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March 25th, 2008- I am thinking of changing my sexual orientation. I won't say that I had any type of epiphany recently though perhaps I have, especially while taking a walk in the desert under the influence of some mushroom tea, but after 22 years of homosexuality perhaps I need to rethink my choice. I'll get back to writing about it soon. As hard as it might be for me to imagine a woman (or come to think of it a man) to be attracted to the following stuff I wrote last year and posted here, if one is so inclined please feel free to write. Yes, still looking for a man. You'd think that by now I'd have it fairly well figured out? :) Ah well, such is life, it ain't never too late to learn new things. Hey, a change right there, hmm, I doubt if that makes me bisexual, but I'll see how it goes, I have a few boyfriends at the moment but only live with one for the last eleven years. And yes, I can stop being polyamorous just like that! So if monogamy is something that a potential person writing in response to this posting happens to require of us to be together who is interested in sexual relations with me as compared to being friends or playing cards, what's that called, oh yeah platonic, then you'll just have to see how I respond to your inquiry. Otherwise I can still be as I am currently. And I also would like a few friends of either sex. I made a few just recently at an event. Yep, getting out more often is a plus for finding friends with a similar interest. :) Polyamory confuses me, but it is how I've been for seven or so years though only with men. This happend over time even though we started out in an open relationship eleven years ago, we didn't act upon it. It, polyamory, has a number of emotional shortcomings that are hard for me to overcome. Perhaps it is me and not the lifestyle? It also has many benefits, so it's got pluses and minuses as does monogomy. One thing I do is try to do what my lover likes to do. Since the one I have now doesn't like to do anything sexual with me I have gradually gone crazy and it isn't fair to my other boyfriends that I can't get closer to them because of being here in this kind of deal. Hmm, I hope that isn't the main impetus for my recent trying of new non-sexual things, but it can't be all bad if I'm at least trying to realize what's going on inside myself. I do after all still have a curiosity about things. I've not had heteroesexual sex in 22 years, so I will probably need some patience from any women who might respond if it gets that far. I try to be a quick study. Women are missing a key part of the anatomy, but it seems like it is more than compensated for by what they do have. Perhaps that is why homosexuals get to have it both ways and the hetereosexuals have fixed roles? Yeah, yeah, everyone can mix it up and get creative with whatever sex or gender they are or are with. So I guess it all gets back to the main sex organ, the brain!

3-25-8 Continued--I think writing the above has just given me an epiphany about myself and why I am not sure of which sex a potential mate should be for me to be attracted to them. It is their mind that I will find attractive in the long term. I find people that think like myself attractive if they also have sexual attraction to me. Short term is different, but as usually happens first impressions make a big difference in whether there might be a long term relationship. I can also think of physical attributes too and I do find the male body more attractive if only because I don't particularly like female breasts. I can learn to not dislike them and some women's builds look good to me, breasts or not. I like long hair, so that is something both sexes can have, but is less common in men at this time of history. Hmm, I said I'd write later and I'm writing now. I'm going to stop as I need to think about it.
xxx ooo xxx

September 2007-Please feel free to write to chat, ask questions, or just say hi. The following ad copy is not set in stone and I have plenty of things said in it that are of interest to me, but are not what I'm all about. A connection with someone or more than one is what I'm looking for. And there's always just hanging out sometime or playing a board game or some cards. I certainly do want to explore things about myself or others, but also don't mind leaving all the serious stuff out and just watching a ballgame while we shoot the breeze about the weather and who's running for dog catcher. :)

Copy of an ad I posted in June of 2007====>

I would like to meet someone that would like to try various things. Mild to wild, depends on us and the chemistry between us. We can start slow, or jump right in. I'll try to describe my desires, though from what I've seen they're mostly tame, but not mainstream. Just because I list something here doesn't mean we have to try or do it, it just means I'm open to it or something similar if it's something you like or want to try. Sex and orgasm are part of the outcome I have in mind, but then again not necessarily the only goal. Especially the part listing for meditation and looking at each other and similar things. I don't mind at all, though I do like to have an orgasm or two as it feels real good and it's something to share. I'm not into pain, though some of the things can have a pain element to them or can be dangerous if one is not careful when doing them. Some of the things can be viewed as tedious if you're not into sitting motionless for some minutes at a time waiting for your body to change in feeling. As I do so much of this alone I would like to share with someone or learn about it from another person. Drugs do not have to be a part of any of it, but I have recently discovered MDMA and I like its effects. I have drug testing at work and this limits any drugs that I might want to use to psychedelics, poppers, and the ol' mainstay alcohol, which I'm currently not drinking until late August at the earliest. MDMA has shown me a completely different way of things. It is made for movement, music, and touch. The other side is what I've done for years, which is sit motionless staring upon my reflection waiting for my limbs to grow numb (Fall Asleep) and then make the rest of my body become very sensitive and aware. I have much research to conduct on MDMA, but we can leave it out of this at your choice. I know little of meditation, but I have the feeling that what I do in regards to sitting motionless is similar to it and I'd certainly be willing to give it a try if you'd like to show me and share it with me, or I can show you my technique and we can compare notes if you are an experienced meditator that wants to do it with another person present with possible sexual overtones. With or without drugs. IF we like each other and continue to see each other occasionally or more often, we will get to know what each others likes and his limits and this should help us experiment better and find rewarding things to do.

Kissing
Being restrained, but not bound helpless
Being bound helplessly
Meditation
Touching
Frottage
Mirror looking, staring, or viewing each other
Saran or stretch wrap applied to the body without being mummified, for the
sensation against the skin and how it feels upon the body, various amounts
including enough enough to be restrained, but necessarily so
Low voltage, steady DC current to tighten the muscles through our bodies or
individually
Staring into each others eyes and contemplating or desiring each other
Just kicking it and shooting the breeze or talking
Sex- top, bottom, or both
Sex toys
Hook up, one night stand, or long term relationship, or friends
Think of something that we can do

I am attracted to thin or muscular longhaired men, but this is not a demand upon you as I am much more interested in finding something in common to experience and experiment with. I have longhair as can be seen in the enclosed pictures and am in fairly decent shape. Working man that I am. The pictures were taken in February and I'm about 10 pounds lighter now. I'll be starting an exercise program this coming week to see if I might thin my midsection some and of course tone and strengthen my body. The bicycle has been gathering dust since I stopped working out two months ago, but I'll be in the swing of things shortly. Mountain bike, but I ride on the streets. I'm no racer, but I can cover the distance once in shape. Plus feel free to write to me even if exercise is the last thing on your mind. I'm not interested in exercising with you, but in the things I've listed. Your overall appearance is somewhat important to me, but it is secondary to my wanting to try things with someone of like mind.

Keyword list for those that search as I do and might find this ad when not directly looking for something like this ad---
longhair, long hair, trance, dmt, rave, x, tantra, tantric, rock, aic, alice, hard, politics, drug policy, conversation, inebriation, sobriety, baseball, chess, cards, love, chest, nipple, shave, pink, progressive, sitar, rendezvous, place, empathy, amelioration, left, center, guitar, amp, trip, turn, salvia divinia, perplex, hallucinate, atheism, benevolence, help, merge, sensory, libertarian, liberty, homosexual, queer, bondage, tie, hold, flirt, synthesis, pnp, masculine, press, synergy, god, trial and error, intelligent, intelligence, deprivation, reality, excess, method, planet, mushroom, quiet, focus, space, sci-fi, scifi, science fiction, theory, alternate, future, system, peace, hippy, blues, ecstasy, xtc, allman, alternative, current, philosophy, self, seek, happiness, fun,
Yes, fun. That's important even though I often am way too serious.

Drop a line if curious about me and you need some more information or clarification or just to say hi. I'm not too sure how to write something when I'm unsure about what it is that I'm trying to achieve. I've used the internet for years, but this is my first try at advertising on craigslist. Race is not overly important, it is the connection we make between us that is. I will discriminate against hurtful or stupid people, though I can't always recognize such people at first meeting. If we decide to meet, I prefer a rendezvous or your place, but we can talk about coming here too. Don't let your distance from me stop you from contacting me. If we're a good match or have a strong interest in something together, it is worth my time and effort to meet you. I have profiles on other sites that list various things about myself written at different times. If you'd like to glean a more complete picture of me, I will supply the links upon request. All of this is moot if we're just going to have a one time hook up, but there's a few out there that might want to know more in the hope I might be what they're looking for and are hoping to see more of each other. IF this ad is many days old, don't let it discourage you from responding. I am patient and though I wouldn't right now I am looking for a certain type of person that can take a long time to find. If it's you, then write. And hey, we can always just meet once and be done with it too.