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Rechaka

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Age
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Location
Portland
about me
I enjoy expanding my heart and mind with studies in many esoteric traditions, playing music ( teaching myself a few instruments, namely didgeridoo, violin, and keyboard), drinking tea, writing, reading (A few favorite authors Samael Aun Weor, Rudolf Steiner, Eliphas Levi, Dalai Lama, Max Heindel, Dion Fortune, H.P Blavatsky, Rumi, CW. Leadbetter, Kahlil Gibran), exploring the outdoors, spinning poi ( playing with fire), drumming, building fires, photography, meditation, yoga, cooking yummy organic and ethnic foods, love movies (don't do tv) and a multitude of other things. I seek friends who are interested in exploring themselves and the world around them in search of truth.
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Patience
Patience seems to be the very essence of being. When I sit to meditate I can see the faces of a thousand expectations brewing about until this mind finally recluses itself to silence. My instructor told me to watch for that impatience, where does it come from? What is driving this incessant need to get somewhere or do something? I follow my breath and watch the thoughts fade with each exhale, a separation occurs. I can feel that wellspring of joy that resides within but it seems to be inside ... read more
Mon, March 3, 2008 - 10:19 AM permalink - 0 comments
 
How do I define lust?
Lust is a broad term that encompasses many things. Generally speaking lust is amplified craving, which is desire, which is
not being fulfilled in the present. It is an intense longing for something more, something else, stimulation and ultimately
control versus surrender.It is fed by the need to experience something other than what is now (strictly for personal
gratification).

It can be sexual or not though when I relate the term I am generally referring to sensual desires of some ki... read more
Wed, February 27, 2008 - 1:30 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
Vulnerability
I have always had a tough veneer on the surface of my heart. Well, maybe not always, but as long as I can remember. That is not to say I havent loved and been loved. The stony heaviness in my heart has limited my ability to feel compassion and empathy for others. Judging those who's emotions flowed more freely and recoiling at signs of perceived weakness. The more I persist in my practices the more it feels okay to be soft. Ultimately what is the worst that can happen? Someone might take adva... read more
Tue, February 26, 2008 - 7:51 AM permalink - 0 comments
 
Sexuality
The desire to control scenarios enacted for sensual pleasure is all but non existent right now. I am honest enough with myself to know that certain elements will take some time to transfer completely into chastity. The mental fornications reflect impurity of the sexual force. Recently my lust has been shown to me in the mirror of a new friend who I am attracted to. When I see his smile or his eyes, I pulse. I am beginning to comprehend I need to have these experiences. I need to be shown the ... read more
Mon, February 25, 2008 - 1:17 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
The Guru
In studying various traditions, the Guru system has been a source of confusion and much contemplation. It always seemed a bit remiss to place the divinity within inside the hands of Terrestrial man. That being said, I recognize the state of slumber we walk in and needing a guide to find the Path seems more than reasonable. It was not until I discovered Gnosticism and began to put the practices into place for direct experiential knowledge that this began to clarify. We need a Master to show us... read more
Mon, February 25, 2008 - 10:45 AM permalink - 0 comments
 
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