"Break in the New"

now I lay me awake not waiting
I'm taking, making fate; replacing
broken burned-out bulbs of old
the cold and hollow things that hold
me here where I have dwelt and
felt so disconnected from myself
and from the light inside that shines
so bright they say the blind could find
a way to look into my eyes I cannot hide
the fact that I'm alive when I decide
so if I should die before the prize
is mine remind me of this line I write
for you alone have known the hell
I've sewn on earth the first to read this verse
should be the one it hurts me not to see
a love returned for none deserve the
fruits of friendship you have earned
the fire of my respect here I leave it to reflect
all the light so loving warm you bring to me


"The State of Fate"

Dissipate the day
in shades of gray that lay
to waste the ways inwhich I've paid
to see a change
in me between deleted scenes
I swing from moods too deep
to keep beneath
the surface seems to
forsake what's fake
the wake that breaks me
shakes awake mistakes
and makes me take
the life that I deny
the lies I hide behind
and find the light across the line
the sign my mind has come alive
it's time