So.. I live in NYC. Brooklyn to be more specific. A comic book convention just passed
through NY this last weekend, and for me, it was the culmination of about a month and
a half of persistent, consistent work. Because I decided I was gonna create the UP1..
that is the Ultimate Portfolio part I to show to the various art directors and blah blahs,
and other big wiggy blah blahs that can aide me in creating a more viable financial
climate for myself within which to bring to fruition my first and second graphic novels.

in the creation process for this UP1, I discovered something quite jarring about myself.
I was responding to a friend of mine who asked me how it went, and i think this about sums
it up:
".. I feel like I have never put that much consistent, focused work into anything..
ANYthing, in my entire life. and I've never more strongly felt the forces
energies, aspects within me that so badly wanted me to fail. Like, that shit was
a straight BATTLE son! Like, for real! it was intense.. I'd get sleepy when I had
ta do stuff, I'd be tired even when I took a nap; I'd fuckin have all KINDS of
physical stuff reinforced by massive amounts of emotional/psychic second and
third guessing and .. it was intense. But I was like, if this is how powerful the resistance
is, if I've NEVER felt it so consciously, so keenly before, then it MUST be cuz
I'm on to something. Something BIG. and that alone woulda kept me going, but
it was backed up by my pride. FUCK YA'll for tryin ta stop me. FUCK YA'll for
being there all along, sabotaging myself.. FUCK THAT! fuck it.

so I went, and I did my shit, and I fucking KILT it like scottish!
It was beautiful. some parts were straight like a dream come true. I got several
contacts and everything now is about follow-ups but I think it was the aftermath,
more than anything, that my failure forces were trying to prevent. the aftermath
being the HUGE swell of psychic confidence; the bedrock and keystones built solid
of something being accomplished. no matter what happens, I DID that. I did what
I said I was going to do, when I said I was going to do it, and NO one and nothing can
ever erase the FACT of it. I can stand on it like a foundation, like a solid built floor,
and KNOW, that what I'm standing on is REAL, is built WELL, and cannot be sundered,
cuz it happened. it's in the past, it's done and I can continually celebrate it the same
way so many of us continually celebrate pain that's happened years ago.

I got the reverse and gottDAmn it ain't no stoppin me now.
I'm good.."

This is just to hip all of you out there to the possibility that one of the reasons
why you may find yourself in the same unhappy situations isn't because you're a failure,
or that you're lazy, or that you're not good, or any of a hundred other things you might come
up with, but that there are parts of YOU, that are TERRIFIED of you making the necessary
shifts in your being, that will initiate your next level.. whatever that looks like. those parts of you
will do ANYthing, to have you stay where you are. So when you're attempting things, perhaps you
should start to pay reeeeaally close attention to the times when you're sleepy, tired, dejected,
pissed, irritable, scared shitless, any of those things, none of those things.. and PUUUUSH anyway.

cuz nine times out of ten, those are the times, when the simple fact of you showing up where you
said you were gonna show up, will shift something major inside you. in your internal workings,
making your next level possible.
here's to all of your next levels.
here's to mine.
YEEEEAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

me






--
the Next Level isn't a place to get to..
it's a place to BE FROM

So.. we're moving..
and to celebrate, we're gonna move most of our stuff out of the
apartment, and have a full-blown art show/sale featuring original
works by myself and my Lady Snow.. she paints like a mufuckin
BADASSS you HAVE to see this stuff! [ an I'm not all that bad mah
self if I do say so..an I DO ].
There'll be originals as well as prints and
several things in between, ( like the soon to be infamous Ultimate
Portfolio designed by the obsessed BlackLight to blaze at the NY comic
con that just passed.. mwaahahahahahahaa ), bits of fashion, old
BlackLight outfits, Snow originals.. ya ya..

so come through on
Wednesday February 25th, from seven to 9 thirtiesh and view art,
buy art, give a bit of your vibe and leave happeh.

101 Wyckoff Ave @ Hart st., buzz 204 and hit the green bell button
L train to Dekalb Ave, dekalb exit and we're on the same block, next
corner.

Hello all.. I feel like it's been months or some such.. It's been quite
a while regardless. So much life.. inuaguration AAAAAAAGGGHHHHH!!!!
that was some beauteousness. did you SEE how many people there were out
dat mufucka? DAYUMMN! damn damn.. anyway.. I STILL haven't fully vented
on this tribey thing about just how much impact THAT particular fact is having
on millions of minds round the globe.. that's real.

me and the Lady Snow have done our first couple live art gigs courtesy of the
COSM crew. [ HUGE shoutouts to all of them for making so many things possible
for me as an artist embraced by a niiice community. ]

Facebook.. this new facebooky phenomenah, is being hugely embraced by a rack of
folk... buuuut I got some reservations myself. I STRONGLY encourage all you FaceBookians
and potential FaceBookians to check this out before you go signing your information away:

www.vladtv.com/video/3038...t-facebook/

it raises some vveeeery pertinent questions bout what you're actually signing away as part of
their privacy policy [ which a lot of us, for some reason, don't read ], including the rights to ALL
your uploaded photos, art, images period, as well as your likeness etc..

yuh, take a look at THAT thang right thurr.. just to be on the safe side naumean..

hmmmmm.. more.. me an the Lady is movin again.. back to bedstuy brooklyn.. not the exact
same spot I moved from, but not as safe as where we moved to either.. like right in-between
I think. I'm actually kinna excited bout that cuz it's got outdoor space in the form of a huuuge
communal lawn w/ a gazebo, a tire swing of all things, a fuckin TRAMPOLINE, whuuuut?,
and a veranda. niceness. we found like the diamond spot in the roughness.

we're moving so we can cut our costs, carve our debt, and make an actuality of the bi-coastal
which is our soon-to-be realized goal.
the art creation right now is SIIIIICK! fucking. sick.
the Muse, my collective muse has officially moved into my chest and manifests itself as
part of the triple volcano that resides there: my metabolism and two muse volcanoes that
continuously ERUPT with concepts, ideas, inspirations for artwork, songs, clothes, oh boy.

my site will officially be up and updated within the next two months, and keep a lookout for
me and Snow's collaborative blinky, BlackSnow comin to you reeeeal soon as well. ha HA!
custom clothes fuh dat ass yessireee bubbly dude.

I feel like I had sooo much to write before I got on here.. whatevs.. hit me holla tell me
lil blips of your lives, call a dude.. I love so many uh ya'll feh real fu real. you bring a lot
of joy to my life.
thank you for being who you are.. includin the ones I don't like so much. you give me
interesting reflections and force me to ask interesting questions of myself and those around
me, which ultimately aides me in aiding this planet to carve out some different paradigms.
LOVE to ALL of you. all uh ya.

from within the Eternal Dance I salute thee
BL
M

so I dunno if'n all my folk who are gonna be on the easterly coast for
NYE and especially here in the NY know bout the happnens already
but COSM is closing it's doors and kissing it's art goodbye as of NYE
night. The New Years' shindiggeral is gonna be THE fuggn floor to
be on this particular time to partake of the visual splendor of mister greys'
art and the vibe of the space he and his folk have created out here.. Basically
there is a haven, a mecca for freek culture, visionary art, healing, etc.
CLOSING and moving out of the city upstate to gorgeous land.. nowhere
near you. okay it's not gonna be THAT far, but its' still not a subway ride
away anymore. SO COME THOO BETCHESSES!
Abai and Sleepyhead rollin all the way in, Me, Marisa, Claudia, Miz Imani,
MIkio, Satchi Ohm, live art by Alex and Allison, and a RACK of other folk
both musically and visually will be gracing the space and YOU! it'd be nice to share
this time with ya. no I mean for real. Besides, if all else fails, if you NEED any other incentive,
me and my Lady Snow will be unveiling the first public demonstration of live
art by BlackSnow.. [ that'd be me and she .. painting. .live.. PLUS i'm singin ]

SO.. come through.. the later you come through, the less money you pay
at the door [ check the website: www.cosm.org ] and the earlier you come,
the more art you get to see and hear and experience.

oh yeah, and.. HAPPY FUGGN NEW YEEAAAR!!! [ in advance]
yay