meanderings of the mind

wind blown

Jennifer — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 16:17:10 GMT

heavy with the new fallen snow touching the source wind comes you spring upright reaching to the heavens shaking off all that brought you settling back letting go forgetting partners in your path knowing not the fairy

treescape

Jennifer — Sun, 28 Oct 2007 17:27:32 GMT

treescape in the wind crossing my mind a leaf falls and barzes my breast rain gently landing on my tounge memories of moments not so far in the past confuse the truth of current passage druid lore haunts me as it always has i desire not an escape i desire the embrace of knowledge

in response...

Jennifer — Sat, 27 Oct 2007 16:57:59 GMT

gracious light in the passing moon has gifted me in many ways, i am humbled beyond words. you are my light.. you have guided me always, and i hold you dearer to my heart than most... i know that not only is my "way" appreciated in your eyes, but it is also understood... love and light will always be with you, for you are an angel.... i had a dream.. a big bear, passing a dwelling i was coming out of.. my bear was upset at idea of passage, he snarled at me, sending me back into the shelter.... and today, the furry little totem has since showed me his peaceful gaze in an illusion through the trees, on the edge of the great beasts winter groggy, body fat absorbing, sleeping while giving birth hibernation.. ... you ask about my new life???...

beyond my comprehension

Jennifer — Sat, 22 Sep 2007 17:42:41 GMT

i am walking down the road.. the main drag of this new little town i have moved to.. and i end up in the path of a foul yelling match of anger and confusion.... i could not help to respond in my passage.. and i asked the "leader" of the loud why she was so angry... i found myself surrounded by the women in her clan, yelling at me, telling me to shut the f.. up and to move on along.. and i could not help but stay and stand in silence with a smile on my face.. the less i responded in anger, the worse they yelled at me.. i told them i was so sorry they are so angry.. and they walked away, giving me the bird and yelling profanity.. i was not intending to follow them, as much as i was continuing on my path which was the same path they were taking.. they spoke of me and my fear of them high fiveing one another about that girl who was shaking.(fear was not there and no i never "shook of fear)...... i laughed each time they turned to look if was behind them... and i soon lost track of why i was walking that way as well, because i was drawn to them... soon, they circled me once more, and once more, and once more ..(at every cross walk).. and when i decided i was done with the game, they turned and yelled at me... why are you leaving pouta (sp)... i smiled and returned to their party, they yelled at me to leave.. and i responded, you threw the line to the fish, and i ate the bait and now you throw me back??? i asked why they were so angry, and they began to yell.. but this time, they said they were sick of gringos and bowing down to them, .. they gave me answers... and one even smiled.. until mom showed up.. and the yelling and anger dominated any voice and nothing was heard... the mom looked at me and stumbled in her words as she tried to say pick on someone your own size, when she realized i was at least 3 inches taller than her.. i asked her mom, why are you so angry? she asked what i wanted, i never did get to answer due to the girls yelling their idea of what i wanted (how could they know when even i did not know).... , and my response to it all was, don't you believe in community, and they stated "what has my community ever done for me".. i said, i am here, i am in your community and you push and yell and treat me with hate.. how can i do anything for you? they yelled and left... telling me to go have another beer.. ( i had not been drinking)..... i was drawn to this anger, and when it was all said and done, i felt like i could just throw up... i do not understand why i continued to chase the bait... and i can't seem to shake the idea of what really happened... i was ready for them to beat me because their words and their getting in my face all said we will beat you if we want. .. and in the end, the event left me drained, and all my own energy was gone, as if a succubus had taken all it could.. and then i felt alone and lost.... and now i am haunted.

seekingbow meets the willow

Jennifer — Sun, 03 Jun 2007 05:11:01 GMT

intuition is abandoned with arms flowing with hope bending as a willow does in the wake of a moving beast once more i am open to the elements as willow bark open to heal as well seekingbow only seeking for the sake of seeking never resting only moving to have all and treasure none... pierced by the bow i am open to heal once more and the bow continues to flow vanity in motion

today

Jennifer — Sun, 20 May 2007 06:03:11 GMT

Deep in the mist memories arrise the wall builds blocking any flow resistance keeps the mists at bay fear rules reality and the rolling waves inside the misty walls hide the hermit in a safe gate

Druid Dreams

Jennifer — Sun, 22 Apr 2007 21:09:42 GMT

Mystical winds Flowing through the mountains Loosing strength as I come to you Bringing peaceful sleep Rocking the cradle to calm the babe Taking stress and worry Carrying the seeds of your sorrow Clearing the skies for brighter nights To give you stars to wish upon Surrounding you in an embrace Releasing and moving away when space has cleared

Whiped

Jennifer — Wed, 14 Mar 2007 17:57:24 GMT

Change bares the gift of a mystical magic Paving a path of the unknown Throwing the road down with force Opening a door not seen before Slamming behind the traveler Locking out all resistance Thrashing winds strip away the road twice traveled Giving the new horizon Delicate shadows cast upon the weary filling uncertainty with darkness Directing the traffic to a glimmer of light Fear not the magic of the caravan, be not afraid to imagine

watering hole

Jennifer — Fri, 19 Jan 2007 17:47:33 GMT

lion activity new moon bringing the energy a new moon filling my ora with caution

full moon and the mist

Jennifer — Tue, 09 Jan 2007 17:40:03 GMT

the cancer moon sets a lazy mist rises greeting one another for only a moment a brief sharing of magic that is

a bright shadow

Jennifer — Sat, 02 Dec 2006 05:58:37 GMT

lost flight in sacfrice awake yet blind open yet closed sacfrice the flight for steps on this earth reaching grasping for magic empty hands fill the heart what am i to do in this shadow of light?

in the quiet of the land

Jennifer — Tue, 21 Nov 2006 05:52:14 GMT

the new moon rises on the shadow of a quiet land the sky is dark early winter frost sparkles in the flash of a shooting star and all the while I wonder where you are on your road trip the road twice traveled leaving the paino quietly behind and the new moon rises in your shadow as in mine

no image to represent

Jennifer — Wed, 25 Oct 2006 05:31:55 GMT

stepping from the mountain side, steep and solid, the layer of rock under the one foot balanced while i descended from my bouldering position.. that layer of rock trembled under my foot.. intense and sure... and that was the only rock sending out vibration...

new snow

Jennifer — Wed, 18 Oct 2006 22:51:07 GMT

seasons have passed taking much from me giving much to me spending my time reflecting on what is lost spending my days moving forward because of what has been lost standing alone is not lonely sitting in silence is not painful tears are not all saddness dancing with the willows is breath, one more breath i can take one more day in the NOW

winds of change

Jennifer — Sun, 01 Oct 2006 07:39:51 GMT

the winds come, swift and strong stripping dancing taking leaving finding the women who once was grounded and sure now naked exhausted seeking the looking glass and the energy to move forward yearning to learn who she has now become

stephen 10-11-2006

Jennifer — Thu, 14 Sep 2006 05:25:21 GMT

in the shadows that fall, laughter still fills the air my heart smiles with the sound of a peaceful breath tears are held knowing soon, you will move to another realm and i only hope, your spirit shall great me on the other side namaste my father........ namaste my friend....... i hope i can be as strong in life as you are in passing. Stephen passed away 2 months after being diagnosed with cancer. He we 50 years old.

numb

Jennifer — Sun, 10 Sep 2006 04:25:53 GMT

i no longer know what is right or what is wrong... i flow in all direction like a broken river seraching for the current take me to the ocean so i may be free, i find i am the wounded path i KNOW the path yet i loose power and find there isn't any water to push me towards the open ocean of unity

passing.....

Jennifer — Sun, 27 Aug 2006 04:53:44 GMT

in passing, the new moon greets me in darkenss bathed by light glittering in the night sky is the light a false fantasy? ta spell of trying times? darkness falls i blend, i mix , i give, i gather energy from above do i dilute it through my body, when I assume I am creating a potion of power….. for each time, I am punished each time, my totems come do they come to taunt me? or do they serve to guide me through the darkness? i am tired i am lost i am sad and for this, i pray for the thunder to shake my spirit and take my soul to a lighter space

What is it to manifest?

Jennifer — Sun, 23 Jul 2006 22:38:22 GMT

I believe that what I manifest should come back to me as a gift… be careful what you ask for…….. is it my Aquarian Moon? Venus rising? Eb? I embrace the dark hands of a wounded bird…cradling its strength and letting it take all the light it needs from me.. this darkness is intense and beautiful, a confusing experience…. With temptations on the edge, yet staying along the shore… no regret, no remorse…..i behave as if I am cautious, yet I know I am not, still something holds me back, makes me shy…. I fidget…. Ah,.. the charkas open…. I am receiving the gift of goddess recognition.. And I manifest more…. All the while distracting my meditation. … my muse has shied away…….. something new is climbing through the rubble of the newly awakened goddess, still young and confused by it all………. still trying to understand what it is that is truly manifesting………………