i am walking down the road.. the main drag of this new little town i have moved to.. and i end up in the path of a foul yelling match of anger and confusion.... i could not help to respond in my passage.. and i asked the "leader" of the loud why she was so angry... i found myself surrounded by the women in her clan, yelling at me, telling me to shut the f.. up and to move on along.. and i could not help but stay and stand in silence with a smile on my face.. the less i responded in anger, the worse they yelled at me.. i told them i was so sorry they are so angry.. and they walked away, giving me the bird and yelling profanity.. i was not intending to follow them, as much as i was continuing on my path which was the same path they were taking.. they spoke of me and my fear of them high fiveing one another about that girl who was shaking.(fear was not there and no i never "shook of fear)...... i laughed each time they turned to look if was behind them... and i soon lost track of why i was walking that way as well, because i was drawn to them... soon, they circled me once more, and once more, and once more ..(at every cross walk).. and when i decided i was done with the game, they turned and yelled at me... why are you leaving pouta (sp)... i smiled and returned to their party, they yelled at me to leave.. and i responded, you threw the line to the fish, and i ate the bait and now you throw me back??? i asked why they were so angry, and they began to yell.. but this time, they said they were sick of gringos and bowing down to them, .. they gave me answers... and one even smiled.. until mom showed up.. and the yelling and anger dominated any voice and nothing was heard... the mom looked at me and stumbled in her words as she tried to say pick on someone your own size, when she realized i was at least 3 inches taller than her.. i asked her mom, why are you so angry? she asked what i wanted, i never did get to answer due to the girls yelling their idea of what i wanted (how could they know when even i did not know).... , and my response to it all was, don't you believe in community, and they stated "what has my community ever done for me".. i said, i am here, i am in your community and you push and yell and treat me with hate.. how can i do anything for you? they yelled and left... telling me to go have another beer.. ( i had not been drinking).....

i was drawn to this anger, and when it was all said and done, i felt like i could just throw up... i do not understand why i continued to chase the bait... and i can't seem to shake the idea of what really happened... i was ready for them to beat me because their words and their getting in my face all said we will beat you if we want. .. and in the end, the event left me drained, and all my own energy was gone, as if a succubus had taken all it could.. and then i felt alone and lost.... and now i am haunted.