I'm hoping to get through this and back to working on my still untitled rock album, and hopefully get the record company business plan revised. If my advisor signs off, then it is the full committee's problem over winter break.
The hardest part though is working through the loneliness...I've got friends, a couple of close ones, but the work itself is so isolating that it's tough to get any real socialization during the week. Personal ads aren't really cutting it, and I'm still not exactly sure how I'm supposed to explain to most women that I swing. I'm usually right out with it, but I also get that most of the single ladies I know aren't into it. I'm sure there has to be a way to meet some people with this in common, among other things, outside of my regular play groups...but I'm not even sure where to begin looking. I'd even consider a monogamous relationship with the right woman (or maybe even guy)...but I would want to seriously think it through and get to know her, because it's a huge tradeoff...once I leave the lifestyle, I realize how hard it is going to be to get back into it, if and when that relationship breaks off. And I have yet to meet a woman who would take that time with me...it's like either get in a relationship with me this second, or I'm going to move on. The worst part is realizing that, I'm probably not as aggressive as I could be running pickups, and I've missed some golden opportunities hesitating because of just those reasons.
Despite this, I met 2 women on Friday night, I'm not sure who picked up who...but I did Tarot readings, and most of the standard "Game" method (thank you Neil Stauss!) and they asked for my contact info, so we traded. One is married, the other single...I have yet to write them (I only have their e-mail, Gods I hate an e-mail only close!) and I'm not really quite sure what to say. E-mail is so impersonal, I've always been more of a phone call kind of guy. We've got music in common, so that is always a good place to start...one of them promotes a club out in the city. Irregardless, I'm going to have to suck it up and shoot the e-mail off tomorrow.