Hubby & I were invited to be a part of piercing ritaul last night. It was our first and we were very neverous to say the least. As former members of local Wicca coven we have shyed away from alot of folks who claim to know "witchcraft". We have been on our own for nearly six years, clelebrating our paths to the Goddess and God. We had a total distrust of others.
Last night helped to rebirth our faith in humanity. The ritual "circle" was very loose. I would have felt safer if there had been better struture in the circle building , but the coming together of community afterwards , well settled those fears.
I danced with my shadow twin beneath the pregrant moon. She almost pulled me out into the woods, out of the protection of the cirlce, if my lover hadn't caught a hold of me. The Darkness laughed and retreated away for another cycle of the moon.
This was as close as I have been to Nature in her rawest forms in a very long time. Although I wasn't pierced myself , I shared in the emotions of those whom were. I was proud to be able to help these, reach their highest states , through outstanding their own pain levels. I am glad I was part the suport team, that lead them down this lesser known path.
Hirya! The Goddess & God danced last night. I wish so I could share that with you all!!!!

I had a hectic and worrisome week. My daughter gave me a heart pallation. She had me so worried that I thought I was going to fall out. Now that everything has worked itself out I can sit back and smile. There for a couple of days, I was pulling my hair out , right & left. I always figured once you got them grown, then worrying would ease up....its gotton worse!!! Jeez! I guess what my mother said about always being a parent is true. It is a job that never ends....nor does ever get easier. At this point, I don't know if I can handle grandchildern.

Went with daughter and hubby to see Stevie Nicks last night. It is hot here in ATL, but we were still blow away. Stevie rocked out!!! She did covers by Dave MAtthews and Led Zep. She was a beautiful, magicial sight.

Little bit sang to more songs than I thought she would remember from her early childhood. I once sang Stevie songs to her when she was a wee babe. I guess she was listening.

We meet some fellow witches. They were sitting in the row in front of us. They introduced themselves to us by saying "Merry meet". We returned their greeting with a "Blessed Be". It is always wonderful to meet some fellow pagans who know how to rock out.

I am so glad that I had the chance to share this with Nikki and my husband, Jon. I feel like this is a memory that my entire famliy will remember and treasure. Thank-you Stevie for granting us this chance to bond.

I rode up to North Georgia by myself and had breakfast with Nikki. She ate a little bit and packed the rest for lunch at work. She still looks terribly small but perhaps thats just because I'm hoping she'll stay my round cheeked baby -girl. Shes working hard and growing quickly as an adult. I try to talk to her gently about how small shes getting . She sighs at me but I do think shes listening ....on some small level.
Thank-you all for your comments and encourgement. It helps to hear from other mothers. I guess since I became a mother at such an early age , I am always thinking that I'm messing up, but I gotta tell ya all, everything looks pretty good.I think we're both going to be alright. I just have to keep faith in her and in the love I have given her over the years.

Went last weekend on Mothers Day and had breakfast with my hardheaded offspring. She didn't eat much. She mostly just pushed it around on the plate.
We didn't get anytime to talk because Hubby went as well and she doesn't loosen up when hes around.We did stop a local fruit stand and buy her tons of veggies and fruits to eat. she picked out all her favorites and promised to eat them.
Its hard to let her be her own adult when every atom of my being is screaming.I'm worried but she seems to have everything togehter...accept how little she has gotton. I just want her to be heatlhy and safe.I'm trying to call her every chance , I get to check on her. Its hard to stay in touch when I live here in Atlanta and shes i n North Georgia. Perhaps I'm just being a bothersome mother and I should just release this and let her find her way. Its why I raised right? So she can go out on her own? Then why does it hurt so badly?