It is amazing how much I am affected by Seasonal affective disorder. Today is one of the first days of the year that I feel so much better than I had all winter. It is still a bit cold out but my mood it 10x times better and I have about 3x more energy than I did in the winter.

SAD is a very real phenomenon for me and it accents my depression despite any changes I make to my diet or activities to supplement it.

The seasons in the Mid-west are becoming more and more outstanding to me. As kid I didn't notice them as much, but as my consciousness is evolving their effects are much more pronounced.

I am left with the feeling that anything could happen this summer. There is a hope there that isn’t there/possible in the winter no matter how much I try. Even though I know this summer will be just like most, there is feeling I haven’t felt since the summer that I graduated high school brewing inside me. Perhaps it is because this is the first summer that my intent for my self has been so focuses and clear.

Maybe anything will indeed happen... maybe i am just comming up from the low of the winter.