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Creating Creation Transforming Transformation --a rant

   Mon, November 3, 2008 - 7:44 PM
A constant flux
In flux
Well said;
A Journey with no end

An eventual outcome of normalacy
We all die
We all live
What is the question of the inbetween?

They are all here;
Behind me
Over me
In front
:Questions
A small percentage of answers
My 10% brain cannot hand the infinite outcomes
of a live time of choice

I ask my self how?
my only is answer is:
nothing
Nothing as the subject of nothing
THe space in between each thoughtout (less?) synapse fire
THe space where myself is only self
I have been there

TOday I cry for their loss
Today I am sad for the moments that are so beautiful and then fade into distant memories
THe friends who disappear
The love that is forgotten and fades
Life that slowly drains away..

This blackness is killing me..
Where did the sunshine go?






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Thu, November 6, 2008 - 10:03 AM
.....ebb and FLOW ....is all I know.
Thu, January 8, 2009 - 1:48 AM
Recently I was reminded that if two rooms were filled...one with light, the other with darkness...and one were to open the door that connected them...well light would pour in.
even though this fact is rational ... and makes sense to my mind..
my heart is in a place that is full of darkness...
times only remembered and never to be had again. ...only memories of those loved...my love endures and thier life lives through me...
I am too blind to see this light...I am alone...in this corner, and I can't bare to turn around to see what is pouring in...
I feel cold...and nothing calls me to movement.