A butterfly flaps its wings...

Buddhism and Animism

el_tortugo — Mon, 29 Dec 2008 05:09:01 GMT

"Each group has different subsects, divided not only by differing interpretations of the Buddha's Dhamma, but also by accretions of local customs, rites, folkways, and earlier religions, for much of what had been a pristine Buddhism is now hopelessly entangled with the gods of the many forms of animism, of primordial religions such as Tibetan Bon, Tao, Shintoism, and so on." - http://www.themystica.com/mystica/articles/b/buddhism.html - http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/shows/tibet/understand/bon.html As if that were a bad thing!

Dancing the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil

el_tortugo — Fri, 26 Dec 2008 22:22:27 GMT

I wish that I didn’t have to be an ancient, reincarnated, bristle cone, grandfather, guru. I get tired of already knowing everyone and everything. Sometimes I can forget and everything is new and unknown, it’s a different kind of magick when all things are new and unknown. This time I was fortunate enough to cover my memories and remembrances with a thick, heavy blanket of snow, helping to chill the past cycles. The problem with the forgetting devices that I lay ahead of time is that I remember. This is such a tactile dimension! So many senses to engage with remembrance. Sometimes to forget for a while I wrap myself up in heavy blankets, curl up into a ball and stare off into space or just fall asleep, slipping into a dark, barren and cold winter. I am from the winter, and my blood line has an interesting mixture of northern and southern tribes, the truly magickal opposites. An alchemy of north and south, fire and ice. Most people think that it’s east and west. That's just a lateral distraction, deceitful diversions crafted by our “keepers.” They are our keepers because we let them. We allow it on so many levels. I keep coming back to make sure they don’t get too far out of line. Where are my robes? Where is my hearth? What are we doing this for? Everything has gotten so detached and disjointed. It is almost not worth returning to anymore. I will keep my word though. We have a long way to go yet. Too bad we will have to go through so much pain and suffering before its all done. I always wonder why we have to be so thick headed, why does it take so much repetition and circles before we get the idea. When will all the dreams and symbols become clear, as we gaze proudly and even arrogantly at the past cultures and civilizations, many of which are still living and crying out to us to wake up and see? A dead, sleeping people see everything as dead, lifeless artifacts. Do you remember when we danced around the fire for days? Running through the forest screaming and yelling the songs of our land, dancing with the elk? We used to swim out beyond the reef together, diving deeper and deeper to see who could hold their breath the longest and to see who could translate into the deeper realms first, anxious to visit with our ancestors and all our brothers and sisters from the inner realms. It is kind of lonely to have to wait so long and to have to keep repeating ourselves. You ask for teachings and knowledge, we tell you straight out, giving you what you need, but you don’t understand it. I am going to go wrap myself in a blanket for a while and dream the sun to rise. Maybe we will cross paths again tomorrow.

Quick update

el_tortugo — Wed, 24 Dec 2008 17:28:11 GMT

wow! Been away from tribe for a long time. I hope to catch up with things here and on my blogs. See you around, t23

IRC

el_tortugo — Sat, 02 Jun 2007 20:05:51 GMT

I am wondering if any of you folks use a particular irc channel or know of any good ones? I am considering opening one at irc://deoxy.org/ called #yoga, in other words; irc://deoxy.org/yoga. I will open this room whenever online and welcome any of you to do the same so that it can stay open and grow. what think ye?

What is your favorite question?

el_tortugo — Mon, 14 May 2007 02:06:44 GMT

"Since everything is but an illusion, Perfect in being as it is; having no good or bad, acceptance or rejection, one may well burst into Laughter."

Bioleteracy vs. Computer literacy

el_tortugo — Tue, 19 Dec 2006 02:43:31 GMT

I am not one for new years resolutions and yet, here I sit, pondering the possibilities. I have some ideas rolling about in me head and not without some serious fore thought on how to actually make them stick. Though I haven't got the ideas sorted out well enough to share them here at this moment, I do plan to post them around online as an aide to remind me and keep me to the decisions.

resist@nce tr@ining

el_tortugo — Mon, 30 Oct 2006 15:55:45 GMT

School and studies have taken up my time lately but I haave incorporated a blog into my study practice, it does help and I can share my findings with you! check it out if you like... http://resistancetraining.wordpress.com/

A Practice Schedule

el_tortugo — Tue, 27 Jun 2006 03:54:56 GMT

1:00 ante meridiem - meditation. 4:30 ante meridiem - yoga and reading/notes as time permits. 8:00 ante meridiem - work unless school day in which case work after school. Breakfast before work, after class. Midday Meal - exact time flexible but close to midday. 4:00 to 6:00 post meridiem - quit work earlier or latter depending on start time. 6:00 post meridiem 'til sleep - yoga, reading, homework, and notes as time permits.

Been keeping some blogs at blogger

el_tortugo — Mon, 12 Jun 2006 02:38:03 GMT

http://nothingness23.blogspot.com/ http://flux64.blogspot.com/ http://riogrande-santafe.blogspot.com/ http://turtleyeland.blogspot.com/ and a forum; http://flux64.org/

Mere flesh wounds

el_tortugo — Tue, 04 Apr 2006 17:00:29 GMT

What in the world could the universe be telling me or leading me to realize by my latest batch of borderline hospital/stitches flesh wounds to the same area of my left hand? Obviously slow down, be aware, be safe and other such outer messages. Is there some use to going thru these annoying injuries? The last one was pretty bad and induced some pretty deep and focused meditation. Also some energy pathways awareness. It was pretty cool to be able to detatch and observe all the process and sensation. http://nothingness23.blogspot.com/2006/04/mere-flesh-wounds-what-in-world-could.html

el_tortugo — Fri, 10 Mar 2006 13:58:04 GMT

Latest attempt at keeping some sort of blog.... http://nothingness23.blogspot.com/

some people say that theres a woman to blame....

el_tortugo — Sun, 26 Feb 2006 09:25:27 GMT

but I know its my own damn fault. Even if I was truely ensnared and trapped... I still fell for the trap. I know now for certain. Alot of things came thru in one night. I am humbled and greatful for it all....even for what I don't yet understand..... I bow in reverence to the inherent wisdom of what is.

Last Straw Sangha forum

el_tortugo — Tue, 24 Jan 2006 04:21:39 GMT

Been working on this forum lately..... http://www.laststrawsangha.org/

Microcosmic pilgrim

el_tortugo — Sun, 13 Nov 2005 22:40:30 GMT

Ever amazed at the possibilites that are presented to me. They seem to be so timely and appropriate. Now all I have to do is figure out why I don't do them. I can see that they are leading to the miracle of everyday life and the exploration of my being as opposed to the ideas of floating off to astral planes and other mystical ideas true thought they may be. Today myself, tomorrow the multierse!

Bear has been visiting lately

el_tortugo — Tue, 25 Oct 2005 03:44:58 GMT

Caution, Healing, Leadership The power of the Bear totem is the power of introspection. The answers to all our questions lie within us. Each of us has the capacity to quiet the mind, enter the silence and know. Just as the bear hibernates during the winter, people with a Bear totem will be quieter during the winter months. But they must awaken in the spring and seek whatever opportunities are around them. When you have a Bear totem, you are being guided to a leadership role. You must be fearless in defending your beliefs. The Bear also encourages you to exercise your abilities as a natural healer.

Been here before?

el_tortugo — Sat, 15 Oct 2005 17:07:25 GMT

I know you have probably felt like you have been here before and have heard others talk about it but Great God Pan!!!! I have been really feeling it lately.... like I knew I was coming here.... chose this situation and am soposed to really get it down this time.... I mean the use of this physical body and interfacing with the environment and all yous. Am I tripping or what?

turtle totem

el_tortugo — Mon, 03 Oct 2005 03:51:08 GMT

Mother Earth Turtle is the oldest symbol for the Earth. It is the personification of goddess energy and the eternal Earth itself. If you have a Turtle totem, you must be mindful of returning to the Earth what she has given you. Honor the creative source within you. Use water and earth energies to create a harmonious flow in your life. Ask the Earth for assistance and her riches will pour forth. If a Turtle totem shows up in your life, slow down the pace of your life. Bigger, stronger, faster are not always the best ways to reach your goals. Turtle is fine teacher of the art of grounding. When you learn to ground yourself to Earth's power and strength, you place focus on your thoughts and actions and use the Earth's limitless energies rather than your own to accomplish your will. Turtle is the keeper of doors and one of the ways into the Faerie Realm.

considerations

el_tortugo — Mon, 19 Sep 2005 00:09:26 GMT

I've been a carpenter now for some time and am strongly considering a switch to accupuncture chinese herbs school... maybe Vancouver... I dunno. I'm also making a move towards fine wood working. If anyone has any comments, leads or suggestions please do pass them my way.

ascetic asthetics

el_tortugo — Mon, 19 Sep 2005 00:03:07 GMT

ascetic asthetics because I actually enjoy sparce meager conditions.... I thirve on that shit..... lived in monasteries, sheds, ....

thinking and hopeing

el_tortugo — Sun, 18 Sep 2005 23:53:08 GMT

thinking about keeping and developing my daily practice and hoping if I think about it hard enough I will actually do it.

bummin'

el_tortugo — Sun, 18 Sep 2005 23:48:13 GMT

lately I am a bit stuck in Santa Fe.... usually after about a year I move on to the next place. I'm on an upswing coming out of a long dark downward spiral. Lots of shit went down and I'm comming back around to my old self (well refined by the fire). Its more of a comming to acceptance with who I am after having scrapped alot of things...trying out different ways of living. Lately I'm just kind of bumming around.... working less and not doing much..... airing out my head I guess. Been considering a move to the pacific north west....maybe even Vancouver. but for now...pretty much slacking and wasting time at the corner wi-fi cafe.... surfing the web.... learning things... talking to the other web bums and being generaly distracted...filling up that bottomless cup'o tea.

howdy!

el_tortugo — Sat, 17 Sep 2005 04:31:27 GMT

Hey, I Check this group if you want to get in touch... http://tribes.tribe.net/notesontheway and if you find it interesting.