Hey is anybody still here?

The meds they have me on makes my head hurt and carbanated(sp) fluids taste like shit what else i cant concentrate for longer than 5 minutes maybe i just need lots of SLEEP i speed most of the night tossing and turning and staring at the tube i cant even concentrate long enough to draw its like the brain and the hand are not communicating i see it in my minds eye but i cant transfer it to my hand same with my pinstriping my hand is as steady as its ever been but half way through the pull i ha... read more

So im sitting here trying to decide if today is going to be a good day or a bad day . Just a warning if your trying to read this shit it wont be in paragraphs/im sure the spelling will be fucked up im just writing it how it comes out of my head.Anyway 15 days Fucken A Churchill this is the cleanest you've been in 9 years and i feel like i can rip someones fucken head off and that is the reason why i am now staying away from the shop during the day and working at nights . Im not going to make ... read more

14th day of being clean !
I hope this time it works......
This entry is a reminder for me.

Im so fucken burned out on cars,trucks,sicles like writers have writers block i have fabarcator(sp),painter,artist block... I have a huge deadline and the preasure is getting to me this job turned into a can of worms i hate jobs like this ! YEAH i want some cheese with my whine i perfer a good brie....and after that i want a good bread pudding with a carmel sauce!