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I have one do you ?

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So as far as i can telll i have lost it ... completly ... Sitting here thinking ... hmmm... i know lets shave your beard off drew ...
fuck that dumbass past tence he shaved our beard off ....

well at least it will grow back ....

This Entry finds our intrepid hero returned to his castle in the Sky. The Epic Quest to the plains of Snow and ICE would have been longer and more tale worthy had it been across land. Luckily the West-Jet Dragon was in good spirits so the trip was short and filled with single serving tidbits seen no where else in the know universe. Having slain the baby and saved the beast, he searched for treasure but seemed to find only christmas candy and gift certificates. The Follow up celebration and Festivities to Mark the New Beginning (Post baby slaying) were in full tilt; our Knight sporting his new Paisley Tunic ( A Vintage gift from his mother) To attend the kings Ball Where a master of his kraft and a group of minstrels serenade the ball with their dirty-breaks and electro-house ballads.

So really ... i am trying to mitigate my ADHD while at work ... so the story looses the Fairy tale now.

Alberta was ... well alberta ... i realize more why i left every time i go home. I miss the tight knit social group ... Though the metaphor seems to come a little more unraveled every time that i go home. To push the metaphor i seem to be part of a different Sweater now ... or even a toque ... all alone up top.

Christmas was again ... to be expected, relatively average .. the kids are adolescents now ... some are taller them me ... (being the oldest grandchild by about 10 years makes this a big deal ... I used to be the undeniable champion of the children ... but now that i am gone and return with tales of clubbing and dancing until 6 am, to play the role of bad influence(to the parents) and wise and cool(to the kids) is all i get for one or two meals in a 24 - 48 hour period. My whole family is rather traditional ... no hippies or alternative consciousness, I find it hard to share with them the stuff i have found in toronto that fullfills me. I wish i could play a more influencing role in the lives of my cousins, If they grow up all straight laced and normal i will never forgive myself. On a good note one of the cousins asked me if he should smoke pot (he is 16)my responce: "Wait until university the weed will be worth smoking" I explained my drug history to him ... and said "i would not be the person i am today with out drugs" with a breif disclaimer there have been positive and negative impacts. With explicit instructions to call me when ever he might need some help or answers ... I recognize my place as a "hero"/role model in his life. do not want to glamorize drug use ... that would make him make choices to mimic my actions.
I just want him to know it is his choice. Meh ... we will see if i screwed up with this one ... i still have like 10 more to shape a mould in to my Family's next generation.

I have always had a really close relationship with the Family ... never really appreciated it Until i was 3400KM away from it. Grandpa is getting infirm ... since his stroke(mild) he seems to have given up on the idea that he can do much more then sleep, smoke and zone out on TV. It is heart wrenching to See some one Give up like this ... he does not even want to try ... My Biggest Fear is that i will not get a chance to see him again before he dies. I am not the type to go to the hospital to watch the last stages of life, it seems voyeuristic.

The direct family ... parents and sister were in top form ... it was even i dare say functional. Through out the years we have had some pretty disconnected family time. It was pleasant and unusual for us to get along well. It probably means that we have all finally managed to become adults or something silly.

SO ... i wanted to move back to Edmonton when i was there ... got home(toronto) and now i do not want to leave. I miss my friends.. NYE ... i was told that i was loved so much(Sketched our raver love is the best). :) It is hard to want to leave that. I spent a bunch of time with an old flame ... the fire had gone out a long time ago but the warmth was still there. I was incredibly humanizing to express some of my inner cuddle monster. To enjoy being touched(your are all dirty) and just being close to some one. And in all reality i am a nostalgic son of a bitch so old flames are great.

Like most Xmas's and NYE are really good periods of self analysis and transformational change ... at least for me. I Know who i am ... realized that is something that i have never really have doubted ... As bad and low as my self esteem gets some times i am still me ... immutable; a rock if you would. So i am feeling empowered coming into the new year knowing that i am ME and that is pretty fuckin' awesome.

RESOLUTIONS: minimum 1280 X 1024... sorry wrong type of resolution ...

Habitualize things that are good for me ... Attempt to add one new Habitual behavior to my routine each week .. one for each Mind, Body, Spirit. I leave the definitions open though. As i am trying to add possitive things. I have identified that i have a habitual / addictive personality ... attempting to use my own weakness against me ! ...


** Note a picture of my face with out a costume**

An interesting article about keeping your developers happy.
Seriously this is important ...we will jump ship and then where will you be.

www.softwarebyrob.com/article...ney.aspx

So this is an image of a laptop conversion that was done by a crazy japaneese Artist that work with Wrought Iron.
There is a new vein of art called steampunk that i believe is directly lifted from a comic book by the same name.

For the most part it asumes that cool old analouge hardware will be the wave of the future once computing become redundant...

Really this is the sexiest laptop i have ever seen ... i want one ... that is all

Note: more pictures of the other art and the laptop in my gallery