Studies of Perception

Death..my request

Shari — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 00:08:16 GMT

when i die please celebrate. My skull goes to Homer. the rest of my bones can be taken for anyone who wants or needs them. my flesh may be eaten and my blood dranken warm if i die soon please light me on fire and dance on my grave (or scatter my ashes to the realms) I love you! shari

Please help me, there's a huge spider in my room....

Shari — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 09:32:14 GMT

I ask for knowledge on spiders... I share my habitat with many spiders... I do not bother them they do not bother me. In fact, we have respect for each other. And i often defend, protect and free them from danger. The other night, I sat down on my bed and right beside me crawled up a huge spider that scared the living bejesus out of me.. turantula-status... and i am afraid it is poisonous, and that it may be a brown recluse or hobo spider? if so, it is chillin' under my bed right now, i am praying that it does not lay eggs. by now it could be anywhere, in a pile of clothes, but i believe it is under my bed. I am afraid to relax in my room, sit down, and lay in my bed and even moreso to go to sleep tonight!! Does anyone have any advice? (besides setting off a bug bomb in my room.... poisoning myself is not an option). : ) thank you ever so much!! have a wonderful day evening night and morning! -Shari

discovery

Shari — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 00:49:23 GMT

SHARI Don't worry About a thing.... because every little thing is gonna be all right. I forever love you. Be not sad for me. For i am greatful and happy forever. this is a beautiful dance of spirit. I am infinite as the universe!` with my love to all of the creatures of the Earth. I shall carry this with me now and always. Forever will I love you. spirit I adore you and I lay my life before you. blessed be!!!! shari!!!

A New Breath of Life

Shari — Sat, 03 May 2008 02:48:35 GMT

I really feel like things have been coming together. Suddenly it's all making sense... These last few days have been wonderful... and the time is coming... a vision so long ago... of waves of energy.... True Love being proven between lovers and best friends everything is part of a bigger picture a bittersweet symphony I know that everything will work out in the end. It is Beginning.... Blessed Be Amen Salami

HAPPY BELTANE!

Shari — Fri, 02 May 2008 02:03:37 GMT

I just want to let you all know I love you!!! BLESSED BE!!!

BELTANE

Shari — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 00:36:56 GMT

Beltane Beltane is the Sabbatt that celebrates fertility and the union of the God and the Goddess. It occurs on May 1st and at this time life. This can be seen in the mating of animals and the growing of seeds in the fields. Great fires are lit honoring the fertility God and some even leap the fires to show the energy of the season. A Maypole is erected and bright ribbons are hung wrapped around it in a Maypole dance. The Maypole, a phallic symbol, represents the masculine or the God. The soft colored ribbons are the feminine or the Goddess; this symbolizes the union of the two. This is the time to fertilize your dreams with action. Beltane marks a time of fertility, vitality, sexuality, passion, and growth. WHAT IS EVERYONE DOING FOR BELTANE??? BLESSED BE!!!

Astrology April 21st-27th

Shari — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 16:35:23 GMT

Astrology 21st-27th: Incomplete (written by Baron Samadhi Von Coppockalypse) Vol. 123: Incomplete After a stressful Full Moon last Sunday, the week plunges into a whirl of activity. The incomplete energy of a Cardinal T-square pushes the pace while Mercury streaks across the sky at top speed. Right now Mercury is moving swiftly, covering over 2 degrees of the sky every day. With Mercury passing rapidly through Taurus, communications and planning unfold speedily. There is a general feeling of moving quickly to make up for lost time. Mercury will give the Taurus' pastures a cursory inspection before moving into Gemini's mental tornado in the middle of next week. Room For One More? This week sees a complicated configuration unfold- Mars opposes Jupiter for the 3rd and final time in the last year. This is unusual, as Mars usually opposes Jupiter only once every 2 years. This opposition is doubly interesting because both planets are in Signs in which they must struggle to fulfill their roles. Mars the Warrior attempts to integrate compassion and reticence into his battle plans whilst in Cancer, while Jupiter the Sage grapples with the full weight of the material world in Capricorn. This 3rd meeting between the two Planets is certainly strategic. Each has a key to offer the other. While Mars may struggle to manifest in Cancer, his work is Exalted in the hard-scrabble realism of Capricorn- where Jupiter currently resides. And while Jupiter's optimism is suppressed by the gravitas of Capricorn, the same seeds of hope are Exalted in the rich womb of Cancer. Thus each Planet, currently in its Fall, meets another, which occupies its Sign of Exaltation. All the while, Uranus looks at this opposition from Pisces, electrifying Mars and mutating Jupiter, adding to the overall charge, groundbreaking potential, and instability of this configuration. But that's not all. This important exchange is further complicated by the attendance of Venus, who looks on from Aries. Though she is not generally comfortable in Aries, Venus finds dignity in the 3rd Decanate, where the raw firepower of charm carves out its own kingdom. This week Jupiter, Mars and Venus form a pattern known to astrologers as a T-Square, whose energy is characterized as tense and incomplete. The energy of a T-Square is unstable. Its can explode into a variety of different forms, some positive, some negative The key here, represented by the Cardinal Sign missing from the would-be Grand Cross, is Libra. Diplomacy, poise, and balance are what is necessary to benefit from this configuration's unstable energy. The point here is not to repress or internalize conflicts but to deal with them in a calm and diplomatic matter. The powerful energy of this configuration may also create a maelstrom of activity. It's important that work proceed at a balanced pace. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Horoscopes: April 21st-27th Note on Horoscopes: 12 Fold horoscopes are a way to assess the general condition of the splayed rays of the zodiac. Although not without value, they are a blunt tool, and can only describe the archetypal activity in each power-zone. In order to sharpen the accuracy of the horoscopes, read your Sun Sign if you were born in the day-time, and read your Moon Sign if you were born at night. Reading the Sign in which the Ascendant is placed is also advised. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ARIES: Clashing Rocks The powerful T-Square in the skies this week has you in its crosshairs. The tension between conflicts at home and growing professional ambitions has created a volatile soup within you. Venus in Aries sets fire to this fuel. Your affections and finances get caught between these clashing rocks and the likely result is explosions. Great benefits can result if you handle this energy in a balanced manner. TAURUS: The Bulls of April The tension between the conflicts in your everyday environment and far ranging but delayed dreams heats up this week. As Venus moves into late Aries, forgotten and neglected pleasures work their way out of the dark corners of your mind and into bed with your considerations. The ultimate outcome of the intense blast of energy will likely be evident in your work environment. Oh. And Happy Birthday. You probably won't die this year. GEMINI: 0 =2 Last Sunday's Full Moon placed a strong emphasis on your work habits. This week financial issues which have been the cause of lingering consternation come into contact with a concern for other people's resources. Also factoring itself in is a new set of affections for like-minded folk. The missing piece which is the key to this particular puzzle is your life-style. CANCER: Sir Pinchy the Sensitive Cancer, you're one of those addressed most directly by this week's intense configuration. A growing but still prenatal personal power must come to terms with a potential for social expansion. New connections sparked from this friction brighten your professional sphere. The missing piece right now is likely your living space. Prepare your foundations. LEO: State of the Kingdom Address This month finds you with a solid professional focus. Your improving perspective rests its gaze on the relationship between the coming changes to your work environment and your increasingly subtle understanding of the human condition. Applying what you've learned in a balanced manner to your immediate environment is the challenge. VIRGO: Micromanagement The tense tangle of energies afoot this week casts an uncertain eye on your financial holdings. The power of like-minded peers, life-style excesses and other people's nice things all figure into the incomplete energies of the week. Continue to sort through the bullshit and you'll have a plan in a week or so. LIBRA: Stand Alone Complexities Libra, you are the one most likely caught between the crosshairs of this week's configuration. A season of direct confrontations between you and those in your life comes into configuration with a transforming professional independence and supportive foundations. You're the missing piece in everyone's program right now. Expect a busy week. SCORPIO: "I will call you Sting" The Full Moon last Sunday threw a spotlight on your financial relationships with other people. This week the conflict between your long range goals and local opportunities heats up. A certain joy in work comes from following your long term objectives, but your real responsibilities lie right in front of you. SAGITTARIUS: The Horse Assed Sunday's Full Moon placed a powerful emphasis on your work and finances. This week material opportunities face off with lingering conflicts. As stated last week, your ability to cut short the negative exchanges with people directly affects how much your good times are preserved from the ravenous drama-bear. Interesting possibilities mingled with instability hover around groups of like-minded individuals. CAPRICORN: Can-Eater Capricorn, you're one of those addressed most directly by this week's intense configuration. The tension between your improving attitude towards growth and lingering conflicts with others comes to a head with a new found affection for your current position in attendance. The resulting energy fires directly towards your professional sphere. AQUARIUS: The Water Boy The Full Moon last Sunday kicked off an intense month for you, both emotionally and professionally. This week's configuration will reverberate through your web of interlocked financial and emotional concerns. Ongoing issues with work intersect with a deepening understanding of what has been holding you back. PISCES: Chummy The Full Moon on Sunday stressed the tension between your long term goals and the mundane details on your mind. This week the conundrum concerning you is creatively expressing the insights that have grown out of the conflicts of the last 8 months to like-minded people. An economic motive is the likely impetus, and the likely outcome is a series of small personal transformations. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

May your food be your medicine and your medicine be your food

Shari — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 00:46:39 GMT

What have you found to be a good thing to think today?

oh ya baby

Shari — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 04:57:12 GMT

im sofa king cool I mean hell ya I am so fucking cool I just filed my taxes online for freeeee!!! And it was so eeezeeee!!! I am getting 27 dollars from the whole ordeal oh ya i rock I aspire to becme a naturopathic doctor, to do that i must go to school to do that i fill out my financial aid, to do that i file my 2007 taxes. if anyone works as a spider for the US Government or the Us Internal REVENUE service, u mofo.s should give me a choklit ice cream cone yo

Loneliness

Shari — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 02:09:15 GMT

Blessed Be. Shari

Astrology March 10-16 2008

Shari — Fri, 14 Mar 2008 01:32:59 GMT

March 12, 2008 - Wednesday Astrology 10th-16th: La Sirene’s Song (By The Baron) The moon slowly gains weight and light as the lunar month creeps into being this week. This growing spotlight ahines on one particularly interesting phenomenon: the entrance of both Mercury and Venus, who have been traveling in lockstep since last week, into the sign of Pisces. The paired planets have only ventured through the terrain of Aquarius thus far. Mercury is certainly more at home in the complex calculations that navigation through Aquarius requires. This will change as the two planets enter Pisces, Venus on Wednesday, Mercury's day and Mercury on Friday, Venus' day. Whereas Aquarius requires an abstract ability to negotiate its conundrums, Pisces' deeper oceans are fields best navigated by the sonar of feeling. Here Venus takes precedence, and must lead a murky Mercury into and through the depths. In the classical table of dignities, Venus is thought to produce her best results in Pisces. It is her "Exaltation." Mercury, on the other hand, is thought by traditional astrologers to produce the poorest results in Pisces. It is his "Fall." In Pisces, Venus becomes the Siren, the seductive creature who, in Greek myth, beckoned men from the surface to the depths with her irresistible song. The song was irresistible because it spoke not to the intellect, but to the heart. Inside everyone is buried the wish to return to the primordial sea from which we sprang. The infinite emotional depths represented by the ocean seduces us through the Siren's voice, and we follow. The physics of the undersea realm are different. We float and move in 3 dimensions. Electrical impulses conduct themselves easily across distances while words are lost to the ears. Many sea animals "hear" through the sensitivity of their skin to vibrations. Feeling is heightened, and essential to navigation, while the mouth and the ear become useless, vestigial. Venus in Pisces' siren song resembles neurolinguistic programming, hypnosis. It is not what is said, but how. The induction into these hidden waters will bring us into conflict with coral reefs, the submerged emotional structures so easy to forget from the surface. And among those reefs swim sharks, ancient and hungry, Mars' favorite fish. In this watry emotional underworld, we will re-encounter Mars in Cancer as Venus moves into geometrical configuration with the planet late in the week. Here the deep potential for bliss is challenged by the ancient struggle to survive whose case the sharks present in clear form. A balance between luxurious depths, potentially destructive reefs and dangerous sharks must be found. And here Mercury, the intellect and word, must tag mutely behind Venus. As explorations deepen, so must explanations. In Pisces, Mercury is better suited to alternative means of communication. Complex situations are voiced by a simple poem, or are conveyed by an inflection in tone. Miscommunications and circular logic tend to grow, like barnacles, on communications as Mercury makes way through Pisces. La Sirene's song is sweet and deep, but is not the ideal medium for balancing checkbooks or giving a scholarly exegesis. In some of its effects, it is akin to a Mercury retrograde. Nonetheless, Mercury and Venus, traveling together through Pisces will produce fine effects for many people. It's a good time to try your hand at art, sorcery , or both. Horoscopes: 10th-16th Note on Horoscopes: 12 Fold horoscopes are a way to assess the general condition of the splayed rays of the zodiac. Although not without value, they are a blunt tool, and can only describe the archetypal activity in each power-zone. In order to sharpen the accuracy of the horoscopes, read your Sun Sign if you were born in the day-time, and read your Moon Sign if you were born at night. Reading the Sign in which the Ascendant is placed is also advised. (this was posted by my favorite astrologer:) ABYSSAL EPISTLES The Astrology of Baron Samadhi von Coppockalypse, Ph.D TO VIEW YOUR PERSONAL HOROSCOPES, HERE IS THE BARON's personal page, and you can read the latest news..... <a href=> http://www.myspace.com/baronsamadhi Disclaimer: If you do not take every word of these horoscopes with the utmost faith, you will die. Statistics bear this out. Simply scan the newspapers. You will find that an overwhelming majority of the people that die each week DID NOT read the Baron's horoscopes.

New Moon in Pisces- March 2008

Shari — Tue, 04 Mar 2008 23:20:58 GMT

New Moon in Pisces Friday, March 7, 2008 9:14am PST 17º pcs 31 This year, the Pisces New Moon features a celestial contest to determine which jam-packed constellation will be most influential: transcendent, blissful Sun/Moon/Uranus in Pisces or Venus/Neptune/Mercury/Chiron/North Node in “wake up or else” Aquarius. Add the hard-nosed intensity of Pluto and Jupiter in “show me reality” Capricorn, and the compassionate action of Mars in Cancer, and we’ve got ourselves a New Moon ripe for direct revelation of these most basic, yet paradoxically intertwined truths: We are nothing and everything; full and empty. All dualistic existence is interconnected and sourced in that which abides beyond duality. We can actively awaken to this realization of essential connectedness through the relinquishment of hatred, fear, violence, and greed. This and each successive moment presents an opportunity to choose love and peace. Can you feel the waves of peace building all around us? People are actually serious about accepting nothing less than peace; nothing less than radical change. Aquarius and Pisces are combining to foster unconditional love, total compassion, and absolute oneness. It is time to break down the walls of separation; walls built with hatred, suspicion, and ignorance. Humans are duty-bound by our awareness of suffering. It is time to lift the Neptunian/Piscean veil of denial from our eyes and see how we are all responsible for the continued violence, hatred and suffering in this world. This is the New Moon to practice compassion and selflessness by radiating peace and calm through prayer and meditation. Pisces acknowledges our essential connectedness and realizes it through the practice of unconditional love and unwavering compassion. To help you practice, feel free to download my metta (lovingkindness) meditation recordings. Here is the link: www.lisadalemiller.com/metta.htm So many times clients ask astrology or tarot to reveal their life path; their true reason for being here. The answer is really the same for us all. We are all here to learn to love unconditionally, and to work for the collective enlightenment of all sentient beings, no matter how hard it may be or how long it may take. The Piscean journey is a homeward bound one; an evolutionary ending of sorts. Ultimately, Pisceans are embodied in order to embrace the letting go of self-identification through learning to love unconditionally. Those who can commit their lives to working for the upliftment of all other souls are our everyday Bodhisattvas. Pisces is Bodhisattva consciousness embodied in self-sacrifice. Pisces’ bottom line is to learn to love unconditionally, and to work for the collective enlightenment of all sentient beings; no matter how hard it may be or how long it may take. This is the New Moon to commit to growing up and out of selfishness and hatred. Transcendence comes in many forms, but the first step is accepting personal responsibility for the condition of your life and the lives of all other sentient beings. This is the New Moon to look at what you cling to. We come here with nothing and we leave with nothing. Why then do we hold so tight to things that will not last? What can you give away? What can you share? The world needs your generosity, your caring, your compassion, and your love. Since Pisces rules direct experience of transcendence, this is a great New Moon to commit to a daily meditation practice. Think of it as a gift to set aside time each day to meditate and find the source of inner peace that resides within. This is the New Moon for spiritual awakening! On this New Moon, use some of your ritual time to consider what destructive thoughts, emotions, and actions can be released. Pisces is the sign of endings: of letting go for good. Take a hard look at whatever pain you are holding on to; especially if it involves addiction of any kind. Neptune and Pisces rule confusion, denial, addiction, codependence and an inability to hold good emotional boundaries. This is the New Moon to commit to sobriety. Drugs and alcohol are an easy, but ultimately destructive, veil between you and reality. There is no easy way out of fear and problems. Having the courage to face difficult issues and find solutions can be done, but only with a clear mind. Use the following two weeks as the Moon waxes to full to seek out self-help groups like AA, NA, Smart Revcovery or AL-A-NON/AL-A-TEEN/CODA for families of addicts. This goes for all addictions including food, abuse, overwork, and gambling. Every emotion you have is sourced in your mind and mediated primarily through the production of neurotransmitters and enzymes in the brain. Thankfully, the human body is wired so we feel our emotions in the heart. But actually the quality of what we feel rests solely with how the brain’s synaptic and neuronal pathways are wired. The good news is the brain is plastic. So mindfully attending to the quality of our thoughts, feelings and interactions activates the medial pre-frontal cortex—the seat of compassion, empathy, morality, calm, and depth of intention—thereby rewiring the brain. Therefore, this is the New Moon to look within and take care of your anger. If we waste our lives holding onto anger, resentment, and hatred, we will continue to create a world that reflects our own inner violence. The hatred and anger in our hearts is helping to feed the violence all over the world. So what can we do to stop the senseless killing we see all around us? We can all begin by acknowledging our anger and pain, taking it into our arms like a baby, wrapping it in compassion and letting love work its healing magic. Know that none of us are defined solely by our pain. Find the true self in the compassionate heart and create the conditions for peace to grow within and without. Then look outside of yourself to your partner, your parents, your children, your friends, your co-workers, your supposed enemies. Look at their pain; acknowledge your part in causing them to suffer. Wrap them up like a baby with your compassion, allowing love to work its healing magic. Go to them; tell them how sorry you are. Realize that what is done to one is done to all, and create the conditions for peace to grow all around you. Commit to changing your behavior. When you are faced with anger, acknowledge your suffering, but don’t act upon it. Look within and breathe, let your breath work its magic upon your anger, giving you time to form an appropriate response. When you do something that makes someone else angry, acknowledge your actions, apologize as quickly as possible, and make room to listen to the other person express how much they suffer. This is the language of selflessness. Give up the label of victim and embrace your own part in continued violence. It is the first step to becoming a peacemaker. If you fearlessly open your heart and let compassion be your guide, you will automatically become an active peacemaker. Love is the language of selflessness. If each of us would practice this language daily, violence would surely end. With Venus/Neptune/Mercury/Chiron/North Node in Aquarius we each need to place ourselves on astrological high alert for disconnected behavior within and without. We must learn to mindfully practice loving, caring, and compassionate acts toward ourselves and each other. It is time to bring in the lost ones, the alienated ones and the tired ones with a hug, with a smile, and a gentle touch. This is the way of Pisces, the compassionate healer. These planets also call for a new global (Aquarian) vision of oneness based upon peaceful surrendering of egoic needs. This certainly applies to fundamentalist ideations of all stripes. Violence, grandiosity and hatred in the name of any god are a throwback to the reptilian part of the human brain that lives in fear. It is time we all say NO to the devolved Piscean illusion of god as savior and master, and YES to the evolved Piscean transcendent god within—the higher functioning pre-front lobe—that is calm, thoughtful, joyous and respectful. The New Moon in Pisces is the time to recognize that boundaries and distinctions are not real. They are the work of Maya; the great illusion of duality. Global healing and peace are not only possible, but can be a reality. What a night to enter powerful states of mind through meditation and trance, in order to heal the massive suffering on our planet. This is not some kind of magical thinking. This New Moon is our chance to begin doing at home what must be done globally. Heal your life and you will make a great contribution toward healing this world. Open your heart, let compassion be your guide and become an active peacemaker. Don’t be afraid to do the work of loosening your attachment to self-identification. Love yourself by loving others. We are all in this together, and together we can do the impossible. Be inspired to be a beacon of peace and light for the world. Dive deeply into this powerfully transcendent New Moon cycle. Blessings and much, much love to you all! ©2008 Lisa Dale Miller All rights reserved

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Shari — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 01:19:54 GMT

detachment this is so much about what has been going on lately. I agree with this, For example, it often pains me when people use the word "drama". So often things that are really important are brushed aside as "drama", and I see this happen every day in the world and amongst groups of friends, etc. there is a difference between when soemone is really sad and need a friend, for not everyone to leave them because they're "just having drama"". and really do not need others to get exasperated with them or ridicule them for their "childish drama". and then there are actually people that really do cause drama, because they are bored, or because they like to be tricksters, or beccause they have some reason for it, and then sometimes it really is just excessive. even if they are unecessarily being over-emotional, what they are experiencing is real, and it is our duties to soothe and comfort each other as we are in these bodies, and in these situations to grow and learn, and One of the biggest problems these days, is the lack of community, people becoming withdrawn, we are being divided, and this has been becoming more and more severe over the ages. What we need to do is unite, so that we may all feel the ONEness of consciousness again, no longer each of us living alone in each our own realities, but be able to all experience and be a part of the Universe-al mind, and then we will BE...Home. The Economy is on the brink of Collapsing..... this is another reason why it's important for people to come together as community, as well as being as self-sufficient as you can, growing your own food, making your own things, but also, you need family, family in friends, and family in community. we are all brothers and sisters here in this world that is our home, even the and monkeys are family, the sun and the moon, trippy flashing lights, music, etc... we were granted this great Earth to run around, play, experiment, explore, I agree with Bedouin, that people need to come together, and not detach themselves from the rest of the world around them so they may go about their own day, as this will leave them subjected. And sometimes, you walk around the world and it seems like everyone looks the same, but first of all, we are all the same. we are all spirits, humans, people. second of all, look closer, and im sure this person is absolutely fascinating and wonderful in their own way! every single one. Even if they do not practice magick or believe in God, or care about the sun or the planets or even the wars over in Iraq, this person is still MADE OF SPIRIT, they are spirit, and they are a child of the Earth, like you. I agree, that it does often times make it a lot easier (as somebody was saying it's hard being spiritual and in the middle of everyday "hustle and bustle", it is often easier to just detach and walk forward, and really fast and just block out everyone else...but I also know what it feels like to see someone really amazing who I wish to talk to, but they are walking fast and totally blocking everyone out. (I work at the mall). :)

Shari

Shari — Sat, 01 Mar 2008 00:13:58 GMT

I know that there has been some confusions as to what my name is. I was given the name Shari at birth, have adopted the name Perception years ago, and will take a new name when the time comes. (im thinking something like Quanta). I know that people say how do you say your name? well, it is Shari like Sherry. Like Cherry with a shhh like the wine sherry. like the french cheri. Some people call me ShAAAri. That's cool too. I like it. or maybe SaHARrI? like a jungle safari? lolz... And then sometimes u go to a party and nobody remembers names, I say: is okay u can call me what u want (I just hope its nice :) it's okay you can just call me, well how about you can call me by my other name Flower. :) Peace, Love, Happiness

X:)

Shari — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 00:29:47 GMT

Thanks you all! It's good to know Ur all there for me and love me. Blessed Be! Mon, Shari

My future

Shari — Thu, 10 Jan 2008 08:55:21 GMT

I have known for years now that I am to be a healer. I continue on with my future with this aspiration at heart and study of Energy. I had, after having a life-changing experience in which I jounreyed into myself and the astral my body came to a place that told me of my past lifetimes and n overall view of which I saw my lifeline of overall times, I saw I healed in my last lifetimes and I touched upon it and saw the last moments of life, having lived a full life, I remember traveling far to the jungle and healing as a healthy elder woman...I remember the death of my love. After this, when i was about the age of fifteen, I became inquisitive and found out all of these things were real... and I tap more and more into them, in wonder and respect and love for life...trying to always be source in it's form, not misrepresented or distorted. Hermetic at times.. But I have found the way, after all these years of seeking.. Wanting to become (finally...a title!) a naturopathic healer, and to attend that school one must have graduated with at least a Bachelor's degree from medical school. However, I seeked a way in which I would thrive in sustenance of life and home on the campus, and learning of the natural ways of life, and not the ways of which I feel keeps many away from things that they do not know about the natural Earth that could help them, but they use methods like pills and systems and invasive procudures, like curing cancer with chemotherapy, injecting the body with nuclear substances to kill it off, and you at the same time, when there are so much better ways of healing, and I know in this I would strive. and I desire for it more than anything with my life in worship of Spirit and All that is Divine. I recently found a school near Seattle, which is a school dedicated to integrating n atural healthcare and science, and I could study the herbal arts, just as I wish...but first I must complete two years of general courses. I wish in this time, perhaps to apply to Peacecorps and see if there is a way I could also attend to my schooling, but then I would leave my beloved behind....and so I wonder now in these days....what is the next step on my way?

a journey recorded

Shari — Sun, 09 Dec 2007 04:25:54 GMT

I am really glad I partook of acid on this particular eve... there are often times when I think about acid (while I'm in a sober mind state) and think...what does it do? WHAT GOOD would it do me if i were to just drop a little droplet right now? how would that really help the good of all humanity? But on this eve, I feel... ....On a level beyond what one would expect it to be... feeling my sense of "how it is".... I feel so much LOVE, it is a healing, encompassing love (not really like a feeling, more a concept) I remember this feeling again... and it is seriously making me question some of the things I had held on to.. Like....free love.... How to feel about making love? Save it for the one.... but ..feel a sense of family.... missing him now.... wanting to kiss on him now... luvin u your the one for me i love you. i need to understand again... i've been forgetting the last few days... starting to forget free love... my heart growing cold in some places, forgotten and old, wantin onl to be loved...but now i know the place of home why do i always feel so alone? I really need my family for the holidays guys..... love u all!! Blessed bee perception

wow

Shari — Sun, 09 Dec 2007 03:39:54 GMT

what is this feeling I feel right now? I feel...really in tune...with the world right now...really in the NOW... ya know?

The Wanderer

Shari — Wed, 10 Oct 2007 23:12:50 GMT

A new wave has begun (my own subjective experience) The end..... journey had been long and I have been wondering if I would ever be at a good place...It has been going on for years, and then over the last week, I realized a few things: One was about transcending one person's viewpoint upon me, mattering for it was my best friend. This brought me away from all the horrible judgements she had built as her beliefs....and brought me back to myself!! After that, her beliefs had also dissipated... (that was all llingering remnents caused by ONE HARD lesson in energy, close friends, and psy-vampyres...but the same person who introduced me to the underground music and psychedelic trance) One was realizing that I should just RELAX and enjoy this time that I am young, rather than always putting pressure on myself to be responsible and to hurry and "grow up" in the way I am expected to (mostly by myself), which then released the pressure that had been there for a couple of years. I then realized WHY I had come to learn all that I had, such as being without basic human needs, etc... that if I hadn't understood what it is like to be there, I never would have understood! This brought me gratitude, and I realized that things truly ARE going to get better, not worse...and thanked Spirit for everything that I have been shown. I have especially been learning to RELAX!! (this lesson was brought about again, beginning at Contact festival, whie everyone was lying on the hill, trippin, meditating, listening to ambience in the clouds...) The next day, everything that I had been so worried about got better. And now the things I have been needing and trying to bring about...everything worked out divinely. There are a few people, that I would like to thank you and send my love out to you for being there for me, like astrally, when I really needed a big brother/sister. Like Llevin, and Brennan...you guys are great. I send you my love every day... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I was at a place where chaos had taken over (a bad thing) everything was inconsistent, sleeping on people's floors, neer knowin where I was going to be the next day, often times not having the things I needed (basic human needs)...I was sad a lot, and really overwhelmed...and punishing myself for not being up to my own expectations...and felt really low. I had my spirituality and my lessons, and Spirit. Which kept me at nirvana most of the time. I cried every night to Spirit, wonderng what I had done for my life to get here, what curses had been put upon me, if it would just keep getting worse? ------------------------------------------------------------------... But things are so wonderful now, the things I had been praying with Spirit for are coming true... I am getting to the place I have been working for years...and now I am so happy!! I am back at the place where it is like being held.....the God and Goddess gently guide you along...everything is clear... Blessed BE.... Shari

Current

Shari — Wed, 01 Aug 2007 23:56:54 GMT

journal excerpt I wrote, about 12 hours ago (in the dark late/early morning of the first of August) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I also felt the spirit of the Earth, and not individualized, with an incredible thought which made me feel the oneness of the Universe: I was thinking of the Ocean, and how it is my favorite place in all the world. It is very special to me ....and the thought which I speak of was that: If everyone feels the same way about the ocean and loves it as much as me. I feel enlightened, quite literally...my soul feels not weighed down or stagnant at this time, as I felt I had been for a long time...speaking in the time frame of the last year or longer. I feel that last year was a very "dark" and trivial time, not only for myself subjectively, but on an objective scale. painful lessons, waiting for transcendence and astral tides finally to turn to light again, so slow did it take to feel the full effects of the shift....a season late, it seems.. just as the full moon only a couple of days ago, took a few days for the full moon to be fully felt. (ps. August 27th, the day after my birthday, Mars will be closest to the Earth it has ever been, it will appear as large as the full moon the the naked eye...all of August, Mars will be really close, but the 27th will be the most.) I know not the extent to which it is portrayed only in my life, and no longer of general relativity... But I know that the healing of has been taking place, and coming to ease with the powerful understanding being gained...... and awaiting for transcendence and to reach understanding of the bigger picture and summary of all of the events which have taken place upon the path thus far (again, speaking in the time frame of the last year or a little longer.) I feel the mass consciousness: The Universe: Energy: Life on this eve I feel the shift in things...I am so very greatful, and have been awaiting this for quite some time. I feel happy, healthy, good and safe again. I would like to know what is going on in the big picture, so please tell me now.... How about you? what do you see? feel? experience? know? Blessed Be, friends and family... ~Shari of Perception

Want to Paw-nder my curtains?

Shari — Tue, 22 May 2007 03:28:20 GMT

Dear friends, I have not been able to access a computer for a long while. I would just like to say hello to all of my friends! Life has been strange, and changing...is it perpetual that we will always be changing, even transient, beings? Does this mean that we will never go to our home of awareness? If it is the true state of existence, and our very natures to always be changing? And does this mean that we are always growing? Because it often seems that as we grow, we leave other things behind... I have eliminated certain forces in my life, and ceased to betray my heart for that which is familiar. I know that certain people see the shadowed ones, and associate them with the "dark" forces; that which is the opposing force (WHATEVER THIS MAY TRULY BE...and..please don't say the devil.) Anyhow, a little daemon dancer, I feel I scared certain people who were tripping at the psychedelic dragon, and at the tea party especially...and I unintentionally, came to represent the shadowy thoughts...along with my friend who was also all in black. Strange, how NOT self-conscious I was, to look down after eating drugs to see how dark my appearance was. I brought the introduction between him and the rest of the kids, an action which I feel was misunderstood. But I wanted to say "you see?", seeking understanding. Understanding is a precious gem. Those who understand, on a deeper level....those people are rare. The other realms ov thought. Anyhow, I am sorry I again vanished beneath the radar, to the point I may or may NOT exist to the objective world. I recieved a blessing from a fellow wanderer...he played the banjo and was creature-like. His name was Camas. He was a beautiful spirit, to say the least...he told me not to feel bad for my lifestyle. That I should do it as long as I can, explore, wander, be free.... It's the first time in a long time I've not been shunned, but encouraged, for following through with my instinct...because I am a Gypsy, by blood. TRIPPY!!!

Shift of Universal Consciousness

Shari — Sat, 10 Feb 2007 07:40:31 GMT

93; A few years ago, I came to realize that I had a great purpose in this lifetime. Far greater than any lifetime before me, as it was going to be a complete shift of the mass consciousness. I had been experimenting with perception for years, and realized that in this lifetime, something very big is going to happen that will shift the entire paradigm of humanity. I also realized my power much deeper, and my affection upon the world. I have been finding a lot of sadness, as there are many people hoarding power. Not to say that they do not deserve a great wealth of respect, love and appreciation....but it is wrong to take it from others. The reason it is wrong, is because we all preach of the desire to move on and transcend that which we now know, however climbing on top of others to get to a top...is exactly what is holding us back from this shift. We need to all empower each other and strengthen each other so that we may all move "up" and be happy and successful. And quit making other people feel bad so that one's own ego- individualized self- can feel good. See the good in everyone you meet. Bring it out. Perfect Love, Trust and Freedom! And all that the Universe is, may we all merge and allow the illusion to drift away so that we are eternal and whole. .Spirit. Much love, Shari of Perception (Heaven)

To my wonderful, amazing friends

Shari — Tue, 30 Jan 2007 06:42:49 GMT

I am sorry my friends...I dissapeared....again...........I got lost in a faerie ring...lost the time...relaxed my mind.....danced and played in the sun and moon shine. They of la Fae.... tricky Miss Chief -ious creatures with their big eyes. I would like to thank thee for playing with me. Serenity given and love. I had so much hanging on my soul...and I was very bad. And you let me relax and showed me your world. Now, I have purified and my dances are light again....But this is an expression of my love. I apologize I vanish for long periods of time and pop up ...but that's just the way of the world boys and girls. And know that if you ran away for one hundred years then came back i would be like 'hey what's up? the party is just getting started yo' .