how hard is it to find a cute guy that doesn't do drugs, drink or smoke??


oh ya
and....

has a recovery program,
actually emtionally available (even just sometimes),
humble, kind, caring,
can actually hold a reputable job,
knows how to court a lady,
can take constructive critism,
can take a joke,
educated a plus,
likes to travel and do things on a whim,
has his own life yet enjoys time together,
can cuddle, without it going further <--key),
oh and of course he knows w... read more

i feel like i am in constant bliss yet constant pain when i invole myself with another. it seems virtually impossible it distance myself enough not to long for more, and at the same time i'm afraid i have difficultlies opening up enough for the other to feel as if i'm not hiding. really i'm not sure if i'm meant to do this love thing, yet i'm happy i try.

i've learned today it takes longer to procrastinate then it does to just get stuff done, kinda silly maybe but a break though none the less.

looking forward....