Bit's of Me

Well isn't this nice

(Dragonfly) — Tue, 05 Jan 2010 07:57:18 GMT

Well then path i have taken is a lone loving one. I wonder how do you become a wonderful step parent?? especially to some messed up kid's?? I have had some messed up foster children and that worked out just fine. but when you have 2 kids that have had an exceptionally messed up life and are not looking for help ( but need it on an very big level ) how do you help? they are ungrateful of everything and anything that they want or choose to want. Sigh... I have never ha to deal with anything like this be for so i am at a very big loss. I know that there life has been incredibility hard but i do want to make them taker responsibility as adults.. I dont' want them to grow up thinking that whatever they want will happen ... it's just setting them, up for some very big disappointment in the future. Please dont' get me wrong i do love then as if they were me own. i just am worried that they will never become much of anything in this world and that what they want out of life will become .. why not me ? At this stage in my life i know that well... that jjust wont happen . I want these kids to become responsibly adults. and to care what happens to other people. sigh.... what am i to do ??? I am a smart woman and at the moment i am at a loss as to what to do... So i am asking for your help in this matter. love and hugs to all

Life's been busy, odd, messed up and confuddled!!

(Dragonfly) — Thu, 18 Dec 2008 17:11:10 GMT

Hello all, I know it's been awhile. Life's been busy, odd, messed up and confuddled!! I am not here to complain.. I'm here to well tell a story of interesting circumstances. I have been searching for sometime for what I never knew. I kept traveling around our great continent Looking and looking, I always felt like I was missing something. I think and hope that I have found it. I have been looking on the computer for my High school sweetheart for years, I even thought he was gone to the other sideL but he wasn’t this summer I finally found him and well the sparks took off. You see there’s a story behind why I was looking for him. When I was in high school my parents in their great wisdom moved me to a remote location without even telling me. Sigh I know it was long ago but still upsets me and affects my life to this day. We have been talking a lot on the computer and phone it was wonderful to hear that he was well and good. The odd part is well it feels like time has stood still for both of us. (Like we are still 15 years old. It’s a surreal feeling). We are 20 years older than the last time we met. I feel so …… at peace now. Like I no longer have to look for something that is out there? I also have no want to travel any longer. I want to stay in one place and get comfortable and enjoy the trip of life now. No longer wanting to see where the road will take me. I can’t say that I have ever felt this way before. I would settle for a few months and then be off. That was true even in relationships with everyone I either dated or met. It defiantly was a tiring way to live. I know that this blog will hurt some, but I just wanted to let the ones who count that I finally found what I had been searching for. It’s taken me 20 years to do. I am at peace now. And happier for it and at peace, I thank all for joining me on my path and walking with me for a while. You made great and very interesting company. Hugs and love to all. Natalie

I'm Sorry :S

(Dragonfly) — Thu, 06 Mar 2008 02:36:22 GMT

Oh I, Had a lot to say , Was thinking, I might find my way. I miss you and things weren’t the same , Cuz every thing inside, Never it comes out right. And when I see you cry, Makes me want to die. I’m sorry, I’m bad. I’m sorry about all the things I said to you, And you know, I can’t take them back, I love all your cares, I love all your sounds. And baby the way you make my would go round. I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

Maybe you could....

(Dragonfly) — Tue, 12 Feb 2008 03:37:32 GMT

Walk with me for a while? We could talk, Or just walk ..

Hey

(Dragonfly) — Thu, 17 Jan 2008 01:45:35 GMT

I know I have not kept in touch with too many people from B.C. As we all know sometimes life has a way of getting stupid busy and we are just along for the ride... Man what a ride i'm on. Everything is going great and wow i just can't belive how well things are going for me at this moment...:) I have a job I love I have my kids close and friends and family are coming together nicely .. That alone is about time. Just thought I would drop aline and let you all know . Everthing is going great for me. Hugs and Love to all Natalie

A Bird in the hand...

(Dragonfly) — Fri, 30 Nov 2007 12:13:28 GMT

An interesting thing happend to me on my way to Montreal. A friend and I were driving to Montreal and on our way we were stopping at various places,, just to see what was there. At this one stop we seen a bird checking us out, My friend went to take it's picture and it was gone. He looks up from the camera and there it is sitting on my hand. Then he takes it's picture and the bird poses for it ... lol That in it's self made the trip worth while. Mother nature at it's finest .

Sometimes

(Dragonfly) — Fri, 02 Nov 2007 00:41:46 GMT

I thought I should share this. This is an email from my Dear Friend Joseph. What is a friend? A friend is Natalie! Natalie's heart sings her own songs. The happiness in your heart shines like the stars in the sky on a cold night. My heart warms with joy in her presence. I always smile and feel buterflies stirring in the pit of my stomach. She will always be my best friend until we meet again. And then she will sing another song that will bring excitement to my heart. Love and hugs my friend........

Alive and well

(Dragonfly) — Sun, 14 Oct 2007 19:52:29 GMT

Hey there, I'm alive and well. Hanging out with old friends and playin catch up lol. It's been a long and twisting road. But those are the one's that are the most interesting to say the least. I live in Toronto now and wow running into friends from high school, man that makes ya feel really old. Happy Fall Be well and happy to all Natalie

Meh!!!

(Dragonfly) — Tue, 05 Dec 2006 05:07:08 GMT

Have you ever felt...

(Dragonfly) — Mon, 23 Oct 2006 00:33:35 GMT

Have you ever felt like you had too much time on your hands and did not know what to do with yourself? All of a sudden you just have way too much time on your hands and don't know what to do with them? Then BANG! You are so busy that you don't even have time to think.and Everybody wants you to be there and Damn you need three of yourselves just to get through the day?? I guess it's just a cycle.. But at the moment ... Could you please stop the world I wanna get off..

Hmm Last weekend

(Dragonfly) — Sat, 14 Oct 2006 08:21:47 GMT

Last weekend I went to Vancouver, And well lets just say It felt like I never left at all. I had a wonderful time and seen some people that I had not seen in quite awhile. Yaaaay It's was very nice to see everyone at Club 23. Had a blast by the by all that fun fur was just ,,,, wild I also met a few People and Man they were great. I would like to go back to visit again, Soon maybe But what is on my mind right now is Friday the 13th, Am I the only person that has the best time on that day?? I just can't be it's just not possible or so I think anyway..... Today I forgot my lunch at home and well it's was not looking good at all for me.... But someone at work gave me a gift cert for lunch at a really nice place ( somewhere i would not normally go) And WOW what great food and the people were amaizing WOW I will go back again and again. So I know It's a bit Late but maybe for the next one ..HAPPY FIRDAY THE 13th