACE BETTER...
I CAN SHOW, STORE, CREATE, & PROCESS THE WORK INTO PERMANENT EXHIBITION FORMAT:
THINKING OF SANDWICHING THE 1,400 CANVASES IN GLASS OR PLEXI
TO BE SUSPENDED FROM THE CEILING IN A LABYRINTH PATTERN PEOPLE CAN WALK THROUGH...
IN BOTH THE TRAVELING EXHIBITION & THE PERMANENT EXHIBITION SPACE...
THAT I ENVISION IN A SERIES OF DOME STRUCTURES ARRANGED IN THE SEED OF LIFE PATTERN...
I PUT THE DESIGN PLANS FOR ALL THIS IN MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY LAST SPRING...
THIS LIVE-IN STUDIO I HAVE ENVISIONED SINCE I STARTED CREATING 30 YEARS AGO...

WHAT IS DIFFERENT IS
SEEING & FEELING IT HAPPENING
& EXERCISING THE WILLINGNESS TO ACCEPT BEING DESERVING
NO RESISTANCE TO RECEIVING
BECAUSE I'M ACCEPTING THE RESPONSIBILITY OF CREATING & MANIFESTING THIS
FOR THE GOOD OF ALL INCLUDING MYSELF

IF THERE WAS A I PLACE I GOT STOPPED IN THE THE EXERCISE
IT WAS THAT
WORTHINESS...
ASKING THE UNIVERSE FOR SOMETHING WITH A TRUE SENSE OF WORTHINESS
A HEALTHY SENSE OF TRULY DESERVING WHAT I ASK FOR...

ALSO
THE LOVE LIFE PARTNERSHIPS PROCESS
HAS BEEN VERY DISAPPOINTING
& DOWN RIGHT FRUSTRATING
I'VE HAD SEVERAL SITUATIONS RECENTLY OF INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE THAT
ARE REALLY INTO STRUGGLING FIRST BEFORE JUST ENJOYING...
& I'M OVER THAT
OTHER SITUATIONS HAVE BEEN A QUICK GLIMPSE OR TOUCH...A LOOK... A PROMISE...OR A MAYBE...
WILLING & INTERESTING PEOPLE WHO ARE A LONG WAY AWAY,
AT A PHYSICAL DISTANCE, OR GOING IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION, OR ON A DIFFERENT PAGE...
A CARROT DANGLING FROM THE END OF THE STICK
SPURRING ME ON...
THE RESULT BEING THE SAME
NOT THERE YET
BEING BY MYSELF...
WHILE I LOVE& ENJOY MY OWN TIME & COMPANY
I WOULD LOVE TO BE WITH THE RIGHT PERSON IN A HEALTHY WAY
INSTEAD OF QUESTING HER...LONGING FOR HER...BEING SEPARATED FROM HER...

THE RIGHT PERSON IS SOMEONE I AM GENUINELY EXCITED TO BE WITH
A NATURAL JOYOUS CONTENTMENT...
NOT LOOKING OVER HER SHOULDER OR BEYOND HER FOR THE NEXT COOKIE
WISHING FOR MORE OF THE HUNT
BECAUSE I FEEL UNMATCHED...
& YES I HAVE SEEN MYSELF ATTACHED TO THE HUNT
I'VE WOKEN UP TO GLIMPSES OF MYSELF AS A RELUCTANT BUT DEVOUT BACHELOR...DIDN'T MEAN FOR THAT TO HAPPEN...

I ENVISION A POWER COUPLE
THAT CAN CREATE TOGETHER
& INSPIRE PEOPLE
WITH OUR LOVE FOR ONE ANOTHER...
JUST BY SHOWING UP & BEING TOGETHER...
I ENVISION LOVING SOMEONE SO MUCH
& THEY ME
THAT WE CAN CHANGE THE WORLD AROUND US
WITH THE POWER OF OUR INTENSITY...
THAT'S THE LOVE WORK I FEEL I CAME HERE TO DO...
TO DISCOVER
& EXPLORE THAT DEPTH OF FEELING
WITH HER WITH GLEE...
& ALL THESE WORDS I KNOW ARE NOTHING COMPARED TO WHAT IT IS I AM TRYING TO DESCRIBE...

SO WHY HAS THIS NOT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE SO FAR?
WHY HAVE I NOT MANIFESTED THIS UP TO NOW?
WELL IT'S NOT FROM LACK OF FOCUS, EFFORT, DESIRE, & A STRONG SENSE OF PURPOSE & DIRECTION...& PATIENCE...
I'M GONNA MEDITATE ON THIS ONE
BUT NOT HAVE IT STOP THE MANIFESTATION PROCESS...

ENOUGH FOR NOW
LOVING YOU
D