I've embarked on the journey to find healing once again. The last time I had a major flare-up with my skin it took me 3 years to find someone who could help me. It would have been so easy for me to take steroids or apply steroidal creams and ointments but then I would have been treating the symptoms instead of going to the root of the problem. I know that for me, my skin reflects my mental and emotional health. I wear my heart on my skin so to speak. I'm actually very grateful for this because I am forced to deal with my own disconnection. I think everything is okay but my skin says something to the contrary.

I went to an acupuncturist on Monday who was referred to me by one of my very close friends. She had said amazing things about him both as a doctor of traditional chinese medicine and as an instructor. The appointment was a standard first visit with the usual questions about my history, emotional well-being, etc. The part that wasn't so usual was when he actually needled me. He used 4 points on me of which I can identify none since I am not educated about these things. For the first point I was prone and it was around C7. This one was somewhat uncomfortable but not too bad. At first it felt concentrated just at the point of insertion but then the Qi dispersed and it was fine. After that point, I then lay supine and he inserted a needle in each arm between the end of my elbow crease and my lateral epicondyle. Those were painful!!!! I felt like he was screwing the needles into each arm. This was the first time I'd ever felt this kind of pain during an acupuncture session. My left arm kept twitching in response and all I could do was just breathe through it. The final point was around the top of my kneecap medially. As soon as he inserted that needle, a strong wave of Qi went from my feet to my head and I suddenly felt very emotional. I told him that I felt like I wanted to cry and right after I said that, I started crying heavily for about 15 minutes. It was such a great release and something I had experienced before but not through acupuncture. I had a strong feeling that would happen even before I went to see him. After that point he said that that was enough for today and that he would give me herbs to take in lieu of the last point that he was going to do. I can't tell you how much better I felt after that one session. I had had all this heat in my head before I went to see him and it was making me miserable. I felt like I had a fever all the time even though my temperature wasn't 98.6 but more like 97.9. Not only is the heat gone but my skin is improving every day. I'm really looking forward to seeing him again on Saturday. I told him that whatever it takes, I want to get well. It just amazes me how much I grow spiritually from these experiences. It's also so very different from the last time I went through this because I'm single now. The last time I was married and I had my husband to lean on. I, without a doubt, have the full support of friends and family but it's still different without a partner. I'm relying so much right now on their sweet words of love and my faith in God, Papa, my angels, and all my spiritual helpers. I am so very blessed and looking forward to doing the work that this particular journey is leading me to. I can't wait to help others as I have been helped. I love my life.