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I'm a female to male transexual. I would like to be addressed in all male pronouns. If addressed in other than male pronouns, I will ignore you. I'm a nice guy, with a very long fuse, but it won't take much to shorten it. I like people that have character, a harmless sense of humor and are real (meaning honest). Right now, I'm studying to become a drug and alcohol counselor, but I wish to work with people that are dual diagnosed. (For those of you that don't know what dual diagnosed means, it means people that are living with mental illness and chemical dependency.

I am not presenting myself as a counselor or mental health professional, I am presenting me as me. a human being that is flawed and imperfect, that is working towards fixing some of those flaws and imperfections, but leaving a few cracks and seams open, so that I really don't crack! LOL! At the present moment I'm single, and if you have read some of my postings, you can see why.

I'm not looking for ms. perfect, she only exists in my dreams, and sometimes in my nightmares. I am presently recovering from a life-threatening car accident from 8yrs ago. I went from using a wheel chair, to a walker, to now a cane. I have practiced yoga for five years, and I generally walk about my small city. I try to stay healthy as I can, but sometimes stress can impede that.

I have a wide assortment of friends, that I care about and will do anything for - as long as it doesn't involve anything illegal.-

In my short life, at least in the first twenty years of it, I have had two handfuls of girlfriends, that for one reason or another didn't stay with me. Sometimes they say that someone can be too good to be true, perhaps, but I would think a person that is a halfway, decent person, is worth getting to know and be friendly with, don't you agree? I am not opposed to having cyber with a friend, but only with their consent. I am a gentleman and I will remain that way, with my clothes on or my clothes off.

I'm not much of a health nut, I love to smoke cigars. The next thing to satisfy my oral pleasure is a pipe, but I'm not in a hurry. I love and respect women. I know that a few or possibly many don't like to watch porn, but, I don't consider Playboy TV, pornogrophy. Whether you think the sex that is performed on Playboy, is fake or real ~~ I enjoy it. I love to see people making love, fucking and enjoying each other's bodies.

If I were to actively looking for a woman, I would want her to have a life of her own, have friends of her own, and have a job (even if its shoveling dirt), and have their own goals, apart from mine. I don't need someone that mimics me, or does everything I do, or be up my ass 24/7. I think a healthy relationship includes: honest communication, and to be willing to tell me what she wants in and out of bed. I am no mind reader, and I'm not going to start now. I have ZERO tolerance, for women that enjoy playing games, enjoy hurting other people, using other people for their own selfish purposes, or women that will befriend you, and then toss you in the garbage like you are a used coffee strainer. My interests are many and varied. I am building my life back up, from the many losses I have incurred in the first 20yrs of my life. That includes transportation. My dream vehicle is either a pick up truck, or a Cherokee 4x4 Jeep.

If you ask me for the truth, I will give it to you, but can you handle my brand of the truth?
My brand of the truth does not come wrapped up in a pretty bow, or in a box covered with pretty wrapping paper.

My brand of the truth can be as blunt as a hammer, but is applied with love and gentleness.
My brand of the truth can be as cold and harsh as slap across the face, but a gentle kiss will ease the sting.

Remember, when you ask me for the truth, expect it, and don't flinch -- because one of these days, it will save your life.

When I love a woman, I love deep and I love hard, that kind of love scares women away. I fall fast and I fall hard, and I hurt as deeply and as hard, and long. I have learned how to take my time and get to know a woman, before I can decide if there are any feelings. I am devoted to my studying to the point of being obsessed, but I know when to back off and rest. I devote myself to people that I think that deserve my devotion and dedication.

I have a kind and loving heart, that I wear on my arm, sometimes. Those that take advantage of that vulnerability, to hurt or use me, will get vengence in return, but not by me. I am slow in getting to know someone, but I do speed up the process a bit, I'm not getting any younger, roflol!

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