joined on 06/02/04
last updated 10/28/06
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about me
P.S. NOTE: I have a habit of starting controversial pissing fights on discussion boards. I often guise what I have to say in offensive pungent statements. If you take offense to what I say, put it in the discussion board. However don't try and pick up a fight with me in private message. It's of no consequence there. Remember personal attacks achieve nothing more than a pissing contest. You can cuss at me call me names make derogatory remarks, but in the end you just manifest the fact that what I said got to you. What is the point in getting all pissed off in the virtual world ? Only burns your red blood cells. Don’t like what I say ? block me and move on. Save yourself some grief.
Blessed individual who has been fortunate to have a awesome supporting family ( even though I am considered Satan's spawn ) , opportunity to live/travel all over the world for my education and career. Was blessed with a geek genius indulgent brain, that was fostered into a thinking machine with the help of an excellent higher education and very eclectic exposure to life. Suit by day trouble maker by night . Life has also given me the opportunity to contribute back to the world. Helping others, giving back at least a fraction of what I take, trying to make a difference, that is my form of prayer and finding inner peace. However, Some things I do cus I believe in them and some I do for FUN. Neither black nor white .. I have my own shade of gray .. what is yours? Random facts about me: I am a gypsy at heart .. my biggest fear is my life being stagnant and complacent, I absolutely adore kids, and some day I aspire to be a teacher, Post financial independence that is. However not ready to have my own, my life style is not conducive to being a dad, that is a huge responsibility. SO I get my fix working with wee ones every Sunday. If you are interested in volunteering with kids on Sundays ask me about it :).
People who constantly blame others for stuff going wrong in their life annoy me. They are weak and in denial and often hide behind excuses. Its your own life and all the time you spend cribbing about other fucking it up is the time you could have used trying to make a change for good. Nihilists, constantly negative ppl, habitual drugs addicts all bad. I heart compassionate girls who are cute and smart. I am likely to attain a higher sense of arousal when my biggest most active sexual organ is worked well .. MY BRAIN. I have a very active hence indulgent brain. I am a strong believer in self introspection . I am dyslexic. Can not spell for shit in any language I know. Insomnia is gay its always on me nuts.
She makes me a giant
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The sweet fragrance of her intoxicates me,
she curls up into me,
I am her shield, she snuggles .
Watching her sleep brings me peace
In her faith, in her love I am a giant.
Invincible, blissful and blessed.
It was a big night and I was small
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It was pouring.. the sky was angry.. I could barely see past my windshield..
my vipers were fighting hard..
The signal was red I stopped..
He must have been 3 feet tall , second one was a bit taller.. perhaps his brother or perhaps is brother...
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Conversation with the divine: Revisited
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It was very crowded, people were struggling to get close to the shrine.
sweat, pushes, pulls, aggression.
" I pushed, I struggled, I roughed my way through"
I was there and I said
Me: I am here to see you
response from the voice insid...
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Conversation with the devine
(blog entry)
It was very crowded, people were struggling to get close to the shrine.
sweat, pushes, pulls, aggression.
I was there and I said
Me: I am here to see you
response: I know everything
Me: I struggled to get close to you
response: The t...
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You are not dying, you are hurting, but you will die, before you live again
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Hope is a wonderful thing but some times it is also synonymous with denial. For me particularly this happens when I face drastic changes in my life, changes that are painful to accept. So painful that it makes me blind, where I refuse to see how ...
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The sweet fragrance of her intoxicates me,
she curls up into me,
I am her shield, she snuggles .
Watching her sleep brings me peace
In her faith, in her love I am a giant.
Invincible, blissful and blessed.
Fri, August 3, 2007 - 6:12 PM
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It was pouring.. the sky was angry.. I could barely see past my windshield..
my vipers were fighting hard..
The signal was red I stopped..
He must have been 3 feet tall , second one was a bit taller.. perhaps his brother or perhaps is brother in misery..
They came to my window,I rolled down.. I looked upon them..
dejection, remorse,guilt ,pity. A slew of emotions.
I reached to my wallet pulled out some money and offered it to him.
He offered me flowers in return, I said no, keep t...
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Fri, July 27, 2007 - 2:09 PM
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It was very crowded, people were struggling to get close to the shrine.
sweat, pushes, pulls, aggression.
" I pushed, I struggled, I roughed my way through"
I was there and I said
Me: I am here to see you
response from the voice inside of me the voice of my conscience " the divine":
I know everything. I can hear you just as well from your house as I can hear you here.
Me: I struggled to get close to you
response from the voice inside of me the voice of my conscience " t...
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Fri, July 27, 2007 - 1:54 PM
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It was very crowded, people were struggling to get close to the shrine.
sweat, pushes, pulls, aggression.
I was there and I said
Me: I am here to see you
response: I know everything
Me: I struggled to get close to you
response: The toes you stepped on along the way are bleeding
Me: I did it to impress you
response: Why ?
Fri, July 27, 2007 - 2:17 AM
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Hope is a wonderful thing but some times it is also synonymous with denial. For me particularly this happens when I face drastic changes in my life, changes that are painful to accept. So painful that it makes me blind, where I refuse to see how things really are and hope that they will turn otherwise. The reason in me knows that it is a lie, but I try none the less to hold on. I chose to elongate my own suffering, making my self vulnerable, fragile, only to have life kill me little by litt...
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Sun, October 29, 2006 - 8:55 AM
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