9/8/06
arch 07I established an amazing connection with an apopholite crystal over the summer. She ( I say she because it is an extreemely feminine piece) was given to me on my golden birthday wich proved to be a marvelous turning point in my spiritual advancement. I was especially exited when I was told that she came from India.
All summer long, friends of mine have been speaking of sleeping with crystals and the healing affects that it has on them. I have kept an amethyst next to my bed and felt its presence in my dreams, the same thing happened with a celestite. I cannot say that any true healing has taken place, but I can say that their properties were speaking to me on a subconcious level.
Just yesterday, I was having tea with one of my more psychic friends and we began speaking of past lives, dream recollection and minerals. I mentioned to her that I feel most powerful in my dreams because the majority of them are lucid and I am able to enter other realms and dimentions. Out of the blue she asked me if I had ever heard of apopholite and I said "well as a matter of fact - I was given a very special piece on my birthday this year." And then It was made clear to me that I was meant to experience this mineral through my dreams.
That night I went home and picked her up and felt her energy much more clearly than ever before. I was literally flooded with this essence. So I fell asleep holding her to my heart. - That night I found myself in the company of beings from other realms. I remember light skin and some sort of a humming or drone involved with our communication.
I look forward to future communications with these beings, and will do my best to record all that I experience.

August / 06
Well now, here is a dream that falls under the catigory of legit deja vous.
There is a story that goes along with this dream, and I will begin with it.
I had a friend who I was very close too. We had a falling out and I found myself being poorly judged and coldly dismissed. My love for this person never diminished however, and I suffered much stress over our situation.
After repeatedly reaching out only to be bitten in return, I finally snapped back and asked her if what we had meant absolutely nothing to her..... She did not respond..... So I let it go. It felt good.
And then the dream came -
I was walking through a giant door and there were people all around me. The crowd parted and there she was looking at me. She was dressed in green (heart chakra) and wore a radiant smile..... To my astonishment, she gave me a marvelous hug, and I told her that I loved her. I awoke from this dream light hearted and yet a bit sceptical.

Two days later, I went to meditate with my teacher and friends. When the program was over, I made my way through the giant double doors of the meditation hall, and on into the foyer where everyone gathered and conversized. The crowd parted before me and there she was in green wearing that radiant smile. I looked at her like a mouse anticipating a pounce. And then she hugged me so sweetly. And then I looked at her and told her that I loved her and she returned the blessing. I blinked... and blinked again. And exclaimed my exitement about my dream coming true. She did not know what to think - But I did.
- Dreams do come true!

As we have taken isolated treasures from our unconscious, we have always found something, but if we just surrender to it, we find the everything. Finding 'something' is the restriction of the mind thinking it has acquired some thing rather than a state of surrender and nothingness - in which nothing and everything must exist simultaneously. It is zero and 360 degrees where the two points meet. It is the beginning and the end.

Rudi

The source of potential energy available in any locale in the cosmos from the physical vacuum, via the zero point, is accessible and absolutely unlimited.
~ N. Tesla

Red Solar Skywalker

Tone 9: Solar - Greater Cycles & Expansion

Red Skywalker is your Conscious Self - who you are and who you are becoming.

Red Skywalker is the skywalker, the time/space traveller who can jump dimensions to assist you in realizing heaven on Earth. Red Skywalker is unlimited in form but often chooses the form of the angelic messenger.

A person who embodies cosmic wisdom may be known as a sky-walker, sage or bodhisattva. When others see such light in human form, they feel the vibration of heaven. This vibration may be embodied by you or experienced with a guru, master, an energy such as Red Skywalker, or in a 'chance' encounter with an extraordinary person.

An encounter with the energy of Red Skywalker can spark a deep yearning within you for reunion with the Source. Yet from this place of love and compassion, you also have a desire (embodied in physical form) to serve the light. This is the place in you that has the courage to fully express unconditional love, the depths of your being. Red Skywalker asks you to live the new myth by bringing this heaven to Earth in your daily life. As this reality is lived, it touches and awakens the same truth in others: "They kingdom come, Thy will be done, on Earth as it is in heaven."

Red Skywalker represents balance in your life - not static balance, but a dynamic equilibrium that includes both your present expression and your starseeded self. In Red Skywalker's star-glyph you see that the pillars of heaven don't appear to touch the Earth. You are the element that appears to be missing in the star-glyph. You are the one whose expression of the light assists in drawing the pillars of heaven to Earth.

Joining these pillars in yourself can be viewed as reuniting your male and female aspects. Together, in balance, we create the pillars of the etheric temples of heaven on Earth.

The natural state of every system moves toward balance that is fluid and free, as in dance. That balance is experienced differently by each person, but it often brings a sense of steadiness or centeredness even in the midst of movement and change. When you are dancing, you can use your very state of imbalance to create the fluidity of the dance.

Red Moon is your Higher Self & Guide.

Red Moon is the cosmic seed of awakened awareness. Consume it like a fruit, and let it blossom within you. You are on the quest of self-remembrance, of Godseed. If you work with the energy of Red Moon with clear awareness and attention, an awakened state of remembrance will naturally blossom within you. Remembrance means having direct access to your expanded presence through an intrinsic perception of unity. Remembrance is your recognition of the larger pattern and your connection to it, often facilitated through dreams, art, music, colors and creative pursuits. With focused attention, meditate on Red Moon and you will receive help with self-remembrance.

Red Moon is also a beacon or transmitting station. As you open to self-remembrance, you become a beacon and receiver for cosmic consciousness. This communication creates the gradual opening of the third eye, the eye within the mononlith of self. As this eye opens and your communication becomes more refined, you will notice more signs, signals and understanding coming to you. These are all for your growth and evolution - a feedback system from which you can gain insight about your journey.

The number for Red Moon is 9, which symbolizes the recurrence of great cycles. An example of such recurrence is the periodic return of master teachers to help awaken human beings on Earth. Nine is the number of Quetzalcoatl, buddha, and Christ. Red Moon is a symbol for great teachers who have come to translate universal wisdom to humanity, to embody the awakened state of consciousness that is accessible to all. Such teachers serve as a connection to the Divine and hold the promise of full self-mastery.

Take off the veil of forgetfulness. Become the beacon of awakened awareness. As you open to self-remembrance, you will freely receive divine guidance. Be with others who support your fullest expression.


Yellow Star is your Subconscious Self and Hidden Helper.

You are a starseed! You contain a holographic 'seed packet' of your evolution into the Mind of Light and the energy that directs you toward wholeness. This resonance offers an expanded view of the larger self and new ways of perceiving reality. Through self-acceptance, you are gifted with this journey. Yellow Star is ignition, like a cosmic milkweed explosion of resonant sparks. It is the launching pad from which you can hear the rumble of the rocket of your accelerated evolution.

The energy of Yellow Star may be experienced as a gentle rocking that becoes a floating and spiraling sensation, ending in a rush of feeling as you move into expanded reality. This sensation has been described as gently cascading fireworks, shimmering burst on the tapesty of Creation. Cascade into this unchartged perspective. Flow on the cosmic winds wherever Divinity directs, arching back to this reality wth a new experience of self.

Yellow Star's starseeded gift is the revelation of the harmony that unites all things. Instead of just aspiring to be harmonious, become harmony. Practice harmony not just as an abstraction, but as a living reality. This practice blends different energies, thoughts, people, and processes. Act on intuitive guidance as to what to combine and when. As you begin to follow your heart, you will know the feeling of being on the return path to the stars.

Yellow Star offers you the ability to hold a greatly expanded focus, a unity of awareness that encompasses aspects of the larger constellation of self. An example of this would be a simultaneous awarenss of the desires of the existential self and the truth of the Essence Self. This star harmony encompasses the greatly enlarged perspective of your starseeded self, the part within you that holds the potential of your greatest destiny.

Unlike the preceding 7 tones, which were seperate and distinct, Yellow Star begins a more complex harmonic series as it completes the preceding octave. On a spiritual level, Yellow Star begins the development of higher being. The fundamental tones that occur in this series are of a more expanded frequency than those of the preceding seven tones. In this new octave, there is alignment in the harmonies of Earth and the harmonies of the stars that are now being sounded on Earth. Yellow Star is the first in a series of star harmonies that evoke accelerated growth of the starseed potential within you.


Blue Night represents your Challenge and Gift. With maturity and awareness this challenge will turn into a Focus. This is what you desire to learn in this lifetime.

One indication of the shadow of Blue Night is being lost in self, being too inward and subjective. Some experience this subjectivity as depression. Yet from this place you can learn to face and free your deepest fears. Instead of resisting this process, embrace it, garnering its wisdom. Go deep inside and discover the positive intent that is held in your experience. What is it trying to show you that you have not been willing to look at? If you can go through your 'stuckness', you can find unexpected insights and gifts in the apparent darkness.

A great opportunity for looking within can also be found in recognizing how you judge and evaluate yourself. Self-judgement impairs access toyour own intrinsic wisdom. Judgement of how you 'should' be affects your process. Perhaps your conditioned beliefs have become harsh tools of comparison and classification. To "be" is not a specific goal; being is simply the innocence that is regained through acceptance of self.

Freed from judgement and labels, your journey naturally opens to growth. It is OK to make "mistakes" along your way. From life, you have created the "house" you live in and from which you see the world. Now is the time to go within and reveal your essence, to break the bonds of the old structures. In this process, it is only natural to feel vulnerable. You are breaking up the blockages and barriers around the heart of self. You are creating a new "home" in Essence Self, a sanctuary within the serenity of innocence.

Self-judgment also intensifies issues of self-worth and feelings of separation. You are intrinsically worthy. Become aware of anything that suggests you are not worthy to receive all that you desire. Self-judgment can seriously hamper your evolution. Love yourself. Remember: beliefs that are ready to be transformed show you the way through their shadows. Be willing to follow your process into seeming darkness and discomfort, to find the gifts being offered there. Blue Night can help to show you that apparent enclosures and limitations are only opportunities to learn.

Blue Night may also signal an unconscious fear of change, from deep core issues to the fear of life's lessons. A unique opportunity beckons and transformation awaits; where the illusions of fear have been separated from consciousness, the gifts of integration and wholeness are found. What appears to be contraction into self will eventually bring you full circle, like the in-yang symbol, into a more fluid and expanded state. Going deep within, Blue Night teaches you its greatest truth: what is contained in darkness holds the greatest potential for light.


White World-Bridger is your Compliment - something that comes naturally to you.

In this life-time you are being asked to release and surrender. Surrender is the opposite of giving up. It is freeing yourself from the desire to be in control, letting go of how you think things should be. Surrender is freedom. You are being invited to release yourself from the bondage of preconceived action, to let everything be all right as it is, so that you can live a more inspired life in the moment!

You are being asked to take action in the process of surrender and release. You are requested to die a symbolic death, to surrender your limiting beliefs. Symbolic death unveils the self by cutting away the outgrown parts of yourself that no longer serve you. In such death, ego structures fall away to reveal the garden of the true self. Look for new ways of being, new people, new ideas, and new directions that will move into the vacuum created through surrender and release. Like yeast, surrender enlivens and empowers you to experience more of life's fullness.

Holding on to past patterns and grievances only limits the possibilities. Forgive yourself. Forgive others. Let go. Surrender whatever limits you. Face whatever you are resisting. In the experience of any loss, it is never too late to complete. Through your willingness to walk in the dark forest, insights and revelations will naturally emerge.

Accept the truth of your present situation. Through accepting what is, you are free to go forward. Change and growth become easier and more natural. Each experience in this enlivened state of surrender allows for more joy.


Your Tone is Tone 9 - Solar

Completion, expansion, mastery, larger cycles of time, fulfillment, grand design.

Nine is the ray of greater cycles, the foundation of self opening to the four points of measure and cycle. It is the grand design, the unfolding order of the larger pattern. With the Solar tone of nine, you are being offered the embrace of longed-for completion. Fulfill your pattern, your circle. Embody the mastery and wisdom you came to express. This ray asks you to be rather than try to be. Embody the wisdom of the larger cycles. Become the one who shines the light for others. You are the humanitarian whose being unfolds the larger pattern of the new world.

In the grand cycle of time, nine is the number of completion and expansion. What is it that you are being asked to complete? Can you see the clues to this lifetime of completion? As you expand, shed old patterns that do not support your growth. Receive completion's fulfillment. You are poised on an arc of a grand cycle of time. In this cycle, time and space fold, past and future merge, and lifetimes meld in completion. Join in the fulfillment of the mystery of the triple triangle by offering your mystery to be woven into the larger loom of reality.

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I create ~ constantly. I cannot help but create and have been an artist of many mediums for as long as I can remember. It all began in the Hawaiian Islands were I was born and raised, designing, dancing and performing as early as the age of 5. My homeland was the perfect nourishment for my artistic pursuits and with every day was brought a new vision, a new dream. The sky was the limit ~ and still is.

Bogville is my most current of projects. Inspired by a world that my fellow denziens and I already lived in, which I one day simply decided to bestow upon a most fitting name. A dark fairytale musical, full of craft and conjury... It took months for me to finish the story of Bogville involving a framework of history behind each character intermingling, to support as a sort of knobby spine for our present day Bogville to cling upon with our own hand made rickety what-nots. Each production being a chapter in the lives of the Creatures ov Bogville ~ Witness and lend us a careful ear, for you may possibly be lost along the way. Be warned, for Bogville has only just begun.

I have been proud member of Portland's premier theatrical fire fusion bellydance troupe SERPENTINE. A sisterhood of like-minded individuals and muses Aradia, and Lucretia*Renee who I merged with beginning in 2007. Becoming a triplet, Serpentine discovered a whole new realm of opportunities and dynamics, and once our combined talents were shared with the public, we made history in Portland one stage at at time.

As a solo artist I have performed for events as noteworthy as the Beloved Festival for DJ Cheb i Sabbah in southern Oregon, and the Lightening in a Bottle Festival for David Starfire in Santa Barbara. In Portland, I regularly danced Tribal Steam at Cabaret Babylon while it was still running & Tribal Lounge during 2008. Currently, you can find me performing for Wanderlust's Sideshow Speakeasy at Dante's amidst a dazzling array of Portland's most notorious Vaudevillian entertainers, flavored with various bizarre cabaret acts as they pass through town.

In Buddhism we can speak at length of the marvelous Seven Serpents (Nagas) of Buddha. They are the Serpents of the Waters of Life. There is no doubt that within India we can discover the Devi Kundalini, the Igneous Serpent that ascends victoriously from the base of our spine. Inscribed in scarlet letters within the Aztec mysteries of Quetzalcoatl, the Feathered Serpent, the Cosmic Drama of Christ burns. That great serpent swallows the enlightened, transforming him into a Dragon of Wisdom.