playgrounds off the i-5

friday we'll be making our first drive from oakland to LA , since befoer eamon was born
can anyone reccomend fun places to stop along the way? any playgrounds, or jungle gyms (i'm currently struggling to type, as i'm the junglegym) good rest areas?!

my newwest internet obsession

www.goodreads.com/review/list/1141724

especially handy time-killer at work

etsy

well i finally done did it
been meaning to make my own etsy store for ages
and here it is
www.etsy.com/shop.php
now i just gotta fill it up w/ product
i'm sure there's a good half a dozen projects laying around here i could take/find pics of and upload
such as the raglan shirt i made for ani difranco's baby when i thought i was gonna get to meet her last week (the radio show beever works for interviewed her when she was in town playing at the fillmore, but she ended up phoning it in, so sad for me)

oh fuck me. i just managed to accidentally delete the mei tai i'd listed now i have to start all over. it's bedtime!

too big for boobie?

there's a lot going on for the little man this week

yesterday we finally got a car share car and went to ikea to buy eamon his own table, which he helped me put together ;)
so he doesn't have to draw or play trains or do puzzles on the floor anymore
(we also got a new storage system for his toys www.ikea.com/us/en/catal...ts/S19848442 )

we'd also been talking about setting up his own mattress next to ours. we never used a crib, but held onto the mattress we were given.
and when i did laundry today it happened to include the sheets, so i thought why not set it up now?
i should note that beever pointed out all the kid beds to eamon at ikea, and eamon climbed into each to try it out, and lay down and said "night night eamon"
so he's sleeping in his own bed right now!
our bed is gonna seem huge tonight, and we get to fall asleep cuddling...

but strangest of all is eamon's behavior towards boobie all afternoon. this morning was normal, boobie first thing in bed. asked for it twice later on, i said no the 1st time then he had a bit later on. and went down for his nap on the boob in my arms on the couch ( he doesn't like to lay down in bed for boobie at nap time anymore)

but when he woke up, he had 2 suckles, then said "boobie couch" so we went to the couch where he had 2 suckles on each boob, then said "no boobie" and got down to play and have snack.
i had some coffee right before he woke up so i thought maybe it tasted funny, so i drank a bunch of water. the next time he asked i was busy. and the next time he had 2 sips again and jumped out of my lap. he wasn't even on long enough to have gotten anything.
then while i was making dinner he kept demanding it, i put him off til after we'd eaten and cleaned up. but same thing, suck suck. "no"

and at bedtime, he just wanted story after story. often we don't even make it thru 1 before he demands boobie, and passes out. tonight 2 sips and then back to story. so i tucked him into his new bed, lay next to him in the big bed and read. 4 stories, that was my limit. then he said he wanted boobie, but all he did was hold my boobie, and nuzzle it. at one point i suggested putting it away if he wasn't going to nurse, but he said no "eat it. hands." so he drifted off in my lap holding the boobie, then i slid him into his bed, under the covers. he half woke, and called for boobie, so i lay down and offered it, but he just snuggled up to it, and fell back asleep...

so we'll see what he does in the morning
as tired as i am of nursing sometimes, it made me wanna cry, putting him down in a big boy bed w/o boobie

new youtube vids

beev put some new videos up
there's links on my main page
i'd put them on here again but someone is whining "boobie couch" at me

costume crisis

i talked a lot of shit this year about making us matching costumes (especially after we wore pajamas last year), or not matching but wihin a theme, i wanted eamon to be max, and we'd be wild things... but as it got closer i realized there was no way i was gonna pull off making us big heads
so then i was gonna make eamon a monkey costume, and monkey eaar hood for beever cuz he already has a monkey lookin costume, and i was gonna be a doll.
i bought fabric on saturday, and did nothing
so eamon was a knight, a costume we bought randomly last nov., daddy didn't want to wear anything, the sqare dancing dress i meant to wear was too big (i forgot that's why i've never worn it, but if i'd tried it on this weekend i could've fixed it) which sucked cuz as i'd gathered my turquoise and teal accesories, and wig i was all psyched to be a water elemental. but then i had a costume crisis, cuz the other dress that fits totally clashed, and i don't know where my maroon wig is. so i ended up wearing this dress i hate that i bought when i was pregggo so i'd have something flashy to wear, and i don't know what i was, a snake priestess?, my friend suggested an eel...

plus i was gonna go out drinking w/ some friends after eamon partied w/ his buddy lola, but since it took us so long to get out of the house, and grab dinner, and they were rockin out all night!!, i just didn't feel like walking all that way, plus i was stoned. so i went home and cleaned, and worked on my alter, and meditated, and went to bed...

i'm so readyto make next years costumes this week

butoh guerilla

ok
the past two weekends have been distracted by relatives
and ill-preparedness on my part
but this weekend gosh darnit i'm gonna dance me some butoh in a public place, and cry and drool for Doranne
we always go to the berkeley farmers market on sat. and there's a nice park there, so i figure after we shop i'll pop into the public bathroom to get costumed and makeuped then find a spot under a tree to meditate for 5 min, clear the chatter, remember doranne
then i will dance
i'm guessing around 2:30
center and mlk. i don't know what that park is called
i would love the support of anyone who can make it

vids

finally starting to catch up on editting and uploading videos to you tube
these are from the beginning of june
www.youtube.com/watch
www.youtube.com/watch
piano!

my mentor is dead

i found out earlier today that the woman who taught me butoh dance in college, and changed my life, is dead.
she died of lung cancer on thur.
it's so strange, it's like i'm sad from a distance. the tears come to my eyes, and fade away again
we hadn't really kept in touch, she was kind of a ludite, and rarely used her email.
i would run into her every now and then when i was in oly visiting family and friends
sometimes my mom would see her around town and tell her what i was up to
i always thought i would get to perform for her, or w/ her again
get the chance to show her the dancer i've become
introduce my son to her...

i'm going to dance for her soon
guerilla butoh, just show up somewhere public and dance, to honor her memory and everthing she taught me
i'll let you all know when and where if you'd like to join and support me

here's some more i said about her
tribes.tribe.net/8cf5630b-...da4db78623