joined on 12/27/04
last updated 10/29/09
September 13, 2005
Lorelei is the coolest chick! And she's got stories, lemme tell you. Actually, just let her tell you ;) I love her frank and open attitude; she is totally refreshing in this way and it's great fun hanging out with her.
Couldn't ask for a nicer evening, even with all the mess from the bridge closure.
Started out the evening rockin' out to Rush and pulled up to the curb tonight with The Beatles. Nice!
I never get to spend enough time with Tammy so I was thrilled that she was able to join me for the closing performance of The Heidi Chronicles! It was totally worth driving over two bridges and the traffic jam. The play was awesome. The cookies were yummy!The cruise back was a breeze!
Tammy! You did loo...
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Lorelei:
Wonders why people make things more difficult & painful than they need to be.
Wonders why some people won't take responsibility for their own actions.
Wishes people could discuss things honestly without all the subterfuge!
Wonders why people feel they can't support person A and still care about person B. Why is it all or nothing, with or against?
Wishes people would make up their own minds instead of going along with whatever side their little circle is telling them th...
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Originally posted Friday, September 23, 2009
Great! Just as I was starting to heal up I took a header today that would have made Chevy Chase proud! Nothing like going flying through the air and skidding across the parking lot asphalt! Ow! My knee is huge!
Boy do my hand and face hurt! Aries Mars strikes again! Have to blame my clumsiness on something.
So much for all the stuff I needed to do this weekend.
Verve & I did manage to get out tonight after all to see a viewing of Ante...
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Originally posted Tuesday, October 20, 2009
How did my Tuesday go?
Not much sleep last night. No surprise there. Merph the marvelous snuggler made it very hard to get out of bed! She was all purry and cuddly this morning.
Dr. Appointment at NAHC. My doctor rocks, but I wish she had better news for me! My head is healing very slowly & again she reminds me how lucky I am to be alive. A little harder or a little different spot & I'd have been toast! Tip: Try your best to avoid someone...
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Originally posted Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I'm grieving the loss of my Jezebel. She survived lymphoma as a kitten and stayed healthy until this year. I was forced by circumstance to euthanize her today.
If you have an animal euthanized & can't afford to have your pet buried or cremated, they don't just dispose of the remains. They pay for a communal cremation at Pet's Rest in Colma where all the ashes are spread in a meadow that you can go visit! Until the remains are picked up by Pe...
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It's sooooo ironic that Ganesha is on my calender this month!
I don't usually blog about being depressed or serious personal poopie! I'd much rather
vent about the trivial, yet incredibly absurd stuff in my life in public. Tonight,
however, I'm feeling the need for some volcanic spewing so I'm just going to let off
some typographical steam! Most of you never get a chance to see my darker side. My
friends see me laughing most of the time. Despite that, some of you know that ...
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Wow! This is the first year in quite some time that I have done literally NOTHING to celebrate one of my favorite times of year! I missed Spiral Dance, the local Day of the Dead fun, avoided the kiddies begging for candy and didn't even do a Samhain ritual, solitary or otherwise, this year!
The only thing I did do is turn to my sweetie at midnight and say half-heartedly, "Happy New Year!"
I guess I half to admit that I am slipping into some sort of limbo here. Everyday feels like quicksan...
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Tonight, The Professor reveals he had a nice first date over the weekend.
Yippee! Cool! Happy for him & all that!
Keep in mind he doesn't know this girl well yet or much about her interests.
He asked me if I thought it would be appropriate to invite her to a party for their second date.
So far so good. Sounds lovely.
Then he tells me that this is the party where:
A) There will be a bunch of role playing gaming going on.
Well, I say, unless she's really intrested in tha...
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How many times have I been told, "Don't open your door to anyone you don't know!" How many times have I & other neighbors done it anyway? For a seemingly intelligent person, I often have dubious judgment. Oh, well it all turned out alright!
Pan-handlers & scam artists aren't always that clever, but they know how to grab a cliched story & run with it. Try to poke holes in it & they just come up with another line. Preying on the goodness in people, they count on your desire to want to help ...
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Sometimes I feel guilty for being such a bitch, especially when I enjoy it!
First I have to say, that normally I am a kind person. I realize there are some people in this world who are just "special." They live in their own little universe and no amount of discussion or argument will challenge them to think differently. I feel this way for example, about right wing conservatives.
Even if the other person is rude or insensitive, hurling insults in return, although they might be witty insu...
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about me
A great quote: "Alll of us take pride and pleasure in the fact that we are unique, but I'm afraid when all is said and done the police are right: it all comes down to fingerprints." David Sedaris from Holiday's on Ice.
If you want to know a little about me:
The name Lorelei was given to me by some fellow musician friends. Lorelei, of German legends, is a siren who lured sailors to their deaths with her beautiful voice. (I'm not sure if this is a compliment or not. I'm pretty sure no on has died after hearing me sing) She is sometimes a witch, sometimes a sea-nymph, but is most often pictured as a mermaid. The mermaid thing is a double inside joke because I am a Pisces.
One of the things I miss about my job in Temescal is passing by this beautiful Queen Anne Victorian every day!
One moment katie was sitting there resting her chin on my shoes with her big ears sticking straight up like an alert German Sheperd, then I went to snap the photo and she sprang into motion!
Sometimes you feel like being someone else and sometimes someone else feels like you........
Action Jackson aka Mesmero Kitty! RIP Jackson!
So if you want to get to know me better (or think you've gained some insight) In the "Lyrical Pursuits section below is some stuff I wrote. Will you figure me out? Probably not, but feel free to guess.....
Some of my Virgin Star & Little Bitch Lyrics: (I wrote them, I own them, they've been recorded, don't steal them AND don't reprint them without my permission dammit...)
Still caught your interest? Here are some of my original lyrics/poems etc....
Once again, these are my Virgin Star & Little Bitch Lyrics: (I wrote them, I own them, they've been recorded, don't steal them AND don't reprint them without my permission dammit...)
"CHANGING YOUTH"
Changing youth searching for truth in an empty room
Well, where will you go when the world gets old
What will you have learned, from them
This sacred place that we have forsaken inside our hearts now & then
Well, what will we say when it's finally gone away
That we just played our parts
I don't have to tell you that you're the only ones
Who can make a difference before more damage is done
Unholy thoughts that we act out
Then pray forgiveness in the dark
A kind of hush that you create
It's a very good disguise
As you walk on by watch their big wind die
What did they know anyhow
Changing youth you search for truth
But then you live a lie
And I don't have to tell you that you're the only ones
Who can make a difference before more damage is done
Changing youth searching for truth in an empty room....
"ONLY LOVE"
Still of the Night
an afterthought to you, but you know it well, only too well...
Still, black on white, shades of grey steel
bird wings in her eyes tangled in the thread of her life.
She's sewing hearts & leaves, forests at her tortured hands; a tapestry of pity, while trying to ignore her heart's demands
See how she holds her sorrow so tight.
Weaving by a candle in the night, she sits alone.
Holding only mirrors of the llfe she has known,
"Oh, Don't fall to Love." she says,
"The Moon is in too Poor a Plight;
But she knows tonight, only love could set things right
Only Love, Only Love, Pray for Love....
"Lonliness sustains me. It's the only food I've known."
She says, "Lonliness surrounded me & now I wear it like a cloak."
Still comes the night only now she thinks of you and says, "should I accept this love that's come my way. Could it be real?"
Some strange Prophet standing here; "knew where all my love had gone."
Now comes the night now goes her fear & what she thought was gone; reborn.
Sitting by the broken habit of a nun; Not Alone.
Love is lost then found; yellow candle melting in the sun
Just when you think your poor heart is about to break
(you just know it will)
A little drop of love is all it takes & your fulfilled
Only Love, Only love, Only Love....
"LOVE IN VAIN"
Miles & Miles of Wishes
dipped into my wishing well
Long Ago a short time to know
to know to know you
Well you are gone, but you're still tearing my heart...
Memory is keeping me. The heartache slips away
The edges of you still remain.
Keep on driving your wedges of intimate steel.
There is no eye to your hurricane
You take my Love in Vain, You take my Love in Vain, You take my Love in Vain
Always the same OLD story;
You're still consumed by your old Fantasy
(what was her name now?)
You keep on driving those wedges into my soul.
My love for you is killing me; give it back.
You take my Love in Vain, You take my Love in Vain, You take my Love in Vain
The love it seems you've left behind....
Don't cry to me at crying time.
Don't answer me with things you've never seen.
Your only faith is make believe
and there's always something up your sleeve
You fade to Black and then you fade away.
desperate & wanting
I knew what I was doing
More damage to my state of mind
still You keep coming in daydreams & riddles
Taking my peace of mind
Taking my Love in Vain
You take my Love in Vain, You take my Love in Vain, You take my Love in Vain
"YOU'll NEVER TAKE ME ALIVE"
Hear my heart beating into the night
Like a drum in an african rite
You know you never look me in the eye
When I'm loving you the best best part of me dies
It's not right
You know it's not right
So I'll scratch & I'll bite
You'll take me alive
So it's one last time on the destruction line
If you own my heart I guess you own my time
But I don't think I have the time to loose
As long as I still my mind to choose
It's not right
You know it's not right
So I'll scratch & I'll bite
You'll take me alive
"I NEED MORE"
You seem to live on just an hour a day, but I need more
Ma Mama said it should be work & no play but I need more
Don't try to lose me I aint chasin your tail
Don't try to shake me I'm not hot on your trail
I need more than just a slip of your tongue
ooh ooh honey yeah
I need more (I gotta tell ya) I need more
I need more (I'm gonna find it) I need more
You want a lover well I need more
Don't want no blue light special rate I need more
You want sugar, well aint that sweet ooh ooh
You need a sitter just to put you to bed
You need a traffic light inside of your head
You just want someone to tell you what to do
I need more (I gotta tell ya) I need more
I need more (I'm gonna find it) I need more
You want a lover I need a friend
So bring lets bring it to a screeching halt before it begins
I need more
I need more
I need more
I need more
"TOMORROW & TOMORROW" *with some help from William Shakespeare* (for the text, this link: www.ac.wwu.edu/~stephan/w...morrow.html
what do you seek oh mortal in the eyes of men
then turn beyond the twilight dreaming on
the answer cannot always be found in the hands of night
so look beyond to the light we have so little time
autumn leaves are falling the winter chill is coming
its subtle snow will soon caress your brain
out out brief candle life's but a walking shadow
the essence of your soul slipping away
the days are not so long my friend
dont waste your hour upon the stage
life is but a tale told by a fool
As Diogenies the hermit
lifts his lantern to mans faces
searching for signs of honest grace
autumn leaves are falling
the winter child is calling
his subtle snow will soon carress your brain
out out brief candle
lifes but a walking shadow
the essence of your soul soon slips away
Tomorrow & tomorrow
creeps this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time
And all our yesterdays
Have lighted fools the way to dusty death
Life is full of sound and fury
But it means nothing
autumn leaves are falling
the winter child is calling
his subtle snow will soon carress your brain
out out brief candle
lifes but a walking shadow
the essence of your soul soon slips away
slipping away day by day until your out of time you find the meaning was just a dream just a dream
autumn leaves are falling
the winter child is calling
his subtle snow will soon carress your brain
out out brief candle
lifes but a walking shadow
the essence of your soul soon slips away
slipping away day by day until your out of time you find the meaning was just a dream just a dream
"FREE ME/BREAK THESE CHAINS"
You know it's time for me to go
(its not that I'm afraid)
you knew i was a runaway
so why do you look at me so strange today
You said that you would break these chains around my heart
I've locked it in a cage
hear it beating in the dark
Maybe your story is just too real for me
(maybe I'm begging to be free)
under the cold pale moon beneath the willow tree
you pledged your love to me
And you say that you will break these chains around my heart
destroy the bitter steel that rips my world apart
Can you free me break these chains
Set me free break these chains
You know I want to love you so
(okay so I'm afraid)
But in this moment I'm starting to feel safe
I never thought I'd change
Til you said that you could break these chains around my heart
Destroy the bitter steel that held me in the dark
Can you free me break these chains
Set me free Break these chains
"LEND ME AN HOUR"
if you knew what I was thinking
eyes of grey & oooh I'm dreaming
that you can read right my stare
if you'd lend me just an hour
I'd love you like theres no tomorrow
even if its only for one night
I don't know exactly what I'm feeling
or what in you is so appealling
but something in my body's stirring
just when I thought that I was slipping
into a void where I would cease to care
so if you'd lend me just an hour
I'll rock you with my total power
even if it's only for tonight
Only for tonight
All I need is your body & your time
On your knees or on mine
Won't you lend me an hour of your time
ooh baby baby
oh my god you drive me
crazy
my heart would follow you anywhere
Hey I don't want to break this fever
Won't you come a little nearer
Only for tonight
All I need is your body & your time
On your knees or on mine
Won't you lend me an hour of your time
won't you lend me just an hour baby
won't you lend me just an hour baby
won't you lend me just an hour baby
"INDECISION"
something unreal
it only come around about twice
the wait isn't worth it
until you see the look in her eyes
every time you think that things are going your way
you'll cross the river in your own sweet time
she meets you with a smile and a slap in the face
you been walking a very fine line
Of
Indecision
So I'll tell you a story
something htat might have happen to me
cause you've been dreming about her
so it's time you learned a lessen for free
everytime I thought that things were going my way
I'd cross the river in my own sweet time
life met me with a smile and a slap in the face
and sent me right back to the starting line
Of
Indecision
So don't go thinking things are going your way
and you'll never have to make up your mind
she'll wake you with a smile and a slap in the face
and tell you it's about time
to make
your decision
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